This is the story of how we found our dog. More than that, it is the story of how "Nick" found us.

"Nick" was 17 months when we adopted him from the Corgi breeder in Pacifica, California. That was July 4th weekend, 1998.
After my eldest daughter recommended we get a Corgi, I searched on line to learn about a breed I knew nothing about. Other than "Queen Elizabeth's Corgis," I had never seen one in person or known anyone who had owned one. Kelly, said they are great family dogs, very loyal, great mountain dogs and herders. What did I need a herding dog for?
So I looked on line and read about this curious breed and gentle dog with the face and body of a small German Shepard and itty bitty legs. There are two kinds of Corgis, mainly: The Welsh Pembroke Corgi without a tail (lopped at birth) and the Cardigan Welsh Corgis with long fox like tails that drag on the ground.
Of the tail-less types, I loved the "Tri-color" mix the best. This coloring is black, white and auburn, whereas the others are all or mostly auburn. I was completely fascinated by the breed and read about a Corgi breeder show coming to our county in May of 1998. I was propelled to attend and see the breed first hand to determine if this was the dog for us. This was to be our first dog since we each left our birth homes and as a married couple.
I attended the show alone and observed the qualities of the breed. Also important to me, was to observe the breeders and to see what kind of people they were; how they treated their dogs and presented them to everyone around and not just the judges. A perfect dog or show dog was not what I wanted. I wanted to find a Corgi that would be the right fit for our household, already inhabited by 3 very territorial, alpha cats. Good luck, right?!
I spoke to many breeders, learning more and soon came to realize that very few Corgis were for sale. One breeder introduced me to another, believing she might have one for sale that wasn't of "Show Quality." I couldn't imagine what that meant and I had no intention of ever "showing" my dog in this world of perfectly bred dogs with impeccable lines and markings. Not my deal. Our family just wanted a dog to love and to become a part of our family.
I met Lorna and soon learned that she had two for sale, a male and a female. Her male was a Tri-color and house trained already. The female, a "ginger" and not what I was looking for, but the male had possibilities. She would let us come to her home to meet "Nick" in about two weeks.
My husband, Billy and I drove down the coast with anticipation and excitement, much like our first date. We couldn't wait to see Lorna's Corgis and just knew that one would be the right fit for us. Never in our wildest imaginations did we know just how perfect a fit this dog would become.
After being lead to her back yard, where all 8 of her Corgis were hanging out, we quickly realized there were 16 eyes all fixed on us and checking us out for what was to come. Two of the dogs were in a small enclosed area, one smaller and auburn and the other one, a Tri-color! The latter was wagging his tail-less behind and son-of-a-gun, had the broadest smile on his face I have ever seen. He was the one! We asked to see him, let him smell us, pet his beautiful double fur coat and let him get to know us.
He bolted from his pen and came right up to us, with a knowingness that was both relieving and mystifying. He languished at our feet and snuggled, sniffed and licked our hands, as if he had known us his entire seventen month life. We clicked.
After signing the papers, receiving advice on his eating preferences and sealing the deal, we stood to leave. Lorna gave her "Nick" some last hugs and verbal reassurances and he just simply ran past her and beyond us directly to our waiting car, complete with new kennel and soft bedding, for his ride back to the north bay and to his new home.
It all happened so fast and so easily we couldn't stop smiling. It was like Christmas morning and the anticipation of a long awaited gift. "Nick" was it. He was our dog now and became a member of our family in an instant.
The life he would lead would be between two homes. One by the Bay and one in the mountains. He took to his new lifestyle like a duck to water.

Nick had a new family and didn't flinch at the site of our 3 adult cats that were filled with pure attitude. He got it. They were here first. No problem. He would manage. And he did. Soon after, there was another addition to the family and the one which became Nick's ultimate pal for the next eight plus years...a month old black and white Lop Earred Rabbit, whom our youngest daughter named, "Kisses." "Kick Ass" would have been more appropriate, but "Kisses" it was. He and "Nick" were a sight to behold and hung out together like they were joined at the hip. "Fric and Frac." "Nick and "Kisses."

