Hmph....

It's an absolutley beautiful evening tonight. The cool, clear weather is a lovely break from the brutal summer we've had here in the midwest. It's the kind of evening where you feel suddenly more alive than you've felt in a long time. The kind of evening where you think of days… Read full post »

I'm feeling lucky these days. Something I haven't felt in quite some time.  Money is still very tight. The high cost of living in Johnson County is killing me. I still have an ex-husband to deal with. I still have lots of debt left over from the marriage/divorce. I still live… Read full post »

For years, I have had a bit of a shell around me which hasn't really allowed me to think much about my father.  I guess you could say there is a lot of water under the bridge. A wall or two. Some denial, perhaps. Oh, I suppose there were a few… Read full post »

The power of silence. The dual personality of silence. 

Sometimes silence is so welcome. So necessary. The silence of a quiet house at night, when the kids and pets are finally asleep. No more ringing of the phone, no more jabbering from the television.

The silence that falls… Read full post »

I had been using trazodone as a sleep aid for about 6 or 7 years. It was part of the effort to anesthestetize myself against a horrible marriage.

I had been riddled with anxiety and sleeplessness at bedtime for years. One day a friend suggested I try one… Read full post »

I'm divorced (apart almost two years now) and share custody with my ex. We have two boys, age 9 and 14.  My 9 year old called me sobbing about a half an hour ago, and wanted to come over to my place because he'd been grounded. I painstakingly drew the story… Read full post »

Last night, I went to see the band Shooting Star with a girlfriend.   Shooting Star started out in Kansas City in the 70's. They became quite popular in the city and surrounding area, and eventually came to be fairly well known throughout the country. There are some rabid fans in Kansas… Read full post »

 Disclaimer -

These are just my thoughts on what I like about men. I'm pretty much just concentrating on the outside stuff, and yes, I KNOW there's so much more to a man than the physical. There've been fellow OSer's who've written similar things about women...and well...they've been kind of bla… Read full post »

I AM

I am smart and fun

I wonder about myself

I hear people

I see roller coasters

 I want a dune buggy

I am smart and fun.

I pretend being sick (not)

I feel water

I touch water

I worry about ghosts

I cry on a… Read full post »

Today, just after midnight, a friend of mine was murdered at the convenience store he was working at. It was one of three jobs he held. Just trying to get by. It was to be his last night at this job, because the hospital had hired him full time.

He… Read full post »

BORED

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In reponse to Lisa Kern's Good News Sunday about skipping the gym and just laughing more, I decided that I too need to laugh more. My boys and I laugh all the time (we're all quite funny ya know). But then there's that whole week that they're with their dad, and… Read full post »

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

TRIG PALIN!!!!!

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She sits in silence
Fractions of thoughts
Richocheting through her brain
Each one incomplete
Each one ejected as quickly as it entered
 
What does she want for…
Why is it so hard to…
If she could just…
If only there was…
How is it that she….
 
Why is it… Read full post »

I imagine there might be more than a few saying, "who's Todd Mohr?". I can help you with that.  Todd is the singer for Big Head Todd and the Monsters. I saw them with my brudders this past summer, and then became, ahem, FRIENDS with Todd on Facebook. Yes, friends. We're… Read full post »

The big boys are lounging, otherwiseknownas playing video games. So the little boy and I decided to make a little house. Here are the results of our hard work. Check out all the different views, courtesy of the little one.

Extra special touch, the dude inside.

%IMA… Read full post »

Once upon a time, as a child, my birthdays were celebrated each summer on June 22th. There was never any reason to question my birthdate. My birthday was my birthday, like my brown eyes were brown. I had three brothers, and they all had their own birthdays. So did my friends. So did Mo… Read full post »

Sierra is two years old, and needs a friend. I can tell, by the look in her eyes.

Jean-Luc. Hmm...I'm gonna say, he's not for me. He looks a bit pissy. But, perhaps it's the shelter, and I shouldn't use this picture to decide.

Tia - she's… Read full post »

One year ago today was the official beginning of my new life.  I guess the unofficial beginning was the day I made the decision and the words were out of my mouth. But today, yes, today was the official beginning. 

November first was the day I moved out of my house… Read full post »

1. Who was your FIRST prom date? 

My first prom date was my first love. See below. We went to the prom, and afterwards, went to the beach, where we stayed all night until the sun came up. It was magical. Then we went to his house where his father… Read full post »

I imagine there will be stories that will far outweigh the woes of our story. For those who have been through much, much tougher times, my heart goes out to you.

In the big scheme of things, my son's brachial plexus injury is minor. He can walk, talk, function as a… Read full post »

Here's a funny story. About divorce. I guess it's not so funny. Now that I think about it. But anyway...

My youngest son told me the other day, after I asked, that his cousin had delivered her baby. I knew she was due very soon. This cousin is my STBX's sister's… Read full post »