okay, i dont like talking about sex, and especially sex *I* have, out loud, ever.  oh sure, a dirty haiku now and then, for the fun of it.  a terribly tawdry haiku once (which was scorned and i reacted badly to the scorn and started one of the famous OS wars… Read full post »

gonna keep this pretty short.  five bullet points, thats what i will do.  with a disclaimer.

the disclaimer is this:  i campaigned for and voted for obama in 2008.  i did not expect him to win, and when he won, i wept.  i wept off and on the whole next day,… Read full post »

eitaph - noun - a phrase or statement written in memory of a person, esp on a tombstone

epithet - noun - 1.  an adjective or descriptive phrase expressing a quality regarded as characteristic of the person or thing mentioned

                 … Read full post »

i KNOW its a car commercial!

and feh on commercials and new cars!

but i have loved matthew broderick since war games - remember that movie?  i LOVED him.  ah, so cute, so smart, so geeky.

and then of COURSE i loved ferris bueller, even if i did find the whole… Read full post »

how to pick a boy

i used to pick a boy

by not picking a boy

my stomach picked him

you can't pick a boy, i'd declare

life isnt that simple

woody said the heart wants what it wants and woody got that one thing right

the old goddamned perv… Read full post »

the darkness is passing over, and i believe i have strong evidence for it being hormonal.  dont get me wrong - things suck.  thats true.  my expectations and hopes for the boy remain what i said in my last post.  but i dont feel like i am half an hour away… Read full post »

losing track of all the sleep i havent gotten

last night's five hours felt pretty extensive, though.  nowhere near enough, true

but,

damn sight better than the three i have had a couple times, recently

menacing dreams continue.  last night it was that i could talk on the phone with… Read full post »

** no time to fix this up properly.  but do want to make sure all o' y'all know that i know how putting the best spin on things helps.  i wouldnt have made it this long if i were not a master of positive spin.  however, i dont have enough positive… Read full post »

saw it tonight.

quick impressions:

michelle williams is so gorgeous you cant even stand it.  however, she had to GAIN weight to play marilyn at least 20 pounds lighter than marilyn really was.  

as a result of this, they had to be very careful to keep her extremely vein-y hands… Read full post »

well, decided, after yet another shabby night's sleep, and feeling general malaise that was not being fixed even with music, and music ALWAYS fixes me, to take to the bed.

it's a phrase for a reason, you know.  i didnt invent it.

if i take to the bed, that means i… Read full post »

a new couple came to visit

she has a cane and perfect gray toni tenille hair

i wanted toni tenille hair so bad when i was little

remember their bulldogs?

the wife seems quite deaf, and smiles a lot

he has a wide irish face, though his name is… Read full post »

You have heard Roosevelt's quote about nothing to fear but fear itself, hundreds of times.  It always made no sense to me, because fear is certainly not the only thing we have to fear, and he was too smart a man to not know that.  So, here is the quote with… Read full post »

open mic.  missed half of it, coming home to check on the boy, and letting myself get distracted with OS, as is my wont.  yours too, and you know it.

then, thought we would have six open mic-ers here, but we had EIGHT, PLUS the boy stayed up here with… Read full post »

i went to sleep early, early-ish, anyway.  probably before 11.  woke at 2.  was awake, for a while, i could tell.  and havent slept since.

too much going on.   too much figuring out.  too much up in the air.

that doesnt mean there arent good things, though.

yesterday, s… Read full post »

ok, so, you already know that last night i awoke and heard whispers and felt pressure on my bed and my first thought was "incubus!"

now, that is ludicrous, even to me, just so you know.

never had an incubus, probably dont believe in incubuses, was kinda making fun of myself… Read full post »

Now that you found yourself losing your mind
Are you here again?
Finding that what you once thought was real
Is gone, and changing?

Now that you made yourself love me
Do you think I can change it in a day?
How can I place you above me?
Am I… Read full post »

and i swear i heard whispers, and felt a pressure on my bed

oh my god, i said.  a goddamned incubus?  huh-uh.  and i reached right over and turned on the light.  he left.  damn straight.

cause i might be broken,  i might not be viable, its true.  im not viable. … Read full post »

netlfix streaming is only 8 dollars a month, and has a lot to choose from, and is a tremendous savings from paying a cable or satellite bill.  added to hulu, which is free, you can really be perfectly satisfied.  you cant watch jeopardy, you cant watch MASH, you cant watch Babe,… Read full post »

sometimes, when the ship is sinking

no longer listing, but sinking

and there are no boats left

and the likelihood of treading water is unlikely, and the likelihood of getting sucked under with the boat is very great

and you are already wet from spray and whatever

and you… Read full post »

i knew him being a teenager would not be easy on me

i have dreaded, forever, the day he would come in, give me one syllable, go into his room and close the door.

i know i am supposed to be okay with it, but i miss him, often when he… Read full post »

Dear Diary,

Though I am still a Starving Student, I am not so sure that being Hopeful is still warranted.  

It seems I am losing my mind.  I know I have always teetered on the edge, but now I am falling over that edge with wild abandon.  There is a… Read full post »

you all know poison iVy?  i assume you haVe all had it, eVen?

you know it is a Vine, which can kill its host?

the oil on the leaVes is toxic, poisonous.

simply innocently brushing against it can result in an ugly rash that can last for months.

some people… Read full post »

go to your new post window right now.

above the text box are the two rows of formatting tools.  bottom right is the omega doohicky.  click it, and look what you can do!!

↑   an up arrow!

and

←  side arrow!

§   that thing there, some entwined esses!&nb… Read full post »

the fundraising event is over.  dont have an exact total till i sit down with the director and see what was donated that is not on my tally (i know we got at least one additional sponsor, dont know at what level).

which means that between something like december 20th and… Read full post »