Our smiling Corgi, "Nick," short for "Nick at Night," is nearly twelve years old now. He has lived a very full Corgi life as their life expectancy is on average eight to ten years. That is so hard to believe, for such a lively active breed and for a dog that could hardly sit still for so many years.
Our "Nicky" is so old now, by Corgi standards. It is unbearable to see how little he moves anymore. The rapid onset of his knees, hips and back end giving out underneath his girth, grips my heart and shreds my hope that he will ever be the same. He is in his decline and it came on so fast.
As "Nick" was the largest of his litter, with such a big body for his short little legs, we feared how this may impair him with age. It was only a matter of time. With only the front half of his body working now, he collapses under his own weight with every step he takes, with such deliberate care and a look of sadness in his big golden brown eyes. He knows he is not the same. He can no longer go for his daily walks with mom and dad and sniff every square inch of both neighborhoods that he had come to call his own.
His beautiful thick soft fur is still shinning in the sun light where he lays on the deck most days. He slumbers willingly, hardly moving any longer. He weakly accepts our love and praise, the long strokes of hands through his fur, the scratches he once jumped in place for and the anticipation of playful hours around the yard, running so effortlessly; his fierce love for life and activity.
He just waits now. We cannot bear to say it outloud, but we just wait with him. There is nothing more we can do for our sweet doggy but simply love him as much as we can. We prepare the special food, keep his weight down for his joints and muscles, manage his meds twice a day and keep him comfortable.
This is the time we all dread and try to deny will ever happen to our beloved pets. This is awful and as depressing for our "Nick" as it is for our family. Yet we know this day will come for all our precious animals that came into our lives with unmatched trust and love. The pure affection, the unquestionable loyalty; the incredible sweetness of being.
Our three cats have all passed, one by one over the last four years and our sweet bunny died two years ago, almost to the day. They all lived long full lives and collectively and individually, brought us so much joy.
"Nick" is still with us, but a shadow of the high energy puppy he once was. These twelve years have gone by like a bolt of lightening, full of flashes of happy memories, companionship and the special love of a wonderful dog.
Time to go sit with "Nick" in the gentle breeze outside, the quiet of the mountains to embrace our senses, to pet his glistening fur once more and to utter sweet words of love and gratitude for choosing us to be his family.
We were the lucky ones.


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Know that what you do, you do with love.
We'll will do the right thing when her time comes as we have with others, which is what we're all urging for Lucy. Please, don't let beloved pets suffer because you can't bear to lose them. I know that's your goal too, it's just so hard. I feel for you guys, really.
R~
One of my favorite things is to sit with LJ sometimes and remember the greatness in all the beloved dogs who have let us live with them.
Be well dear friend.
Hold your boy and just love him. xoxo
-R-
Someone named Carlotta Monterey O'Neill said that; and ain't it true? My heart goes out to you, your sweet Nick and your family. My "olden Golden" just turned 12 in November, so I'm already actively dreading the day that we'll have to say our farewells to our lovely girl. In the meantime, I savor every day and hour with her, as I'm sure you do with Nick.
Having been there all too recently and all too soon, I know how hard it is to watch a beloved animal suffer--you have all my empathy and compassion in facing the possibility of having to say farewell to Nick, Cathy. I know my sister's Corgi, Maddy of blessed memory had the same problem of her back end ceasing to work at the end of her life. My sister grieved for her for a long time. Give Nick some gentle pats from me, and tell him again, what a good dog he is.
(Whew, I was so worried you were flouncing, after reading the title!)
I know, it broke my heart, but I had warning. People can laugh if they like, but I believe creatures were put on earth for our growth and love too, so why shouldn't they be included in after life? If that's bubble-pretend- world-thinking, then just call me "Bubbles"! Hang in there!
Thank you all so very much for your sweet comments of concern and support. Not going far from Nick today, this was a real comfort and very appreciated. xoxo
Lezlie
As a dog lover I feel your pain. It's the worst part of having any pet.
Focus on all you have had with him.
Sounds like he has been a good match for your family.
