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JUNE 28, 2012 11:39AM

Where You Might Find It

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 Tokyo is about a 9 hour flight north from here.

Landing, I found an alcove between some potted palms under an ad for maybe a ski resort ~ it featured a fluffy white dog ~ and re-arranged stuff in my carry-on, then took a light rail to arrivals. Long queues. I fell in, and felt for my papers ... 

Back to light rail, back to the gate I came through ... fluffy white dog, potted palms ... there, where I'd left them, were my passport, my wallet, and my phone. Maybe a thousand people had passed them since ...

Brian was holding up a sign on the other side of customs :

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He was Head Librarian of  the British International School, married to a Tokyo girl, living on the outskirts. We took the train, and I gazed out the window on a Miyazaki evening landscape while he outlined a schedule for the coming week.

We went first to his apartment where I met his wife and their 8 year old boy, then the four of us walked down the road to Ano's mom's restaurant. Seafood. Seafood Hokkaido style. Fragrant, packed to the rafters, loud ~ we had a low table upstairs ~ hibachi, beer, welcome to Japan. 

From my hotel in the morning I wandered through a market paradise to meet Brian at the station, then into the city proper. Nothing can prepare a newcomer for Tokyo.

We got off at Hachiko and walked to the school, my home for the next four days. The kids were great. Evenings I wandered ~ streets and alley-ways that once, in Edo times were canals ; electric spiderweb skies ; motorcycles out of Bladerunner ; sidewalk machines dispensing whiskey, used women's underwear, hot noodle soup. Shrines, a cabbage patch beside a skyscraper, dolls, everywhere. Staring down traffic to cross a street.

A teacher at the school pointed me to Nikko, in the mountains, and booked a room for me the first week-end. Shinkansen-bullet up on pylons out of town past Fuji into wooded hills, and up. Changed out there to a regular train, and up. Finally, Nikko, a so-what sort of town I thought ... sitting at the station bar with an Asahi and a bowl of noodles, it was snowing.

Outside a cab pulled up, and a man in uniform and white gloves opened the door. We drove out of town, and further up, to a gravel driveway, an ancient garden and a very old timber hotel. Kanaya Grand. I was the only guest. In the library adjacent to the lobby I was brought another beer. In a display case was a visitor's book : Benjamin Disraeli, Somerset Maugham, Greta Garbo ... autographed pictures in frames along the panelled walls, a fire, curtains, it was snowing, growing dark.

Upstairs, room 101 : a Hokusai on the wall. The bathroom : the toilet had seat-temperature control and a selection of music including 'waterfall' and Handel. Beyond the bed were cedar-louvred screens, ceiling height. Sliding them aside revealed a bay : low table, a vase with an orchid beside a small stoneware jug of Suntory and a porcelain cup, a bowl of fruit, more screens ... sliding them aside ...

In the dusk below, a river. To the right, a red-lacquered footbridge. Beyond, a forest of cedar and pine with now and then the glint of a temple roof, rising up to a landscape from a dream : more trees, fainter through the snow, more and more elaborate temples in silhouette, lit within, and beyond them higher hills, and beyond those, a snow-covered mountain, and above the mountain, reflected in every gentle snowflake ... full moon.

....................... 

"Anna? Hi. I'm in Nikko. Just got here ... yes, no, lovely ... listen ... you know that feeling ... sometimes when you don't know where you are ? You know ? Yeah ... that one ... Well, I'm here. I think I found it."

"I think I'm home." 

 ...................... 

 

pic. Watanabe, Moonrise at Tokumochi ; Miyazaki : Film-maker ( Spirited Away, Howl's Moving Castle ) ; Edo : 17th-19th century Japan ; Shinkansen : Fast train ; Hokusai : Edo printmaker ( The Great Wave, from 36 Views of Mt Fuji )

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Thank you for this ... just now ...
Hmmm...
Interesting.
One never knows when 'home' will appear in our lives...
I remember that feeling -- once or twice.
Maybe you should pin your passport to your jacket.
It is great when you find it.
lucky
it sounds wonderful
I have been to Japan. I have in-laws there in Nagoya. You describe it so well! I wish to go back, but the travel is difficult. If I remember it was 17 hours from Boston. Kim, sometimes I have found that feeling of home within the embrace of person. I think it is about a feeling of completion. This is perfection.

