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  The time that transpired, during which we were getting ready to move, and selling things , and throwing items away, Kevin had also made a life altering decision. He wanted Jaime to have a REAL father. One that wouldn't abandon her, abuse her, or generally just not be… Read full post »

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Things seemed to have gotten back to "normal". I was fairly healthy for about a year, Except for the same old problems I had that were never going to go away. My Parents , shortly after my last "incident", made huge decision to relocate their lives again and move… Read full post »

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** I apologize for the content in this Post. It may be a bit sensitive in a few areas for some people. It Definitely was for ME to write.   I thought it best to warn you up front, in case you did  not want to go any further.… Read full post »

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Things for me were getting more complicated, and I couldn't understand why. I was working at a new job that I loved, in an ER as tech, making nearly double that was on the ambulance, and the hours were SO much better than they were . I only had… Read full post »

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Kevin and I drove back from Vegas and got home and promtly rented a U-haul and drove down to pick up Jaime and her things. She was all but waiting in the driveway when we showed up. While Kevin was inside moving some of her things, I was outside… Read full post »

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 I was working like crazy, more hours than I should have been, and my family was worried about me. I was hospitalized once for a bleeding ulcer, and I'm nearly positive it had to do with the stress I was under from working so much and worrying about my… Read full post »

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Now that I felt everything was brighter, and so much cleaner, and I seemed to be able to do so many more things than I did before, I felt like I living for the first time. I was able to go outside and play with my kids, sit in… Read full post »

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I worked and worked and worked for months at physical therapy 5 days a week until I could walk on my own. It was my 6 month stroke anniversary when I took my first steps with a quad cane, and a brace on my right leg and foot.… Read full post »

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I didn't realize how hard it was going to be just accomodating myself to every day life, being paralized on one side. The things that were so easy for me before, were now quite difficult. Taking a shower was out of the question, becuase I couldn't stand up, so… Read full post »

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The days and weeks that followed that original day, that horrific day that would forever be implanted in my memory, would be the hardest ones I would ever encounter. I had nightmares almost every night about the morning I had my stroke. The "explosion" in my brain,… Read full post »

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- 1996

I warmed up to the idea fairly quickly of having a new child, as soon as I saw the image on the ulrasound screen. I decided after the first ultrasound, that I wanted to know the baby's sex, because after the first two, and then… Read full post »

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1995/1996

It wasn't long after Lillie was born that we decided to move into another home. We didn't Have to, but the thought of having a new house, really appealed to us, so we started looking. I was not working anymore, at least not for an outside company. I… Read full post »

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1994-

I was starting to look like I was carrying triplets, I was getting go big, and the doctor sent me in for an early ultrasound. I had started to feel the baby kick rather early, and seemed to have this incredible "visionary" feeling about the baby. It… Read full post »

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It wasn't long before Mark and I were buying a house. I couldn't believe it.. I was going to have a home of my own, and Jaime was going to have a backyard to play in instead of a balcony. I was so excited, because I never thought it… Read full post »

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   It had been several months and my divorce hearing was coming up. I din't know why, but I was extremely nervous. Alex had been coming by every now and now and then to see Jaime, but for the most part, he really wasn't coming around. I had no… Read full post »

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From the time I came home from the hospital with Jaime, until she was 3 months old, I hadn't had a single day go by where I was without her. I did everything, Alex did nothing. He didn't even want to feed her, much less change a… Read full post »

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For the most part I had a fairly uneventful pregnancy. I had the normal ups and downs of sickness. The fiirst four months I was fairly green, and my main food group consisted mainly of saltine crackers. I was working at the hair salon, and the smells of the… Read full post »

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   I never expected to be so uncomfortable when I returned to my own husband , but I did. Being gone, separated for 6 months, and not really talking all that much, really had an effect on us. He was wathing his "P's- and Q's" so to speak, and… Read full post »

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It had now been over 5 months since I had been away from Alex. I worked full time at a hair salon, I made friends there, but It was hard on me, and I had only talked to him a few times. He wrote me letters, and always begged… Read full post »

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We had now been in California for about a year. Alex was lying to me daily, whether it was where he going, or something as simple as whether he took the dog for a walk.  I was getting really used to being a dectective and checking up on where… Read full post »

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So now Alex and I were married, and we had to be in California for him to be on the on base within 2 weeks.  I had never been on my own a day in my life, or been away from my parents. I had the best relationship… Read full post »

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It all started in 1985 when I was 18. I had graduated from High school and had also graduated from beauty school at the same time, so when I got my diplomas, I was already armed with a carreer, and started working right away. I had several… Read full post »

Welcome to the beginning of my journey.

I'm going to start out by saying, that I have tried many times to sit down and write this. I have never actually accomplished it. I'm not sure if it's because it's just too painful, or if it's the thought that it's going to… Read full post »