this isn't real (or a poem)

hyblaean- Julie

Location: Chicagoish, Illinois, USA
Birthday: September 30

Bio: 40; army brat; bisexual... still living with my ex partner (uhm, it's complicated?); perpetually confused, which makes me look like i'm doing a ditzy act, but actually it's not put on; middle class in cash if not culture (freaking finally); INFP/INFJ; SSRI, lithium, nicotine lozenge and caffeine dependent. Driven to laziness, odd fits of needing to 'fix' things, subthreshold hypomanic moments of productiveness (rarely) and random weirdness (often). --------------------------- If you have regular suicidal thoughts, please try lithium. It's worth a shot and has worked wonders for me.

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DECEMBER 6, 2011 8:44PM

Rate: 14 Flag

it's like I finally got that today
been on OS dicking around for a few years thinking this was indeed part of my reality

and it's... not

it's wonderful, and fascinating- absolutely.
I'm not giving it up anytime soon,
but has more akin to gaming buddies than being colleagues or friends with a person.

I can think I know an idea of someone, what they show me in bits and pieces over the years, but that is not them. It might not even be any part of them. THAT is the reality of the internet. It might be the reality of life (but I sure as hell don't want to go there).

How freaking isolating.