My heart aches for you and your family.
we lost our tooty (petunia) this past november. she had not come through dental surgery well and she had other issues that all came to the fore simultaneously. she rallied and then she didn't. we were lucky as she died here one night at my feet. I couldn't stand to put her down, but I would have had she had told me to. they do tell you when they can't go on.
your boy seems peaceful. I hope he continues to sleep and wake and eat and live what's left of his life with love and perhaps he will pass in his sleep. or he will tell you when he can't bear it any longer. that's a tough one, but it will be the right thing to do. because we love them so much, when we finally do make that choice on their behalf, it is the right time because we usually wait until we're sure they're in pain or frightened.
my oliver had cancer and for two days he was ill, but the last day he gave up. and I knew it was time.
you will know. trust me. you'll hate it. but you'll know it's the kind loving thing to do.
until then, enjoy him and love him, as I know you're doing. don't feel guilt. don't anticipate death. just be in the moment with him.
my heart to you sweetie. to you all.
Foolish Monkey - Your words really resonate with where I am at right now and I thank you so much.
Mary - Yours, too, as you know our Nicky and what a viable, healthy, happy dog he's been. I don't know if he'll make it to the reunion or not.
I've always interpreted that to mean that you have lived your life, have done your best, and are facing what is coming in the best way you can manage. Our critters are like that, they give their all unstintingly, and so any day for them is a 'good day to die'.
It's just us, left behind to hurt. I reached a conclusion some time back with so many furry ones having passed through my life. Our pets don't fear death - if they fear anything at all they fear leaving us behind. The best we can do is try to make sure they know that we're as ready to let them go on as we can manage to be.
The minutes are precious now, absorb each one.
Rated for those beautiful old gray faces.
I'm sorry you are losing your animal friend. It is wonderful that we can do them the kindness of easing their way out of this life by giving them a painless, quick death. (Many humans wish they could have the same, but it's still difficult to obtain.) It's never easy but often the most loving thing we can ever do.
All I can say is make sure he's comfortable and knows he's loved and let him go easily when the time comes. Lord, I'm actually tearing up from the memories while I type this.
We loved our Corgi so much that we bought a second one (another Cardigan) nearly 5 years ago. He is a wonderful dog. As long as you don't mind the shedding!
BTW - Cathy, the two in the avatar are sable on red, kind of unusual. You usually get sable on fawn.
Just know that I take all your kind wishes into this day with me, as Nick and I leave the mountains and return to the Bay for 9 days. We'll see how he does at sea level for a while before returning to Tahoe for a long Fourth of July weekend.
As "Ellen" says on a daily basis, "Right back atcha!" xoxo
You were obviously a match made in heaven. Your descriptions of how you got Nick are so beautifully fashioned from your beautiful heart. Darn, Cathy, it's morning and my mascara is running already. Great job and worthy EP! Love, Joan
R
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and feelings about Jake.
As you already know, writing about difficult transitions like this one, as well as sharing your beloved Jake's story with others, is an act of healing. Those who lose a beloved pet often don't get the support they need, since society hasn't fully embraced the importance of the human-animal bond. It takes people like you to let others know that it's okay, and psychologically healthy, to openly grieve for their animal friends. Your story will also help folks in the same situation, those already grieving, or the rest who know the day will come someday.
You've helped me too. My family chose the "good death" for my old cat-man Nomad three years ago. He was a few months short of his eighteenth birthday--a long, good kitty life, for sure, but I wish he could have stayed a while longer. But we owed him the gift of peace and freedom from cancer. Keeping him longer would have been selfish and cruel. He had always been there for us, with that supernatural animal power all good pets share--the one that lightens the load of the always-weary human animal. With our pets we can be ourselves, fully and without apology. They are teachers that ground us with the lesson that we are never separate from nature, no matter how many cities we build or roads we pave.
Now our old man Rascal, a twelve-year-old Pomeranian, is having some age-related health problems, so it won't be long before we must let go of another good friend. You're right; there will never be a good time to say goodbye. But our friends deserve the best care from us, even if it's release from this world. They always gave their best to us, without hesitation. May we all be strong, and never hesitate, when their time comes. They would do the same for us, if they could.
Take care and treasure your last days with Jake. I know he'll live forever in your heart. *HUGS*
~Karen