It's amazing to me the changes I see every day since I started working out and started watching my blood sugar!  My enormous  gut has started to shrink and it is sucking back in!  I know I'll probably have to have some skin removed, but I never thought it would rebound as much as it has. 

I was walking on the treadmill today in cardio rehab and I could finally feel my abdominal muscles for the first time.  I could suck in my stomach like they always say you should during exercise.  I'm also standing up straighter. 

It's hard for me to imagine what it will be like to be a "normal size".  I've been morbidly obese (250-298 pounds) for years.  I haven't worn a size 14 since 1994!  I'm just now getting into a 24 in shirts and a 28 in pants.  I think I would be a clothes horse if I could wear anything.  I've been surviving with just T-shirts, and pants with elastic waists.  I also had to wear Crocs because I couldn't bend down to put on, or tie a shoe.

How does someone get this big?  Food and lack of exercise.  I was eating all the wrong foods and my sugars were out of control.  I was also eating lots of calories and fast food - on the go.  My blood sugars started running high and I had no energy and was very inactive.  It was like a snowball.  I was sick and didn't even know it.  I never thought I ate that much.  I was in complete denial and it just crept up on me.  When I sat down and really looked at what I was eating I found that I was, at times, eating over 1,500 calories at one meal when I should only have about 2,000 a day.

It's hard to face the fact that I did this to myself, but I did.  I think I'm still coming to terms with that.  I thought you had to eat celery all day to lose weight and that's just not the case.  I can still eat things in moderation.  If I want some fries, I have just a few.  I try to fill up on salad and veggies when I go out.  And, yes, I still have a bite of desert if my husband orders it.  He used to have to fight me for the last bite of cheesecake.

Will is last?  I hope so.  I want to think I'll be so happy to feel better and be able to do more things that I will never let the food or inactivity get out of control again, but look at Oprah.  We are all only human.  I pray that I never see 275 again once I get below that number.

Here's to 274...  coming soon!