I love circles. I find them the perfect shape, architecturally, and I'm continually attracted to them: in clocks, tables, mirrors... anywhere, really. What is more beautiful than a bubble floating on the breeze, catching the light on a sunny day?
The trouble is:
I think in circles. No matter the subject, I will consider every aspect of a topic all the way around and through to the other side, often right back to the beginning. While in general this might sound good, and it can be (see what I mean?), this usually just makes it very tough to have enough of a decided opinion that I take a stand. I keep seeing different points of view.
Mentally, I swim more than I stand, I drift more than I stride. My thoughts swirl in an eddy, surge on the currents. Emotionally? A different story. I'll take a stand... (Possibly another flaw there.)
Circular thought can also use up too much of my creative energy, that necessary thrust of manifesting my idea from the ether to the page. Or to the fabric. Or the painting. Too much stays thought....all tangled together and connected. Where is that beginning, middle, and end?
I talk in circles....complete with "on the other hand" punctuated throughout, some days. My poor children have never heard a short, concise point of direction, or encouragement. No mini-lectures here! Husband has perfected his looking-interested-while-paying-no-attention face. That is partly why writing is so satisfying, there is time for editing the voluminous material.
I walk in circles as well....yes, I am an absent-minded-circular-thinker-talker-walker. I clean that way, I "organize" that way. Every day that I clean house, a random four dozen items from anywhere in the house are put away tidily, and several chores, again randomly noticed, are (usually) completed to exacting standards.
Unfortunately, it's hard to feel satisfied about how spotless the coat closet is, how perfectly aligned the silverware drawer is, when the living room floor hasn't been picked up very well.
Some (most) of my friends and family wonder how I get from one end of the day to another...
...in circles of course...
...but I do like how they look in a room.