"In the dusk below, a river. To the right, a red-lacquered footbridge. Beyond, a forest of cedar and pine with now and then the glint of a temple roof, rising up to a landscape from a dream : more trees, fainter through the snow, more and more elaborate temples in silhouette, lit within, and beyond them higher hills, and beyond those, a snow-covered mountain, and above the mountain, reflected in every gentle snowflake ... full moon."
spent 3 months there....great place,nice people........Mt Fuji.....Ginza....Yokohama.....nice....
R
That "home" feeling really validates the notion of reincarnation.
What a destination, like walking into a painting by Sesshu. Every now and again (not often) I experience that sense of homeness at some place I've never been before, but it sounds like you've stepped off into Nirvana there.
So beautiful, I'm seeing that Hokusai on the wall right now ( in my imagination).,.
I hope this is written in real time and that you're there now and enjoying it. Because it sounds wonderful.

But about that passport...two words...fanny pack!
Feel like I'm looking at silk screen in the Freer/Sackler Gallery, reading this. Gorgeous. I'm glad you found home.
I know that place - home, the place that isn't so what.
Kim, what a beautiful feeling.. '' I think I am home''... I long for such a feeling and belonging. Beautiful narrative story, you had me with you in this journey, always want to meet the world, and I want to visit Alaska, Peru, Santa Clauss village and Japan, having the feeling of "Nothing can prepare a newcomer for Tokyo." I have never travelled abroad, and you can understand what a gift this was to me. Thank you for writing this.
Sounds like an exceptional place to be. It's easy to forget that Japan is more than crowded urban areas and skyscrapers, but you've shown us someplace off the beaten path
Wonderful post. Grand that you've captured that home feeling or that it has captured you.
Rated.
Hi anna1liese, for now :-)

Just Thinking,
Not often for me, either.

Larry,
What's crazy ( or I thought so at the time ) is that my stuff just sat there, in full view, for maybe 30 minutes, untouched.

MM,
It certainly is :-)

Julie,
Lucky ~ that was the beginning ... it was wonderful & more.

Thanks Ande,
That's lovely, "... within the embrace of a person." So true.

Steel Breeze, yes.
Unique, like a gateway to another kind of seeing, smelling, feeling.

Linnnn,
Funny you mention that ~ 're-incarnation,' the feeling ... the certainty you've been in that place before, & how good it is to be back. That's exactly what it was.

Sirenita,
Loving Sesssshhu ... :-) Like Nirvana, unplugged.

Hi Phyllis,
I'm glad you enjoyed, thanks.

ccdarling,
Isn't the lovely thing about those old printmakers, we can buy reproductions now that are 99% as good as an original, for next to nothing !

jlsathre ( joanne, can I call you joanne ? ),
This was a few years ago.
Fanny packs ... mmm ... I don't think so. Not for me. I travel pretty scruffy. Especially in dodgy parts of Asia fanny packs make it look like you've got something worth rolling for.

Hi razzle.
What a lovely feeling, thankyou. & home, yes ~ nothing like it, when you find it. Hope it's waiting for you in Oregon still.

tr ig,
it is.

consonants&vowels,
That's the one , the one that's not so-what :-)

Olga, thank you !
I hope you travel, & if you're ever down-under ...
Good to see you, I'm glad you enjoyed.

Hi nan,
I was so glad to have that perspective ~ the cities are awesome in their sci-fi kinda way, but bleak too, like cities are.
Getting up into a place like Nikko felt like close to the soul of the paintings & the poets I've loved.
The forest out the window is a World Heritage site ~ temples & shrines going back to the first of Japan's Buddhist monk's ~ Shodo, who lived in the 8th century.
Just as the hotel was empty, so were the temples & shrines. Just me, a bunch of monkeys, & old guys in saffron robes & sandals sweeping snow with wicker brooms.
"'re-incarnation,' the feeling ... the certainty you've been in that place before, & how good it is to be back."

That was England, for me. Wish I could have stayed.
Scylla,
Thankyou.
Whoever captured whom I was glad to surrender. I don't mind admitting there were tears.
It's never too far away, Phyllis, & you know it's there ...
Wait.What?

A heated toilet seat....



