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FEBRUARY 20, 2011 7:23PM

Apologia

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I suspect it was you in the tent, speaking of Socrates and Soros and Galt and Gore, the latest device and back to school cuffed jeans, near the packed cars, sand, with me in no-man’s land, some latest device for old songs, sung by wounded poets, not the dead ones, the bleeding.

 

 When they showed the rat’s tunnel, and hedged side deals, like clean 45 records, the Bojangles inyah, now near the burning tires, calling the name of the editor, to reverse engineer the cost of sleep.

 

None of that code designed for the poet.

 

 Too much of the mulligan man, the way you found scraps of penned rhyme, that taut roll of birch bark, the moths yet awaiting the light, those spring roots plants from Jung, and marvelous Groppi Liberals reading fine print as Air Force One flew over. 

 

 You said no, the wings did not rock.  You said he was only trying to jettison the blue ice from the toilet.

 

I laugh away the hours, your face seen upon rare clouds, high, laughing, or at least smiling as your wired jaw permits.

 

  Don’t think I did not see and cry later, about the pus alongside the brace on your neck.  You were walking strongly, albeit wobbly, bravely, and all I could do is wash your feet in my mind, on the road, you know.

 

 Don’t forget that I see my red face on a black wall, and can identify more episodes of the Twilight Zone than Kenneth Patchen, how you saved what was left of my mind as the blond children canned tomatoes, and stretched their mouths, and crossed their eyes, honking or cutting the willow branch, its safety pin hook, to the brook.

 

  Chubs chubs the twins yelled, small red seeds on chins, sticky to baby mosquitoes, the sound of the soliloquy, timeless as the old bull through rusted wire, menacing, the winter heaved top soil, thistled, May shade as dense as war, wonderment of bow saws and sawhorses older than serigraphs, older than the sun.

 

  And now the snow falls. Thanks Ted H., Sylvia P., You own it. 

 

 Days of  unpasteurized milk, raw milk, a lesser known topic, like the heat of a pressurized cooker, its steam of forgotten boilers, twenty-seven boats to high-heaven smithereens, and of board games with original instructions, dried like Lincoln’s purple grapes to the sea air, on spindled chairs with nine spokes, with you free-falling, jettisoned supersonically, alone with the wind.

 

Don’t even dwell for a moment, nor catch my eye off camera, how anger palsied my lip, mine eyes cast down, like the boy sent ‘round back, for a jug of water.  The raw sugars of my lemonade, when all I could do is look away, and trust the breeze, to bring songs of the disenchanted.

 

  You may remember me of each summer, until you went off with the porpoises, all that etymology like the deep stasis of the Bermuda Triangle, me one more in line, shaking your bandaged hand, with some secret privilege and awe of a statue, pivoting before the communication center, the hammer ride perpetual, barely suckling sized pigs on straw, despite the screams of terror.

 

Pleasedtomeetyou was all I had, American.

 

 Straight-armed jets precisely at 4 am, always with the 4s, the afternoon lull, free as a gull.

 

  When all I could do is fly away.

 

 Or wait for the train, or catch your severed arm, the surgical metal paper box cut, as you kept trying to stand up, strongly, albeit wobbly, bravely.  

I did not intend to write to you of mice and men,* or saddest words of filmic soliloquy, but of the day when I saw you enter the bat house, the last in line, as the teacher turned your head in the right direction, sos you would not be the child alone, screaming baby talk at the ripe old age of four.

 

  There was a lake breeze that afternoon and, you know, all I could do is follow the sun.

 

  

Double enjambment here.  Just enjoy. Gloria and me are off to Aruba. Forward the money order to Charlie’s. There’s room to read there.

 

 This will be our first escape since 9/11 and your horrific death.

 

Oh, by the way, I still haven’t finished your dissertation on karma.

 

 It’s beneath my pillow.

 Regards (with boldest solidarity) I remain,

                                 Jim
 

                                   *Farmers Almanac, 1963

 

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Long strange trip, this. You anchored me with Father Groppi. This will give me bad dreams tonite, dude.
I don't really know what to comment here. This speaks of events beyond my realm of experience. I know the writing is good because because even though I am in somewhat unknown terrority, I feel every word. With the sign off 1963, I'm assuming the 9/11 is not the 9/11 of recent history -- but still I smell war.
Howdy, SS! Always four more acres. I am altering *1963* to *1939*.
Yes, I refer to the trauma of 9/11. Erica and I have not flown since. More happenstance than fear, personally, and no--I do not ascribe to any rehashed conspiracy, other than what's been peeled back from the onion. Do I believe it was a systemic meltdown of the military/industrial/legislative complex? Fucking A. My early soundings of Apologia suggest that I lost light, and I must thank you for your patience. Deep winter of the soul. Rather off plan as I'd intended to bake chocolate chip cookies (at least a thousand) for the avant garde on the streets of the Capital of the World, but I sense I've eyes on me, and there are several opaque windowed trucks cruising about. Also, my initial (mind flash) title was,
Nikita Khrushchev you Motherfucker...(1956 pounding his shoe)
but after awhile, I wasn't sure what good that would do, and I tend to forget the utilitarian value of dovetailing to the demographic. Also, I omitted the intended tag: Save our Cities!
Hello, DEW. Not the usual shot 'n beer, but thanks for the recognition. I see that you sense the finish line of 'Complex' (maybe not....what are you? a creative machine?!) and I can only posit (again) that it is marketable literature....
@Matt Paust:

Just wrote up and lost a 45 minute comment to your worrisome comment. It encapsulated 45 years of contemporary history, literature; it was humorous, humble, inquisitive, witty and concerned.
Also I'd some unique comparison of you and Ernest Hemingway, recommending that you have a drink and read something delicious like, *Birds of America* stories by Lorrie Moore.
What's up Doc?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piUWIqWSthA&feature=related
You talk of many things, of Kings and Cabbages. "Socrates and Soros and Galt and Gore", "...the blue ice from the toilet".

An avalanche of the psyche!

A kaleidoscope in the hall of mirrors.

Speak this poem aloud so you don't miss the rumbling overtones. Glad to shake your bandaged hand!

PS
Speaking of Reading....check out Fred Hallman's performance Theatre.

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