After the child left, there was quiet. Unnatural but not yet uncomfortable. It had always been lively before, one child filling up all the empty cracks and crevices like glue.
Each day, he walks in from work, shouts a hello, opens the refrigerator. She is there, buttoning her heavy coat. I won't be long, she tells him. She imagines replacing the old wooden door with a revolving one. The old door still has remnants of the glue that held them close. The pencil marks measure the child's growth. The first mark shows the tiny toddler, standing before her first birthday. Hold still, honey, she says, as she feels her soft bird hair underneath the pencil. The last mark, made sometime in her teens, a quick line slightly crooked. She had to stand on tiptoe to draw it.
The house is quiet except for the TV. The dishwasher hums after a quiet dinner. He tells her it's good. She scrapes hers down the garbage disposal. It's cold and dark at seven o'clock. The branches of the giant tree outside the kitchen window scratch against the glass. She hears him calling out the answers to the Jeopardy contestants. He repeats the answers twice. The second time louder than the first. Who is Augustus Caesar? Who is Augustus Caesar?
They can't hear you! she used to tell him. It was a joke between them. Now she closes the door to the den and tries to lose herself in her work. She is writing another chapter. She knows where she is taking her characters, but she worries if she is taking them in the right direction.
In the morning, he is gone by the time she makes coffee. He has left her favorite donut on the counter next to the coffee pot. He has taken last night's garbage out. Silent acts of love. Silent acts of habit. Some of both, she thinks. This evening, he will walk in, they will greet each other and she will walk out. It's the dance they do now that there is no glue.


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Excellent.
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Lezlie
Time does that.
What is "How did it all slip away?"
i love these small moments that paint big pictures. to me, thats just good writing.
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Honest personal stories.
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Mennons sell deodorant.
Mennonites never use it.
It is called `Speed Stick.
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Mannequins no use it.
Kerry should try some.
No ponder 'irked mood.
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Take a quiet walk. Solace.
Cultivate calm moments.
See beauty all around us.
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Yes cancan and skip too.
Have a chipper heart too.
A merry heart is medicine.
People can fools or spoof,
and read old wise`proverbs.
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I still remember you in DC.
You kiss on face so softly.
I wish you tasted soup.
I make bean and garlic.
You no eat with saw.
Kerry? Hacksaw, ay.
He need a warm cell.
Buy him a city grate.
He's a inky old boy.
He chatters teeth.
You give words to my dread.
Reinvention, when one wants it the least.
You succeeded in transporting us into the quiet amid the lone figures partially lit by the flickering tv, anesthetized by muted muffled infrequent sounds and the space reverberating with the remembered energies of the child. This is such a brief piece but still such a powerful "rendering." You've done so much here with so little: handing us the ineffable emptiness of January...the dead of winter inside and outside of this woman's heart. So much unsaid yet deeply felt...it all hangs in the frozen air. This is beautiful, sad, unforgettable. Within this airless space, you still managed to take our breath away. Rated and felt.
now
seeing wisps of her
here and there
the remainder
in my heart
R
beautiful work
@Art, you know you're not supposed to kiss and tell!
The next time we bang drum.
Inever received so soft a kiss.
Ay, Ya almost kissed silently.
I never tell your family tho.
You kiss so softly. You forget?
I no tell Ya else we did not do.
Ya need a butter memory too.
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There is something very profound here.
You are such an amazing woman, writer and human Joan.
Thank you for sharing this insight.
@Persistent Muse, your comment is a million times more poignant and beautiful than this entire piece!
Are you peeking in Joan's window??