I've asked myself many times what it is I would say to you if it was the last thing I would ever tell you.  Would it be a simple "I Love you Mija" or would it be something really cool and deep like "as the moon follows the sun so my soul follows the light"... ok maybe not so cool and deep lol =D Anyway, my point is simply that there is always so much more that I want to tell you and talk about but never have the time or the opportunity.  So with pen in hand and a clean sheet of paper nothing should be able to stop me - at least that's the plan.

Look both ways before you cross the street.

check your blind side Twice before merging or turning - Twice, 'member.

Have a plan, it always helps in the long run.

Remember the long run but don't look so far ahead that you fall in today's hole.

Hmmm....and so on and so forth.

Think about the time when you felt the most joy in your life and picture it in your mind.

Think about another time, and another.

When you wake in the mornings, as your inner eyes start to open, hold these moments in your mind one after the other.  Feel them as much as you can.  If you can't think of any - you're not looking deep or wide enough.

Mine are –

1) The day you were born.  I was in the hospital with your mother not really knowing how to feel while your mother screamed bloody murder.  I didn't know until you woke up on this side of the looking glass, a loud brave little thing covered in life and letting everyone know at the top of her lungs.  I wept.  I'ld never known true love until that day.

2) The day when your brother was born.  It was as if I had been waiting on him for a long time.  The accident your mother might say - but never truly that, no one is.  I didn't think the joy I felt when you were born could be any greater - but it was doubled now with you and him in my life.  I wept once again and fell in love with life once more. 

3) A day when I slept by your mother's side, I must have been eighteen barely.  I woke up beside her and snuggled - I felt so in love I could burst.

4) A day when I lay next to Sonya and felt so in love again (to Sonya from her david) I would die.  A deep permeating feeling that goes from the tip of your head to the nails on your toes!  It was crazy but it was good.

Those are my days that I think about in the mornings when I remember.  I really try to visualize each and relive it as much as I can and then some. 

It's easy to do this in the mornings.  Now here's the hard part - and its my point (if i had one lol).

Think about them when you are at your most low or most angry, when everything is falling apart or seems to be going against you...  think on what brought you the most joy and re-live it.  Think on these and know I love you...

 My daughter :)

 Me and my Son - yes, I saw something pretty in the distance - it must have been shiny, notice the odd look on my face. Daughter took it - she loves to catch me looking funny (lost, crazy, on LSD) lol.

My Girlz! daughter and her girlfriend :) love them to pieces.

peece!

dj