A while ago I wrote a series of blog posts about my ex-boyfriend (whom I referred to as The Beast), the psychopath who wreaked such devastation in my life.

 I'm happy to say that since June 2008 (when I discovered his true nature) so much has changed. Intensive ongoing therapy, effective SSRIs for my MDD (Major Depressive Disorder), the support of loving friends and family and finally...me working my butt off every day, has brought me to a place where I finally feel happy. And able to to go on my first date since June 2008!

 This week I had a date with a really nice man. He's intelligent, funny, confident, enlightened and kind. I'm still wary and I will never easily trust again but I am able to give a man a chance to get close to me. I'm able to enjoy his company and the attention he gives me, without feeling that I need to compromise my boundaries or myself. I can confidently state (without guilt) what I want and don't want, what I'm ready for and not ready for. I can stand up for myself without turning him into the enemy.

He's made it clear he's very attracted to me and he wants to spend more time with me. It's nice not having to guess his intentions. He doesn't assume he can call or text me any time he wants to - instead he'll email first, asking if it's ok for him to contact me on a certain day. He understands and accepts my wariness and the fears I still struggle with.

 Time will tell if he continues being so understanding and respectful.

 For now, I'm simply revelling in being able to do something as normal and everyday as going on a date and enjoying the company of a nice man.