Ishtar in the City

The life and times of a Crazy Cat Lady in South Africa


Cape Town, Western Cape, South Africa
October 01
I am a single 30-something from Cape Town, South Africa. I'm in IT (I believe for sins committed in a past life), currently working in the public sector but for many years previously in the private sector. I adore reading and am a proudly acknowledged book slut. I like being on my own and have made peace with the fact that I'm one of those people who live in their own heads. I like knowing stuff simply for the sake of knowing. I love cats and am an unashamed sucker for any cute kitty pic.


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JULY 8, 2010 8:24AM

Depression? Apparently not.

Back in January ( I can't believe it was so long ago) I wrote a post on how I was slipping back into depression. Well, things only got worse after that. I was seriously considering asking for Electroshock Therapy or Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation - that's how desperate I was.

 My therapist… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 10, 2010 3:26AM

I think my subconscious is in love

Last night I dreamt that I bumped into an old flame. It was one of those vivid dreams where everything feels so real and intense. 

When I saw him I felt a rush of longing and love. We embraced, the kind of hug where you never want to let go of the… Read full post »

JANUARY 11, 2010 8:51AM

Depressed again...I'm so tired of this

I seem to be sinking into another bout of depression. I've struggled for years to make peace with having depression; the idea being that if I accepted it I could find a way to manage it. But I'm not managing it. Oh there are times I feel great, in control and… Read full post »

DECEMBER 11, 2009 3:03AM

Speaking up for what I believe in

I just did something that scares the crap out of me.

I received an email lauding Sheriff Joe Arpaio of Maricopa County and recommending that we South Africans emulate his example. Everything I've ever read about Joe Arpaio makes me believe that the man is a monster. The thought of… Read full post »

DECEMBER 11, 2009 2:07AM

Cape Town: a high definition view

I received an email this morning with a link to a high-definition picture of Cape Town. I was blown away by what I saw. Please take a moment to see for yourself what Cape Town - the city I love with a passion - looks like.

 I can actually see my… Read full post »

The inspiration for this post came from a recent article on Racialicious asking why Black Americans are playing roles meant for Africans.The article raised several interesting points and, while I didn't agree with everything written, I could at least see where the writer was going and I appreciated tRead full post »

Once again, the urge to rant has possessed me. I don't know if it's because my meds are being adjusted, that I've reached a crucial stage in therapy, that I'm tired after a long year or simply because I feel like it...but I really want to have a general rant about… Read full post »

DECEMBER 4, 2009 2:06AM


My friend's cat had kittens on Monday. These photographs were taken on Tuesday. Mom and kittens are doing well.

PiX 001
 PiX 002
 PiX 3



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NOVEMBER 27, 2009 3:24AM

Beautiful Cape Town

I received an email today with a few gorgeous pictures of Cape Town, so I thought I'd share.

Cape Town at sunset, taken from across the bay, probably from Bloubergstrand or maybe Milnerton. The new Cape Town stadium (built for the FIFA 2010 World Cup) is on the right.

Cape Town at night … Read full post »

NOVEMBER 25, 2009 2:51AM

It breaks my heart

This morning I read an article on a local news site - - that broke my heart. My country is no stranger to horror stories of violence inflicted on women and children but every now and again I hear of something that renders me incapable of shielding myself emotionally.

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NOVEMBER 23, 2009 3:28AM

Please stop praying for me!

This is a rant. I just want to get something off my chest, without being oh-so-careful about everyone else's feelings.

I am tired to my very core of being polite and patient with people who talk to me at length about their religion/faith and who, knowing of my struggle with depression,… Read full post »

OCTOBER 8, 2009 6:48AM

The Beast will soon be a free man

I discovered last week that my ex, The Beast, has a parole hearing on 30 November. He started a 3-year sentence in May 2008, at a medium security prison. He is now in a minimum security prison. He was convicted of fraud so I guess they think he's not a threat… Read full post »

A while ago I wrote a series of blog posts about my ex-boyfriend (whom I referred to as The Beast), the psychopath who wreaked such devastation in my life.

 I'm happy to say that since June 2008 (when I discovered his true nature) so much has changed. Intensive ongoing therapy,… Read full post »

I wrote about about my previous relationship with the psychopath. I described how, in the aftermath of that relationship, I was afraid of relationships and emotional closeness. Actually, more than afraid. I was terrified. Well, recently I made a breakthrough and no one is more surprised than I a… Read full post »

JULY 9, 2009 7:48AM

More madness

I received an email a few minutes ago, not long after I posted about 2-year old Shanelle Labuschagne's senseless death caused by a reckless driver.

The mail told of a couple travelling on one of Cape Town's freeways, who were nearly run off the road by two BMWs dicing (street… Read full post »

Today is one of those days. The bad news is weighing on me. This morning I read an article on News24 about a Health Department employee who drove (sped!) through a red light, hitting a car and killing a 2-year old girl strapped into her car seat. According to the article,/Read full post »

JUNE 3, 2009 9:07AM

Why I turned away from religion

First, some family history... bear with me please.

My mother is and always has been a Roman Catholic. My father was raised Muslim, converted to Catholicism at about age 19, switched to the Anglican church in his 50s and in his last years did not subscribe to any church, though he still iden… Read full post »

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MAY 22, 2009 5:20AM

The Joys of Public Transport: Main Road Buses

I don't know how many of you have travelled on Cape Town's buses but I can assure you it is an experience. Golden Arrow or Sibanye or whatever they're called now maintains (and I use the word advisedly) a motley fleet of buses. Some are new(ish) and fairly comfortable and I always… Read full post »

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MAY 21, 2009 9:26AM

Revised Rules of the Road: South African Edition


The term “Rules of the Road” is actually a misnomer. In practice it is more like “suggestions” rather than rules. The word “rules” is used only to appease the “Authorities[1]” and should not be interpreted as meaning that a certain acRead full post »

MAY 12, 2009 8:29AM

The Beast: A quick note

I discovered an interesting snippet about The Beast yesterday (Monday 11 May). But first a little backstory.

We have an ongoing problem with identity theft here - illegal immigrants get themselves listed as "married" to South African citizens and so doing, obtain permanent residence status. Our Depar… Read full post »

APRIL 20, 2009 9:08AM

Thoughts on solitude and motherhood

I've always been comfortable with solitude. Even as a child I was happy to play all by myself. I remember getting up early - at about 6am - during school holidays so that I could play outside while the day was still fresh and shiny. I had friends in the neighbourhood… Read full post »

APRIL 16, 2009 9:00AM

My LOLcats addiction

I love LOLcats. My daily LOLcats email is one of the highlights of my day. Yes, I know that's probably a sad indicator of the lack of excitement in my life but I really don't care. I need my daily LOLcats fix or else things get ugly really quickly.

Here are… Read full post »

This is the twelth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.

 In previous posts I concentrated mostly on the events. Even so, as I re-read my posts I realised how much I'd left out. A reader suggested I write… Read full post »

This is the eleventh post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.

Those first few months after the confrontation at the prison are somewhat difficult to describe. I look back now and it feels almost as if another person lived… Read full post »

APRIL 6, 2009 9:05AM

The Beast: The confrontation

This is the tenth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.

LMS stared at me through the glass partition. The moment seemed to last an eternity. I don't think I will ever forget that moment. So many other details… Read full post »