Back in January ( I can't believe it was so long ago) I wrote a post on how I was slipping back into depression. Well, things only got worse after that. I was seriously considering asking for Electroshock Therapy or Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation - that's how desperate I was.

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Last night I dreamt that I bumped into an old flame. It was one of those vivid dreams where everything feels so real and intense. 

When I saw him I felt a rush of longing and love. We embraced, the kind of hug where you never want to let go of the… Read full post »

I seem to be sinking into another bout of depression. I've struggled for years to make peace with having depression; the idea being that if I accepted it I could find a way to manage it. But I'm not managing it. Oh there are times I feel great, in control and… Read full post »

I just did something that scares the crap out of me.

I received an email lauding Sheriff Joe Arpaio of Maricopa County and recommending that we South Africans emulate his example. Everything I've ever read about Joe Arpaio makes me believe that the man is a monster. The thought of… Read full post »

I received an email this morning with a link to a high-definition picture of Cape Town. I was blown away by what I saw. Please take a moment to see for yourself what Cape Town - the city I love with a passion - looks like.

 I can actually see my… Read full post »

The inspiration for this post came from a recent article on Racialicious asking why Black Americans are playing roles meant for Africans.The article raised several interesting points and, while I didn't agree with everything written, I could at least see where the writer was going and I appreciated t… Read full post »

Once again, the urge to rant has possessed me. I don't know if it's because my meds are being adjusted, that I've reached a crucial stage in therapy, that I'm tired after a long year or simply because I feel like it...but I really want to have a general rant about… Read full post »

My friend's cat had kittens on Monday. These photographs were taken on Tuesday. Mom and kittens are doing well.

 

 

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I received an email today with a few gorgeous pictures of Cape Town, so I thought I'd share.

Cape Town at sunset, taken from across the bay, probably from Bloubergstrand or maybe Milnerton. The new Cape Town stadium (built for the FIFA 2010 World Cup) is on the right.

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This morning I read an article on a local news site - News24.co.za - that broke my heart. My country is no stranger to horror stories of violence inflicted on women and children but every now and again I hear of something that renders me incapable of shielding myself emotionally.

This… Read full post »

This is a rant. I just want to get something off my chest, without being oh-so-careful about everyone else's feelings.

I am tired to my very core of being polite and patient with people who talk to me at length about their religion/faith and who, knowing of my struggle with depression,… Read full post »

I discovered last week that my ex, The Beast, has a parole hearing on 30 November. He started a 3-year sentence in May 2008, at a medium security prison. He is now in a minimum security prison. He was convicted of fraud so I guess they think he's not a threat… Read full post »

A while ago I wrote a series of blog posts about my ex-boyfriend (whom I referred to as The Beast), the psychopath who wreaked such devastation in my life.

 I'm happy to say that since June 2008 (when I discovered his true nature) so much has changed. Intensive ongoing therapy,… Read full post »

I wrote about about my previous relationship with the psychopath. I described how, in the aftermath of that relationship, I was afraid of relationships and emotional closeness. Actually, more than afraid. I was terrified. Well, recently I made a breakthrough and no one is more surprised than I a… Read full post »

I received an email a few minutes ago, not long after I posted about 2-year old Shanelle Labuschagne's senseless death caused by a reckless driver.

The mail told of a couple travelling on one of Cape Town's freeways, who were nearly run off the road by two BMWs dicing (street… Read full post »

Today is one of those days. The bad news is weighing on me. This morning I read an article on News24 about a Health Department employee who drove (sped!) through a red light, hitting a car and killing a 2-year old girl strapped into her car seat. According to the article,/… Read full post »

First, some family history... bear with me please.

My mother is and always has been a Roman Catholic. My father was raised Muslim, converted to Catholicism at about age 19, switched to the Anglican church in his 50s and in his last years did not subscribe to any church, though he still iden… Read full post »

I don't know how many of you have travelled on Cape Town's buses but I can assure you it is an experience. Golden Arrow or Sibanye or whatever they're called now maintains (and I use the word advisedly) a motley fleet of buses. Some are new(ish) and fairly comfortable and I always… Read full post »

Introduction 

The term “Rules of the Road” is actually a misnomer. In practice it is more like “suggestions” rather than rules. The word “rules” is used only to appease the “Authorities[1]” and should not be interpreted as meaning that a certain ac… Read full post »

I discovered an interesting snippet about The Beast yesterday (Monday 11 May). But first a little backstory.

We have an ongoing problem with identity theft here - illegal immigrants get themselves listed as "married" to South African citizens and so doing, obtain permanent residence status. Our Depar… Read full post »

I've always been comfortable with solitude. Even as a child I was happy to play all by myself. I remember getting up early - at about 6am - during school holidays so that I could play outside while the day was still fresh and shiny. I had friends in the neighbourhood… Read full post »

I love LOLcats. My daily LOLcats email is one of the highlights of my day. Yes, I know that's probably a sad indicator of the lack of excitement in my life but I really don't care. I need my daily LOLcats fix or else things get ugly really quickly.

Here are… Read full post »

This is the twelth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.

 In previous posts I concentrated mostly on the events. Even so, as I re-read my posts I realised how much I'd left out. A reader suggested I write… Read full post »

This is the eleventh post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.

Those first few months after the confrontation at the prison are somewhat difficult to describe. I look back now and it feels almost as if another person lived… Read full post »

This is the tenth post in a series about my past relationship with the man I mentally refer to as The Beast.

LMS stared at me through the glass partition. The moment seemed to last an eternity. I don't think I will ever forget that moment. So many other details… Read full post »