La Clandestina

nothing is true, but everything is real

La Gringita

La Gringita
Birthday
July 02
Title
la clandestina
Bio
riding the spiral to find the light at the end of the tunnel. here i am in south america tryin to get the fuck away from the north and see what there is to being elsewhere. por eso, me llaman la gringita.

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AUGUST 24, 2011 8:27AM

love is a mystery to me...

i'm goin to bed while they're goin to school. i'm injesting while they're just resting. i got men at my door  (pirates and gangstas and blue-eyed freaks) tellin me they love me for me. i'm fallin off motos while you're watchin tv. la vida is crazy and life es loca. i'm… Read full post »

I love being in empty places

oh what the world could signify

with the adjustment of my meaning

it's all becoming obscure

and language is just my plaything

 

the reality is surreal

but i've been writing 

the same damn thing

since the fucking beginning

 

you'd think i'd realize

that… Read full post »

AUGUST 19, 2011 2:54AM

anthropology

another city. another move. another beginning. i feel like i'm doing it all again. but on a bigger scale. moving around a place. don't stay too long. you can live anywhere. even when the place changes. you're still you. it's a matter of liking what you're used to.

it all… Read full post »

AUGUST 17, 2011 3:21AM

present continuous

i am wondering about all the things i could have done. the things i aspired to be. the things i was. the things i am. the wonderful things i'm doing. the life i'm living. i keep wondering what will become of me, but i keep forgetting what i'm becoming. 

 … Read full post »

AUGUST 14, 2011 11:14PM

the future really becomes you

the conversation revolves as time evolves. every experience collapses on itself. new becomes old and old becomes new. the past becomes real and future becomes you. plans in action. creating the destiny. taking in an excess. a world that you could reign. but it´s better to stay tranquil. and jus… Read full post »

AUGUST 10, 2011 3:42AM

going deeper

just hold it in

breathe it deep 

deeper than

the deepest depths 

that you can think

 the time has come

and you've gone off

the deep end

of the shallow edge

just about to fall

but only tipping

you realize 

it's your mind

that's doing all the ticking

and when… Read full post »

AUGUST 3, 2011 11:21PM

the becoming

and it becomes itself

again

the time

and the rhythm

you know

the complete understanding

of what you've already experienced

has gained a new elegance

and metamorphosized 

into a self-created paradise

based on everything generous

and absolutely independent

skewed to your liking

but lacking creede… Read full post »

JULY 30, 2011 7:04PM

the dreamworld

six in the morning, full of beer and confusion. walkin down the lonely road of friendly intrusion. a fruit shake here and hot piece of pan there. the world is up for grabs. free of delusion. only in your head are you really demented. meet up on the street. a joint… Read full post »

JULY 25, 2011 2:05PM

i knew you´d come back

i knew you´d come back

because you always do

with your puppy eyes

and apologies

but i´ve run away

like i always do

when the hurt is tempting me

wild and free

is my favorite way to be

but you drag me down 

to your level

of similar insanity

and emotional… Read full post »

JULY 23, 2011 10:31PM

perfectly wacked

the sun appears. the people near. life is on the street. because they´re dry. and neat. crooked and cracked. but perfectly wacked. it´s the heat. everyone is in it. swimming through it. soaking in it. absolutely happy to stop and chat for a bit. la colorada wondering through the maze. try… Read full post »

tick tock

time's windin down

on the universal clock

to leave

is an art

to return

is goin back on the start

to see what

you've learned

what you've kept

in your heart

take what you know

and leave the rest

unexplored

until you get somewhere new

and sanity is once… Read full post »

JULY 13, 2011 5:49PM

watch out sun...here i come.

time for a change. tiempo de cambiar. the momentum has been building for a while. just been waitin for that push on down the spiral. here it is. and there i go. empezar en nuevo lugar. start over in another pueblo. let's see what drama i get into. vamos a ver… Read full post »

JULY 10, 2011 6:23PM

What is a rainbow?

the prism in the sky. the droplets capture the light. turn it into beautiful. and return it in the night.

 

an arc above the town. the colors melting into one. like the mountain is shooting a ray of energy into infinity. sending it back where it came… Read full post »

JULY 6, 2011 10:53PM

the turning points spins again

 an old poem that reminds me that everything spirals back into itself...

 

I’ve been gone now

         long enough to go back home

    but not enough

             Read full post »

JULY 4, 2011 6:43AM

the utter essence of aloneness

an utter essence of aloneness. not lonliness because you are with yourself. all the way. the itchy sense of claustrophobia in your freedom. trapped in a moving vehicle of feelings. you sit and stare out at the blur of movement of stability. wondering who it is who's in which reality. the… Read full post »

JUNE 27, 2011 2:37PM

dreaming about memories

I dreamt about you

passing in the halls

of the world

we created together

you grabbed me

sucked me in

to be held

by just a memory

of who we thought we are

but the energy was sent… Read full post »

JUNE 24, 2011 5:39PM

ah fuck it...let's drink!

nothing ever lasts. it's inevitable. things change up. fuck up. in an instant. no one is who you think they are. and neither are you. love is all there is. and it's a big damn enigma to almost everyone.

 

i must be psychic...new love definitely only happens for a… Read full post »

JUNE 20, 2011 9:54PM

the sky is falling

 

you stare into the blackness

upside down eyes

swerving up and down

and spinning all around

through the interconnected consciousness

flowing through with light

to stare back at you

in the unknown of the night

 

the sky opens up… Read full post »

JUNE 14, 2011 10:07PM

don't know much bout gringo romance

passionate enacting

cuerpos reacting

love is mind and action

 

mi amor, mi vida, mi cielo

my love, my life, my sky

mucho más romántica

en español, think i

 

don’t know much about gringo romance

‘cept that it’s my kind… Read full post »

JUNE 14, 2011 10:06PM

don't know much bout gringo romance

passionate enacting

cuerpos reacting

love is mind and action

 

mi amor, mi vida, mi cielo

my love, my life, my sky

mucho más romántica

en español, think i

 

don’t know much about gringo romance

‘cept that it’s my kind… Read full post »

JUNE 12, 2011 11:36PM

peace offering

there's something i'm learning. that nobody's watching but the cows. there's no need to hide your yearning. because you're all alone anyhow. you and him. sun shining down, the grass rising up, the river flowing like it always does. together you make your peace. and nature accepts your offering as it… Read full post »

JUNE 8, 2011 5:19PM

new love

on top of the world

the breeze flapping in the bed sheets

the stars shining with meaning

up above normal existence

you wrap my leg around your waist

deteriorating my resistance

down on bended knee

you hold on to me

while we fall… Read full post »

MAY 29, 2011 9:58PM

the half year mark

it seems that if you can make it 6 months somewhere other than home, something good will happen to you. it all changes. the cycle has turned it's tail. and there's adventure in the air. the half year mark denotes a spiraling craziness that just might be out of control.… Read full post »

MAY 25, 2011 3:12PM

enjoy the fucking ride

as soon as i realized the spiral (a while back), it became everywhere. life spirals. in and out of control. up and down. just when you think you can't get any more down, everything turns around. the upswirl. i'm sad because i have no friends and suddenly my phone starts ringing.… Read full post »

MAY 20, 2011 4:33PM

the laws of nature...it seems

working is driving me to drink.

 

no wonder the world is an alcoholic. 

 

why did we make this type of work necessary...it seems to be killing us. 

 

i remember a time when my life wasn't just work and then sleep because i'm so tired of work and… Read full post »