My Third Eye: One Woman's Vision of the Great Mystery

Via the Paths of Creativity, Cancer, Folly & a Wild LOVE OF LIFE

Jane Underwood

Jane Underwood
Location
San Francisco, California, USA
Birthday
October 08
Title
Owner
Company
The Writing Salon
Bio
I'm a mother, writer, photographer (amateur), and owner of The Writing Salon, a school of creative writing for adults, in San Francisco. I'm also a woman living with breast cancer (since Aug. 2005), working to heal myself (and to understand just what that means, REALLY). Since I'm beginning this blog six years after my breast cancer journey began, the first post is a flashback to that fateful day. The rest of this blog will be, I suspect, a kaleidoscopic mix of past and present, as I refer to the first six years of living with breast cancer... but also focus on the present. And the present contains a whole lot more than just breast cancer. So be forewarned: I will frequently digress.

MY RECENT POSTS

Spirit is here, sends

you her love,

wants you to know

she's sorry she had to leave

so soon. But says

not to worry,

she's doing fine.

 

There's something

about a scar, it's fairly new.

¨Do you understand?

She… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 22, 2011 11:17AM

Circus Mom Memories

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1989: My six-year-old son Will wants me to watch him do the acrobatics trick he just mastered. I sit down on the bleachers at the San Francisco Circus Center, where Will first took a basic tumbling class… Read full post »

Crap. My beloved Breaking Bad is over until its final season happens, which won't be until NEXT SUMMER. A*!hole networks and TV people, how can they make us wait that long?

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Rain Painting

 

    Lenore turned her back for all of three seconds, and Olivia stole one of the carrots off the kitchen counter then raced with it, deliriously happy, out to the yard. This made Lenore smile. She could never stay mad at that dog. Who could she be mad/Read full post »

OCTOBER 6, 2011 3:05PM

Apropo of Nada: Five Women I Like

 My title might be a lie, given that it now occurs to me that this post is my way of acknowledging Steve Job's passing. Why? Because I wasn't going to do an OS post today, until I watched the YouTube video of Jobs giving that graduation speech at Stanford. I wasn't… Read full post »

Moonlight Cafe

It was somewhere around the year 2000, give or take a year or two this way or that, and I thought, Who has time for cafes anymore? Sure, I had once hung out at cafes writing in my journals, pre-Wi Fi, but that had been back in my free-spirited twenties, before/Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 26, 2011 12:56PM

The Other Woman: She May Be Dying

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Note: I wrote this piece twelve years ago and am reviving it now because I am struck by how its content relates to my current life as a breast

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SEPTEMBER 23, 2011 1:26PM

Doctors, Doctors, Who's at the Doctor's?

Doctors, doctors, who's at the doctor's? Or just back from the doctor's? Or about to leave for the doctor's? Or for the lab, to get more bloodwork. Or for the MRI or CAT scan room?… Read full post »

Urban Tough, Urban Bold, Urban Style

I am not like her, a smartly done up urban woman walking briskly down the street, a swirling array of long scarves bunched fashionably around my neck, coffee-to-go in hand, a bold red wall branded with black graffitti as my backdrop. This woman, in this particular environment… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 20, 2011 1:02PM

Lenore and I Wrestle with the Lump

THIS MORNING when I walk into the kitchen my Other Self, who I have given the name of Lenore, is sitting at the table painting her nails. I never paint my nails.

"I don't want to be buried in a coffin in a grave," she announces to me without looking up… Read full post »

If you are wondering if I am out of the woods now, re: my cancer, the answer is No.  I am not, as of this post, "NED" (no evidence of disease), although I have enjoyed a NED status for much of the past six years, and hope to…

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SEPTEMBER 17, 2011 2:25PM

My Third Eye: Then and Now

THEN:

When I was 27, I discovered my third eye: It was an orgasmic angel that lived in the center of my forehead. I discovered it, or it discovered me, when I was riding the bus back home after going to a "church service" presided over by Pearl Shannon, a psychic who… Read full post »

Blogging Rule #1: Never leave your dog out of the blog

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And never underestimate the healing power that a beloved pet can give to you. My dear Olivia Bouchet, terrier mutt extraordinaire, has alleviated tons of breast cancer stress and fear. She is one of my most important… Read full post »

Editor’s Pick
SEPTEMBER 16, 2011 12:29PM

My Ache - A Post-Mammogram Epiphany (Flashback to 2005)

When I arrive at the hospital, everything bodes surprisingly well. I locate and enter the parking lot that I worried I wouldn't know how to enter or pay for, then successfully navigate my way to the right elevator, then through the maze of hallways, and finally to the correct suite of… Read full post »

I'm not yet sure what I'm going to call this blog. Not sure if I want the word Cancer to have the starring role. It's certainly going to be a main character, but the star? Maybe I'd be better off with a ensemble cast of characters: Cancer, Healing, Fear (terror), Courage,… Read full post »