How shall I call my spirit back in...
...when she has been dancing among the forest trees?
How shall I persuade her to come home...
when her perspective has changed?

How shall I ask her to squeeze back into the boxes, fences, boundaries of space that surround family life, or ask her to thrive in choppy allotments of time, or to soar in low-ceilinged compartments...
...when she's been one with the forest, it's timeless richness soaking into her very cells?
When her skin has been tickled by clean breezes all day and all night, her lungs have been cleansed by fresh oxygen just exhaled by her daily companions, the redwoods, hemlock and fir?
She and they, who together have grinned and swayed when soaked in the daily rolling in, rolling out, of the sea's veil of fog? Who together have grinned and swayed when rocked by the sea's blustery breeze?
For the past two weeks, I have been playing in the deep woods, the woods on the edge, the ones that grow right to the sea, where for me, there is no loneliness, where for me, anxiety has no wide ledges to land. Usually.
I have been floating on smiles of old friends, laughter among kindred spirits. I have been relishing in the damp sea air, ferns, shamrocks named oxalis, and fabulously singular creations of art made abundantly by this seaside community's citizens.



My heart has been beating to redwood rainforest rhythms, almost forgotten rhythms, a melody sung deep in my bones long ago when I first came to this part of the world, when my love and I first lived together and sang our hearts' songs, raised our two boys for awhile and brought to earth our third.
When here, I drink in the silence.
And now, now that we must leave this ever green world, how shall I persuade her to come? How shall I coax, cajole, call in my forest-drunk Petra Pan spirit?
Coax her home, home to the town life, to our family life...
to tame life?
I summon one thought, one strong and purely grateful promise, one that brings a smile to my lips and beckons my recalcitrant spirit right back from the wild.
Just two words.
Indoor plumbing.


