ok, back to the article- good lord I do not have any sort of focus or discipline

so many different sides to everyone- why does that always surprise me with delight in my enemies and horrify me in my friends?

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100831/ap_on_go_pr_wh/us_obama

http://www.freep.com/article/20100901/NEWS07/9010363/1318/Obama-Time-to-turn-the-page-as-Iraq-war-ends

I was trying to practice my German comprehension (it sucks) by listening to German radio and ran across the fact that the war was over. S… Read full post »

on the fucking GERMAN raido- hello? Salon? hello? OS? wtf guys? I shouldn't learn about the end of the war that has pretty much lasted for 1/3 my life from another country

light and blessings from me to you *blows in the air*

I am sorry you are in pain, it will pass, hold on.

Grouch, grouch, grouch- god why do I call you back? Why? You seriously piss me off dude- you are in direct competition with me and you ask where I’m interviewing and then fish when I won’t tell you exactly where, and then get off the phone with me quickly when you… Read full post »

and it was such a lovely calm post, why the angst?

Karen wants me to go to bed. I never want to go to bed again, I just want to sit here until I am gainfully employed. I was really tired after the Lithium, but seem to have gotten my second… Read full post »

not that I needed any more confirmation, but damn

wtf is wrong with OS today- slow and cranky Read full post »

not that I needed any more confirmation, but damn

my blood sugar is currently 217 :( I had tempura for dinner (breakfast/lunch) 

I can't get ahold of my parents, and my mom was supposed to find out yea or nay today :(

I am worried. Read full post »

so I'm primped and primed

and nauseous

jesus am i nauseous I keep waiting to have diarrhea

interview in an hour and a half

I am ready, sort of

trembling and being ridiculous but ready all the same

what do I want from this: self respect, a job, money, a… Read full post »

look my first dose about 5 or 10 min ago and feel like a hot mess. I don't remember what it was like when I first started taking Paxil. From England, self diagnosed no less. So obviously there must have been shame if I wouldn't even go to a doctor to… Read full post »

they are butchering those books!!!! Damn, Lafayette died in the 2nd book, and although flamboyant was never more than moving scenery anyway, what is he doing hanging around 3rd season.

That show must drive the author nuts.

http://www.vampires.com/true-blood-sunday-presents-charlaine-harris-b… Read full post »

frustration, why am I unwilling to hear them
they are both good writers, but my heart is blocked
I only see the pride and pretention even when what they are offering is meant sincerely

It bothers me that I am this judgemental
That lack of being able to put my own past aside and… Read full post »

meh

Karen has been consistantly bossy and mean to me for the past few days. She's stressed out over her new class and just being a turd. I'm tired keeping up after her.

I have an interview!!! It's with the place I really want to work in HP. I hope they… Read full post »

Fuckers made Cindy Ross cry, what?! Jesus this place drives me batty sometimes. I mean, yeah, she can be annoying, but manic drive aside Cindy's alright.

I'm starting on lithium tomorrow. that is scary, I mean really scary, it's the lowest dose and only as an adjunct- I won't even need… Read full post »

"In hoarding, the interest is not to show the world who you are, but to experience the objects. Though I suspect that any culture that has a large number of inexpensive and accessible objects is probably going to be one where there’s more hoarding." http://www.salon.com/books/feature/2010/04… Read full post »

and what Lea said. So many patients say they feel like they are trapped in their body as it ages- they feel younger- sometimes much younger- the internet as a help for that. To be who you are, not what your skin says you are.

damn, i have no attention span- got on here to do my morning pages and instead read and commented and floated. Ok, the deal is that i have to write what would be 3 pages longhand every morning, don't worry about grammar, punctuation, spelling, content, just get out whatever scum is… Read full post »

if it were even 50 miles within range of the truth, which it's not. Eloquently put, but factual? uh-uh There is a group that meets outside of here, and they do talk trash about you all. Been there, heard them, watched them blackball the 2 people I like the best, aside… Read full post »

really, I do like you. Don't agree with you, and think you are harming me and mine, but I do like you for all of that. My parents are far right, and I love them. I will refrain from calling you an ass in the future. Though I wish you would… Read full post »

I personally think Kit is a shit stirring bitch who knows (at some level) the trouble she causes and revels in it, but Scanner "I'm sure my lack of education with be real funny to these people who have an education but have wasted it trying to tear other people… Read full post »

never thought I would say that, but there you go

just been a day- not a hell day, not a good day- just a random pick a number day. I'm lonely and tired, so what else is new? The job guy has not called me :( he said a couple of days- this makes 2....I will need to call him tomorrow… Read full post »

I am more emotionally clear drunk than sober- how odd?

still, bad form :( truly, how long have you been online? you know better than that