poetry seems to me

              to be

                 about uncertainty;

             &… Read full post »

to you

   the way

             is through

                          a forest of stormbeaten fronds,

 … Read full post »

a weeping willow made love to me today,

softly wriggling its branches on my arm.

i thought of you 

where you are

getting the famous "help you so desperately need"

and knew: i too

from u

will someday get the help

i so need... Read full post »

WARNING: THIS IS FULL-BLOWN PROPHECY IN YR FUCKIN FACE

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 the "meaning" of this shit

is in between the lines...

meaning is in the Interval.

That is deity:

the Interval.

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Give… Read full post »

"and he shewed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal..."

THE BOOK OF REVELATIONS 22.1

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  Someone whom i have trusted with my life told me today: "be a good slave".  I am struggling to follow her advice.

  I… Read full post »

Relapsing is

returning to old habits. Backsliding.

We both relapsed this week ...

        to a habit I thought I'd overcome long ago: love.

                 I had replaced it with… Read full post »

  Riz reclined majestically on his couch, sans shirt and pants. His 350 lb buddha body was squirming. He was on the phone with his little bro, and there was trouble.

  "He killed himself? after he killed someone? timmy, what the hell? You coulda been there! He coulda shot… Read full post »

you saved a rat tonight

from a sinking ship

just as he was about to

abandon it...

ship of fools

& schools

of thought

on how

most irrelevantly

to tie up the phone lines.

the phones

played their tricks on us tonight.

i'm sitting here wondering

if they… Read full post »

do we have free will or is everything planned?

THIS IS A RAVE IN PROGRESS...ALL YOU WHO WANNA ADD TO IT AS I WILL BE, FOREVR MAYBE,

JUST COME ON &

B R I N G   I T...

 James Lovelock had a momentous insight about 40 yrs ago.  Here is how he remembers it:

"The personal revelation of… Read full post »

(sorry for the ridiculous title, but it got u to read it....!) 

  I'm at the town library. 2 beautiful black children are next to me, a girl and a boy, the boy 7 the girl 9? "i jest tole you what to do, u dont lissen" sez the girl...the boy… Read full post »

  We are told that hypomanics built America.

  Hypomanics, segregated, now comprise a subculture.   They are gradually recognizing each other.  It is like night and day: we converse with the Normals, who live in a dreamscape, a nihilistic nightmare world.

  We reject it,… Read full post »

 'Brothers and sons of America

til our faces pale & yellow

heads depressed

voices weak, eyes downcast,

hands work-bruised

feet bleeding on the sultry sands

and the furrows of the whip

descend to generations that in future time

forget..."

"AMERICA:A prophecy"  WM. BLAKE

&… Read full post »

3:30 pm...Manchester, CT:

Watching "Gandhi" with the real Riz, whose name is Ryan..

he is my capo sometimes, other times my consiliere...

met mr. mustard today in the flesh...

He clued me in on OS...

Couldn't believe I was talking about OS to a "real" person.  It seemed like   a… Read full post »

  I was late for the weekly  7 p.m. group therapy I facilitated at the Moravian Buddhist Church because some joker blew up my new Lexus, and I had to stick around at the scene and answer a slew of tedious questions from the cops.  This was the third car I'd lost… Read full post »

  I was "enjoying" the solicitude of the Manchester Area Conference of Churches' shelter when I had a run in with MACC's Executive director and was kicked out on my ass.

  We "guests" were lined up one night in front of the establishment, and some of us were encroaching on town pr… Read full post »

Life is a multimedia work of Art.

Art is all.

The point of the universe is Beauty.

You fill up the Universe beautifully...the conscious recognition of this is not difficult to achieve: feel the body bliss in every idiosyncratic movement...it its yours...and you fill up the Universe...it is for you,… Read full post »

Some of us-- the meek-- have a certain shame of expansion

We allow our self space to be brutally territorialized

and we shrink to the smallest volume we can sustain

(or we shrink to nothing)

When the meek inherit the earth,

it will be by

colonizing the space we now… Read full post »

I suggest:

just

   slow

         down

                   now....

and everything you see

  can be

    the production

  &nb… Read full post »

to the princess...sorry,

the prince's love comes tumbling down 

for the Lion Within...

not for you...

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Hamlet had anger issues. He was consumed by seeking revenge for his Father's death. 

But his Father was better off… Read full post »

  I went to see Riz yesterday in his section 8 suite. He was recovering from a second bout of pneumonia, which he got because he never moves around much. Just sits in his new brown recliner, phone in hand, laptop on his meaty thighs, diet coke on an endtable next… Read full post »

This is my take on Christianity, which I kind of like, though it's scary.

In the First Coming---including the Cruci-fiction , the Resurrection, etc---- Christ generously conquered the Spiritual World for Us. Thank you, J.

Our souls are now saved.

But… Read full post »

  Recognize that you are now part of a Family.  Your previous family is still there, but: it is now probably estranged from you. Don't weep & moan about it. It is time to prove to them that you are a self-sufficient mother-fucker, so they don't wanna hear alot of anger… Read full post »

  I am writing this in the local library. I am known there, and it is now known by them that I am "homeless".  I have 30 minutes to create a masterpiece..

  My mother died today.  No, not today, this is the death date of her sojurn through this vale of… Read full post »

she :   "stop all that that yre doin there, buster..."

he : "for why?"

she : "for yre doing yr hide & seek with me again..."

he: "simply yr perspective, sweetie...from mine, the dialectical opposite of..."

she: " 'dialectical'? "

he: "180 degrees away.."

she : "aha, mm"

he: "from… Read full post »