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Lezlie
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Reminds me of those formative years when I could sit on fallen pines, wedged between their kin, sitting high above the forest floor, listening to the birds and other animal sounds.
Thanks.
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Cool and beautiful post.
Hoping for you to come East.
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I know this call too well. But I also know the call of a hot water heater and indoor plumbing.
Yuck.
When you return, try to keep that peaceful feeling close to heart and remember it well. And know you can return again to drink deep yet once again.
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I'm lucky to live in the woods. Not a lush and deep and removed from civilization as in your pictures, but still soul-soothing. Can venture out, and then return to indoor plumbing, etc.
I guess I'm plonking and Gerald was making a joke, but that's a vent. pipe, not a chimney... Still, as outhouses go, that's a snazzy one.
I appreciate your cheerleading for being lured out! Thanks for coming by.
trilogy: Thanks, it's always wonderful and a bit bittersweet to re-visit an old hometown and old friends. Thanks for that, may peace stay with you too. two. four.
may you get some sleep. : )
L'heure, I didn't know you were from the redwoods! Sponge-like ground. Yes, that's it. It is true for me as well, that these woods are my home woods even if I wasn't born here. These are the woods I learned the most about, the most in. : )
Nice to see you, how was your trip??
Thanks, Helvetica, I couldn't resist.
Lezlie, we were in N. Ca. back in the college town we lived in during the 90s. Thanks for that 'lovely' comment. 'Ethereal quality' is nice to read too : ) Glad you liked ! Nice to see you, as always, Lezlie.
You get it, Maureen. I didn't even mind that outhouse, mostly. Just got to the twelve day mark and thought, "I'm ready to go home now." : ) Nice to have you come by.
Thanks, Linda! Beauties of the urban world?
You show those well : )
mhold: *snort* Ha! You are so clever. I can so picture you and my husband out witting each other around the table...I've said this before, haven't I? : )
dunneiteowl: There were pines ringing the lake in my childhood-- I'll bet you had some lovely reveries up on those logs, funny how easy it all seemed then to scamper up and down : )
Rita: I think that's a fine idea : ) and thanks for that!
Thanks, Algis : )
I appreciate that, Mission, and I'm not surprised you have some connection here...nice to see you : )
You posted, & I missed it ? !! ;-)
This is wonderful, Just Thinking, like a draught of forest air,
a cupped palmful of cold creekwater.
I love the way you cropped the photos, to accentuate
the soaring highness of the trees,
down to the detail on the forest floor.
The pictures of the details in the local town, too :-)
What we call a 'holiday' ~ what an understatement !
The wild re-charges us, gives us strength.
Old connections re-newed, memories re-assured.
Fitting back into town ... insidious business,
watching our freedoms ( but not our souls, no ) trickle away again ...
you caught them here
so well.
This is a beautiful page. Thank you. Enjoy the plumbing ;-)
Thanks, daisy jane : ) You describe the tree grove so well, there's one near us I love to climb into the middle of...as for stumps, aren't they wonderful ghosts? I saved some photos of those for a different day, but hope to find time to write about them as well...
Nice to see you!
Gerald: A woodstove....fueled by dung? Ha! Oh, I couldn't resist.
No, that is a vent. The hippies have kept alive and improved on this method of sanitation since the 70s here in the Pac NW....and Vermont.... Most outhouses have vents, often opening windows, insulation, with a bucket of wood-ash and a bucket of sawdust side by side, a scoop each when needed, for fly-free and odor-free comfort.
Now, back to that woodstove, we could solve the freezing seat issue...
I appreciate you coming by! I hope this reply didn't scare you away forever : )
Thanks, Fusun, nice to see you, I kind of surprised myself with the end there. : )
David, I also understand the pull for those piney woods...I grew up in N. Georgia's white pines. Something about those needles, that scent...I've eyed them for planting here at our house, but if I planted all the trees I long to, they'd be a foot apart here on our .29 acres...
Thanks for coming by : )
Thanks, TaosGirl, I plan to -- and I'm glad you came by, I'm reminded that I want to get back over to you! You have some great 'wild' tales : )
tr ig: I swear, I am always having to coax that spirit of mine out of the woods : ) But it's so much nicer there! Stress disappears...and there's been plenty of that to go around this year. Ick.
Thank you for your kind and discreet comment, and for not shrieking,
"Agggghhhhh!! How can you go off into that horrible forest without one speck of cement anywhere, no historical landmarks, no jostling of humanity, no screech of the subway, no boulangeries, no patisseries (did I spell those correctly?)!!!???"
Fondly, JT
And those two words.. :D.
Rated for deep within Mother, there's no place like home..
Thanks so much for coming by : )
Thanks, Sheila, I appreciate your stopping in. An adventure after your own heart, eh? Even with the outhouse? : ) The forest was worth it I thought, hanging around husband while he's looking for work far from home was worth it too.
Well, hi Heidi : ) Nice to see you! I like your choice of descriptors for how you feel about nature...I am realizing more and more how I just do not thrive in town. Such balances to readjust here and there.
This is too odd to go on and on about the facilities, but I did bring this on myself, didn't I? : ) Thanks for coming by!
Songbird! Humboldt is so lovely an area, isn't it? We lived there for years, my husband longer than I, but we still have very dear friends there and it seems to stay on the top of our 'visit' list. The irony of it all is that we left there due to the economy never getting flush there in the 90s and now my husband is back there on the ever enlarging job search while our own biz gets going. Tough for even the most skilled carpenters, the best carpenter! right now...
I did make this seem like a long vacation I guess, and it was, for me at least. It has been awhile since I've been off in a cabin in the woods...all I want to do is go back.
So nice to have you come by : )
*R*
....not that anyone is actually looking at this point, all these days later....
but I will!
New Year's resolution.
Answer back to comments from you lovely folks who bother to come over.
(Snickers heard from long-time friends still waiting for all those thank-you notes...) : )
Thanks, maan. For some reason getting used to town again is taking longer this time, maybe I didn't really call her in as well as I thought I did : )
Joan: Never seen redwoods? Oh, I so hope you get a chance to. The trees in my photos are truly toddler redwoods, mere slivers of a full grown redwood. They brought out the same awed hush in me that the loveliest renaissance architecture would...
Thanks, clayball : ) Glad you came by.
Hi, Kim. So glad you just happened to find my post : )
It has taken forever to get to this reply, but I've been smiling at your comment, and thank you. Although careful of bacteria with the cupped palm of creek water...
The first soaring tree photo was taken while standing at the base of the tree, having fought several ferns taller than I to get to the base. I then just pointed up to frame it that way, no crop other than sizing for OS.
The second was taken from inside the cabin, the first sight upon waking in the morning, so I lay down again to take the shot. I wanted to remember the soaring trees view even when I was back to town, waking up again to lacy birch tree branches with sparrows and juncos flitting in and out (yes, I will put a bed in any old angle just to wake up looking outside. If that's weird, well, okay).
The redwood forest floor is wonderful, all spongy and damp, not very poisonous at all an environment, esp. compared to Georgia's poisonous creatures, or Australia's for god's sake. Those shamrocks are edible, high in Vitamin C, but also in tannic acid. Many medicinal plants grow in the redwoods, this is the area I know best that way.
As I said to Joan, these are just so young, these trees I show here. The biggest trees can be 10 feet in diameter and 2000 years old -- the old growth forest exudes the most peaceful calm, like nowhere else I've ever been.
That area is stuffed with visual artists too, we had fun on Arts Alive! night wandering around, galleries, old friends, Vietnamese food, street music all around...
I cannot say this was a true holiday, although it was for Youngest and I, and I see I present it that way. He and I spent most days wandering along creek beds while my husband worked each day. He's having to go so far from home even to look for work now, we just wanted to live in the same place for a couple weeks.
2011 was a tough year that way, but we're lucky. Only the past year has been this way for us...and we're healthy...
Nice to have you come by : )
I love it too...and now husband must go without me...*sigh*
Seer: Nice to see you! ...and yes, "home" indeed. In all of the places we've lived, I've tried to find at least one spot to ground in the area. It really helps when you move a lot, and now I have special spots to visit again all around the country. : )
john walker, I thank you for that comment, it made me smile.
Thanks, Michelle, so glad you came by : ) Those redwoods can soothe even by photo! When our oldest was younger and labelled with ADHD, that forest and others, the beach, were often the one place I could relax with him. I've been grateful ever since, especially as that hyper energy of a boy has become a lovely young man.
It IS a magical place there. I feel humbled by my infinitesimal self when I enter those forests, especially the areas of old growth that's left. They ought to be treasured as much as certain ancient cathedrals and temples are, I believe...
Who could ask for anything more?
Rated...
What a beautiful poem you have gifted us with. So much is being said and, just as importantly, being left unsaid. Thank you.
thinking of you ... and of your spirit ...
still ...
I cannot tell you how glad I am you came back : )
Thank you.
Thinking of you ... and all your spirit moving ... still ...
Just the imagining is somewhat blissful.
For now, I awake to the whites of birch bark trunks, usually greys at the time I awake, but on the weekends I will indulge and wait. The grey trunks turn pale pink as the light rises and then the sudden flash of morning's rays hit those trunks and it is as if those trunks gleam with the brilliance of the sun itself.
They glow !
My weekend morning show.
One thing I am grateful for.
...and if my bed were properly placed against the wall, I would miss it...miss Nature's morning show, staged just for my eyes and heart it feels...