an old poem that reminds me that everything spirals back into itself...

I’ve been gone now

         long enough to go back home

    but not enough

             … Read full post »

an utter essence of aloneness. not lonliness because you are with yourself. all the way. the itchy sense of claustrophobia in your freedom. trapped in a moving vehicle of feelings. you sit and stare out at the blur of movement of stability. wondering who it is who's in which reality. the… Read full post »

I dreamt about you

passing in the halls

of the world

we created together

you grabbed me

sucked me in

to be held

by just a memory

of who we thought we are

but the energy was sent… Read full post »

nothing ever lasts. it's inevitable. things change up. fuck up. in an instant. no one is who you think they are. and neither are you. love is all there is. and it's a big damn enigma to almost everyone.

i must be psychic...new love definitely only happens for a… Read full post »

you stare into the blackness

upside down eyes

swerving up and down

and spinning all around

through the interconnected consciousness

flowing through with light

to stare back at you

in the unknown of the night

the sky opens up… Read full post »

passionate enacting

cuerpos reacting

love is mind and action

mi amor, mi vida, mi cielo

my love, my life, my sky

mucho más romántica

en español, think i

don’t know much about gringo romance

‘cept that it’s my kind… Read full post »

there's something i'm learning. that nobody's watching but the cows. there's no need to hide your yearning. because you're all alone anyhow. you and him. sun shining down, the grass rising up, the river flowing like it always does. together you make your peace. and nature accepts your offering as it… Read full post »

on top of the world

the breeze flapping in the bed sheets

the stars shining with meaning

up above normal existence

you wrap my leg around your waist

deteriorating my resistance

down on bended knee

you hold on to me

while we fall… Read full post »

it seems that if you can make it 6 months somewhere other than home, something good will happen to you. it all changes. the cycle has turned it's tail. and there's adventure in the air. the half year mark denotes a spiraling craziness that just might be out of control.… Read full post »

as soon as i realized the spiral (a while back), it became everywhere. life spirals. in and out of control. up and down. just when you think you can't get any more down, everything turns around. the upswirl. i'm sad because i have no friends and suddenly my phone starts ringing.… Read full post »

working is driving me to drink.

no wonder the world is an alcoholic. 

why did we make this type of work necessary...it seems to be killing us. 

i remember a time when my life wasn't just work and then sleep because i'm so tired of work and… Read full post »

kitties laying around, chickens pecking around, dogs lounging around. the roof. the wind blowing through the top of the world. the church music vibrating through the stained-glass on the corner. the sunshine in the distant mountains. it's a perfect moment. to just be. to experience the reality. becau… Read full post »

I knew in my heart that I’d never see him again. My head, I was still trying to convince. We sat on that bus, him waiting with me until the last possible moment when the engine started up and the vibrations let us know it was time to part. Sitting in… Read full post »

here , there, and everywhere. it's all around you. this feeling of discontent. this feeling that things just ain't right yet. pieces are missing from your puzzle. and you know it. and you see the pieces. and you see the big picture. but you don't know how they fit. you're not… Read full post »

i thought a poem last night. but when i awoke in the mornin. it was forgotten. and now i'm tryin to rhyme. and doin fine. but there ain't no passion. and i'm not askin. but pretty sure i just need some inspiration. to give into the temptation. and complete the sensation.… Read full post »

Did you know that since about three weeks ago there is no US embassy in Ecuador? Nor is there an Ecuadorian embassy in the states. Which means no visas for Ecuadorians. All because the US doesn't want Ecuador to have relations with Iran. Control freak. And the Embassy webpage says nothing… Read full post »

the desolation of 6 am sets in. a stroll in the street. a sunrise from the bus seat. a walk through the world. and up the hill of work. it's nice to be alone. when you're not the only one.

i need t0 be inspired.… Read full post »

i'm stuck in a warp. soon to be blown apart. by something i've created. to destroy me. just when i'm breaking. the creation reigns again. and i succeed. in the solving of the puzzle of me.

semana santa. everything rises again.  Read full post »

i have no idea what to say...it's holy week. feels like it. 

happy four twenty.  Read full post »

go on, get dramatic sky

reflect what's goin on inside

my deep dark mind

 bitch and moan

toss and turn 

until you can't no more

because you've cried all your tears

and discovered all your fears

and left the ground soaking and damp

saturated with the love

of the wandering… Read full post »

i feel like being poetic. but i think i've lost it. the ability to flow. i'm no longer on the go. every place i am i'm on top. lookin down. watchin the sock hop. not willing to do a belly flop. into the deep. i'm not scared to get hurt anymore.… Read full post »

recently, i've realized one major difference between the great american culture and those of the latin american countries i have lived in - the separation of home and work. removing where you live from where you work and shop and eat is what created the suburbs. and i… Read full post »

boys confuse me.

and so do i. 

i really just want to be free. 

and at the same time

some who wants to do it with me.

and i'm not sure if both are possible

simultaneously. 

long live the… Read full post »

when life throws you curve balls

       don't move

               let it bruise you

  so you remember 

         what your subconscious 

                  &n… Read full post »

you wake up in the morning, your subconscious having shattered your idealism of the entire life you had lived before you thought of it, and you realize you did something dumb. fucking dumb. but it's done. tarot cards are lying around. all sorts of things strewn about. and everything you knew… Read full post »