..............and the music "waterfall"
My son is stationed outside Tokyo and has been to visit a bit. I will need to send this to him so he may with luck and time find this beautiful place. He says he does love Tokyo....it sounds lovely.
"waterfall" was a recording of a real waterfall, Dianne ~ there was also flute & koto, muzak, Mozart & a thunderstorm, from memory. It was an extraordinary toilet.
Lunchlady,
It's worth it. I was interested in the Heritage site, but just a bit further up the mountain are ski resorts, theme parks and spectacular scenery.
Go in off-season. Take the Shinkansen, it takes about 90 minutes.
Tell him Kim-san say : Do It !
could be anywhere, then...

I think only an island man could write snow in such a way that reading about it warms the reader to the core.
Happy for you Kim. Welcome Home.
Beautiful recall Kim, the and the print I am capturing in my iphoto, lovely.
A place to long for.
I would love to visit Japan although I doubt it would feel like home. Myself, I always suspected I'd "find it" if I set foot on the uninhabited isle of Muckle Flugga, UK. I feel a strange affinity for the place.
Kim, this is so great... Welcome home... Waiting to read more!!! Rated.
catch-22,
It's true snow is a rare thing down here. A taste in Japan with cherry blossoms is about enough, for me.

trilogy, thankyou.

Thanks, Rita.

Margaret,
You must go to Muckle Flugga then, before tourism ruins it.

Hi Stathi ~ thankyou !
So, have you been back there much?

When we had moved one too many times and I was feeling oh so unsettled, an elderly woman told me to just go out in the world and find one spot, one beautiful spot in the area, that felt peaceful and resonated throughout my nervous system and heart, and to keep going back to that one spot when I felt scattered and tense. I did! ...and several moves later, I still find one spot in each place that feels like home (so my writing once or twice before is misleading -- that refers to a larger 'place' sense of home).
I've been Home on an overlook of a wooded valley, at my childhood lake, under the shade of twin redwoods, in the middle of a grove of manzanita trees....on one of those Far North Ca. beaches and that entire canyon road I wrote about...and when looking in my granddaughter's eyes.
I'm hopeful I'll find home one day...actually *in* my home ( I think I am a nomad at core)...but I'm happy. Those spots are with me forever : )

This post reminded me of all this...
I've been close, but not to Nikko.

I think more than place, it's a confluence of time, openness, fragrance, even ... a mandarin orchard in blossom, for example, might override anxiety ...

Carrying the wisdom of elderly women sounds a friendly destiny.

& a quilted bedspread can be home.
Kim, that last paragraph .. yeah, the one before you talk to
Anna ... those words are just beautiful. Each and every image within those words, peaceful... alone ... and as one ...

serenity
Sounds enchanting, perhaps the setting for your next book??
Kim I've looked up your Tashi books and found that the inside has black and white pencil illustrations and though delightful, I was hoping you could recommend one of your books that has color illustrations all the way through. Would like to get one!! What's your favorite?
Thanks Kate,
"those words, peaceful... alone ... and as one ..."
Serenity ... I hope you're finding some ...

Anne,
I'd love to do a story set there, to incorporate those extraordinary temples into a picture-book ... I need the story.
Maybe the story of Shodo ... ?
I'll let that cook :-)
re-pm me with your address & I'll send you a copy of my favourite ~ I think I've mentioned it here before, somewhere ... it's called Joseph.
usually at the lost
and found

not always
tho

"...old guys in saffron robes & sandals sweeping snow with wicker brooms."

that's me too, in the cedar and pine
I thought I'd seen you before ...
you write so well, you know. the increasing pace in the last few paragraphs is perfect and done so unobtrusively - i just found myself feeling my footfalls coming faster until i was nearly jogging with the phrases. you describe these things with as much clarity and detail as a painting. which is, of course, no surprise. lovely lovely. makes me want to buy a ticket.
Thanks, Candace.
If I did anything deliberately I'd be happy to take credit for it, alas.
I'm glad you enjoyed it.
movie you gotta see, just must, kim:
"tokyo waka: a city poem"
about how the crows
sort of bug the japanese.

they are monster magnificent crows.

see it.
Jiminy for you Old Son I'd fly to Nikko & watch it in Japanese.

Thank you.
I could feel your upward progress from the valley to the mountaintop. You paint as well with words as you do on canvas.

Lezlie
Thanks, Lezlie.
It was one of those journeys you're not even aware you're on, until you get there.
Standing in moonlight felt as if this was a destination, and I'd been walking toward it all my life.
I think maybe, there are many. Hope so, hope so.
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Thank you.

& thanks to all those who visited too. Can't do this withoutchoo.