I am so looking foward to a relaxing and long-overdue trip to Colorado in a few weeks.  I'm going to meet some people that I can say I already love from from this internet connection we've had.  Mary and Lauren and Cathy, that I know of, will be there.  I feel so lucky and happy to have "met" them here, and I am sure the real-life part will be even better!

I've had a blast with the "DC Quartet" too.  Lea and Patricia and Dorinda are extremely adorable and fun in real life.  I am very fortunate to have been there with them.

But I am not a writer, and I have not been able to put myself out there like everybody else.  I joined OS for the community and I have been richly rewarded on that account.  I just feel like an imposter, playing in the wrong sandbox. 

I could be 6 years old again, in 1964,  when Claudia Manning formed her "girl's club"in the first grade.  I formed the other girl's club, for the rest of us.  I was successful in the first grade,  and often thereafter, but clearly the pain that led me there is still with me today. 

I'd hoped that thoughtful comments and participation in the community would be enough.  I feel badly that I could not write  more. Maybe I could and should.

I wish it was otherwise, but I have tried to play in the wrong sandbox this time around, again.