The goal to be reached is the mind’s insight into what knowing is.

Impatience asks for the impossible,

wants to reach the goal without the means of getting there.

The length of the journey has to be borne with, for every moment is necessary;

and again we must halt at every stage, for each is itself a complete individual form.

GWF HEGEL,       ‘PHENOMENOLOGY OF SPIRIT’

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I am as white as they come. Whiter than Mitt Romney or Paul Ryan.

Yet I have this nagging fear of being hauled away: arrested, maybe. Or ‘committed’ to a hospital. Or …just told to ‘’tone it down’’.

I have lived my entire life like this.

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At two and a half yrs old, I fell onto a steam radiator and received burns on my chin. Mom says I screamed all night for 6 months as they healed.

They never healed. My red mark of shame.

Shame for what? For not being perfect. So many youngsters in my elementary school were fine physical specimens, and knew it, and knew it was important. They called me ‘’scarface’’. The bullies.

I retreated inside.

Far inside.

And never emerged.

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Anti Semitism seems to be an issue. Why would that be? I have researched this culture and find it to be admirably erudite. They like to read and think about what they read, as do I. We read different things, that is for sure, but I live by the adage, “every book can be your bible.”

I got a lot of bibles lying around gathering dust.

I used to do nothing but read, and now i seem to have lost my attention span.

I can read two or three paragraphs, then I get bored or sleepy and wanna jump on the computer to share the amazing insight I was just given.

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 Jews?I think they are a little too o.c.d. regarding all their holy rules, but it is not my business to criticize how someone makes this world a safe place for their sanity, and the sanity of their children.

 I got my own rules, certainly.

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I gotta say, some of them are Jewishey. Some Christianey. Some Buddhistey.

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I live for the now. The here. We have all heard that we should live in the now, and we make tremendous efforts to do so. But remember the here, as you access the now.

This ‘here’ is a makeshift stage for your ego. Whatever fills it up is what you have arranged, through many years of life, to fill it. It is eminently changeable. It can also be very static. You can get stuck in a certain here/now that gives you a sense of security. Even make rules for yourself on how to make it permanent.

That is like catching the river in a bucket.

There’s the water, but it aint moving anymore.

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A lot of religions are like that. Philosophies too.

They demand to be a still pail of water you have captured from the raging river, with all their rules and injunctions and whatnot.

But if a religion or a philosophy doesn’t give you the Lift, the Upsurge, the Cosmic Epiphany, the splice of satori, or the union with the Godhead, I say…put it down.

And then rethink it, rewrite it.

That’s actually what the Jews have been doing for thousands of years. Rewriting.

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What is ‘’absolute’’? In other words, ‘’absolutely true?”

Best definition of it I got, and I got a lot is:

“THE TRUTH IS THE WHOLE.

THE WHOLE, HOWEVER, IS THE ESSENCE

WHICH COMPLETES ITSELF

THROUGH ITS PROCESS OF DEVELOPMENT.

OF THE ABSOLUTE,

ONE MUST SAY IT IS ESSENTIALLY A RESULT..

IT   BECOMES

WHAT IT TRULY IS AT THE END…

ITS NATURE: TO BE ACTUAL,

TO BE SUBJECT,

TO BE THE BECOMING OF ITSELF..”

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Zen and Buddhism and even good mystical Christianity and Jewish Wisdom puts it less rationally, more succinctly. But this appeals to me.

Peace and Love.

Become.