We were told there was a possibility there would be even more coverage for ABA in 2010.  I thought my husband's company was ready to do the right thing.  It's so hard to have our hopes up over and over again.  I don't know what we are going to do.  We continue to pay our health care premiums each month.  The state pays $22,000 for children on Medicaid to get therapy - we get nothing.  I find myself pleading with God as I have so many times before since this nightmare started in 2006.  There is no relief in sight now.  Hope is fading away.  It seems like no one cares that toddlers are routinely denied care that would make it possible for them to lead functional lives.  Where is the outcry?  Where is Oprah? 

I've written so many desperate letters to everyone trying to get coverage for this issue.  I hoped something would change before we ran out of money, but I never thought we'd have two children with autism to pay for.  We've run out of time.  All I can do today is weep for my sons, weep for my family, weep for all the families.  I am so tired.