This is the ninth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

 I sat for about five or ten minutes, watching the people. I wondered what it would be like to see LMS. I wondered how I would feel in the future,… Read full post »

This is the eighth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

The morning after he left I woke up feeling exhausted. I didn't think I would get much done at work but I also couldn't see myself moping around the flat… Read full post »

This is the seventh post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

 I thought a great deal about these posts over the weekend. This is the first time I'm writing in such detail about what happened, though of course it would be… Read full post »

This is the sixth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

 At that point it was hard to believe things could get any worse. I was tired all the time and very worried about money. I was constantly pestered by creditors… Read full post »

This is the fifth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

 From January 2008 things took a turn for the worse. It started off with small things. LMS often became moody and irritable. He wasn't as affectionate as before, not phys… Read full post »

This is the fourth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

 I needed time to process everything said during that lunch meeting with LMS. He seemed sincerely contrite. He looked beaten down by the experiences of the past few mont… Read full post »

This is the third post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

After LMS ended the relationship I went into a kind of limbo for a while. I didn't want to be heartbroken and deal with all that pain. A few years… Read full post »

This is the second post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

 The second date with LMS went as well as the first - we still had that connection. Within a very short period we were seeing each other regularly and had… Read full post »

This is the first post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.  

In 2006 I decided to end a self-imposed two-year dating drought and dip my toes back into the dating pool. I had a checkered and complicated romantic history and I… Read full post »

I live in a down-at-heel but spacious flat in a beautiful location - on the lower slopes of Table Mountain in Cape Town, South Africa. I've lived in this area for 14 years and I could happily live here the rest of my life.

 My flat leaks in winter, the paint… Read full post »

I accidentally created this blog. I was reading Lea Lane's blog, which led me to odetteroulette's blog (because we share the same first name and I was drawn to her kitty pics), which led me kryptogal's blog and I wanted to comment and to do so I needed to register. And… Read full post »