I have to remind myself that instant gratification only happens on TV.  In this world full of America's Biggest Loser, America's Biggest Home Makeover, and even Pimp Your Ride it seems that major life changes should happen in a matter of days.  Reality check!  It can take months, somet… Read full post »

Dinner started about 30 minutes ago, but I'm sick to my stomach and tired.  Downstairs I hear my five year old screaming, "I'm not the eat faster guy!" while our four year old just screams.  Both boys have autism and my husband is fighting a desperate battle to get them to… Read full post »

How many of us think about our colons?  I know I never really even gave my colon a second thought.  I'm 36 years old and I thought I wouldn't have to think about my insides until much later.  Wrong!

My doctor is still looking under the hood.  I was diagnosed with… Read full post »

 

Missouri House Representative, Cynthia Davis, has been featured twice on MSNBC's worst person in the world list (she made #1).  Yes, this is the woman who said 16 year olds are old enough to work for their food and they should not be eligible for free school lunches.  My favor… Read full post »

I walk by the same pile of junk on my dresser every day.  A mish-mash of jewelry, soap, lotion, papers, and dust collects and I walk by as if not to notice.  I'm digging out from the pain and sadness of four years, and now I see all the damage, the… Read full post »

Somehow I've lost weight over the holidays.  Diabetes is a great excuse for not eating all the goodies.  I had some, but not nearly what I would have had without diabetes lurking over my shoulder at every holiday event. 

Not a lot to report.  I'm tired from Christmas and New… Read full post »

I was sick for most of October and half of November.  The swine flu really took it out of me.  I developed pnuemonia, then had the stomach flu, and finally ended up with a sinus infection. 

It was so hard to start working out again.  I was embarrassed to go… Read full post »

 I found out last night that our insurance has denied coverage for Applied Behavioral Analysis in 2010 for my two young sons who have autism.  Sometimes writing helps, but I'm at a loss.  Everytime I think about it tears well up in my eyes and my heart aches. 

We were told… Read full post »

I weighed 264.0 this morning.  That was fabulous, but what happened this evening was even better.  My husband and I went out to eat, and return a coat at Kohl's Department Store.  We were able to sneak out without the kids for the first time in a long time (they had… Read full post »

H1N1 chewed me up and spit me out!  I know it's been a lot worse for some people, but I've been sick for a month!  My weight was as low as 263, but has settled at about 265 now that I'm able to eat again.  Not a good way to lose weight. … Read full post »

I have three trash bags of clothes to give away.  For the first time they are not clothes that are too small.  These pants (with elastic waist bands that have stretched way beyond capacity), and these shirts (with fabric worn thin and buttons popped) have served me well, but, alas… Read full post »

I tested positive for Type A Flu today.  My doctor tells me it is most likely the swine flu because the seasonal flu hasn't hit our area yet.  I'm considered high risk due to the diabetes and heart condition so I got some Tamiflu.  If this flu is caught within the first… Read full post »

Already one pound lighter.  I tried on the free clothes I got from the church giveaway this afternoon.  They all fit, but were very, very snug.  So, I guess I'm too small for a 3x, but too big for a 2x.  My 26/28 clothes hang on me, but the 22/24 size… Read full post »

It's been a few days since I looked down at the scale and saw 269.  Having a hard time doing anything these last couple of weeks.  Not working out consistantly and feeling overwhelmed. 

It's just weird to have lost close to 30 pounds.  People are starting to say things like,… Read full post »

Yesterday afternoon, after my sons' daily speech session, I had to ask the director of the therapy center a few questions.  My boys, Simon (5) and Max (3), were ready to go, but decided to amuse themselves in the hallway.  What started out as reading the signs in hall, quickly turned i… Read full post »

Just one pound away from the 260s and I'm euphoric!  I spent today in a happy cloud!  At last this seems real to me.  I just might get my body, MY LIFE back!!!

 

I also figured out my webcam!  With less weight comes true enlightenment - in more than one… Read full post »

Over labor day weekend I didn't weigh.  This morning I found out I've managed to lose 2 more pounds!!!  I was waiting for 272, and I missed it!

So, now I'm 271 and today I wore my first pair of zip up, non-elastic waist pants in years.  I bought them weeks… Read full post »

My son, Simon, was diagnosed with autism on September 20, 2006.  My husband and I were so relieved to know there was a reason for his 45 minute tantrums.  We were desperate to stop my son's head banging sessions.  It was obvious the pillow-padded… Read full post »

Today I was happy to see 273 on the scale.  Last week wasn't my most productive.  I missed two workouts and had a Dr. Pepper (a regular Dr. Pepper).  These small things add up and I felt my weight loss screeching to a halt.  Part of me didn't care and was… Read full post »

Three years ago I had little hope for my 2 year old son who was banging his head in a padded play pen.  My son, Simon, didn't even seem to know I existed.  When I tried to cuddle him in my arms he would scream.  He seemed content to spin objects,… Read full post »

Hello watchers of my weight loss!  I couldn't wait to share the news!  I hit the scale this morning to find that I'm now at 274!  Only 4 more pounds until I hit the 260s and I'm lovin it!

I was feeling gutsy so, I tried on one of my… Read full post »

"Daddy got his hair cut, Mommy!" my son exclaimed as we walked in the door from the garage into the house. 

There was a time when I just wanted to hear, "Mama."  I wanted to hear, "Mama," so bad I changed the lyrics to "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" to, "Mama, Mama Mama… Read full post »

It's amazing to me the changes I see every day since I started working out and started watching my blood sugar!  My enormous  gut has started to shrink and it is sucking back in!  I know I'll probably have to have some skin removed, but I never thought it would rebound as… Read full post »

I met an incredible lady a couple of weeks ago and I only know her first name, Nancy.  It was my wedding anniversary and I had just hit my 20 pound mark for my weight loss, so I went to the nearest mani/pedi place to have my feet done.  My therapist… Read full post »