On her good days my mother fixed pancakes with whipped cream faces, and chocolate milkshakes for breakfast. She wore her wedding dress and I was her bridesmaid. Or we'd wear tiaras and she would be the Queen and I'd be her princess. If I obeyed without questions, hesitancy, or fear, her… Read full post »

I named this "knowing" but I don't. It's a hope. A dream. Say what you want to make it come true.

A science teacher once asked why I was letting my grades slip. I told him what he was teaching didn't interest me. I didn't care about how things evolved until… Read full post »

cool sweeps bare arms

shadows

wait

behind closed doors

under sheets

through lace curtains

in closets.

I buy more lamps

and high wattage bulbs

I want to rig theater lights

show my husband the internet site I found

"They can be here in three days."

He says

"Baby, y… Read full post »

Summer up and leaves

with no good bye.

she is rude like that.

she gets away with it.

we forgive everything the day she returns. 

She takes with her

sun warmed maple syrup

barefooted loud children

and

cricket bootie calls

Soon I wake in the dark

grab covers off beds… Read full post »

I come and go here and have seen a few skirmishes. I expected this, especially on a site promoted for "artists of any stripe". I've worked with artists, consider myself one and know how much crazy fun they (we) are. Sometimes more crazy than fun. 

But this place isn't what I… Read full post »

There is a box in the northwest corner of the garage. It is large enough for me to sleep in if ever needed. But that is not the reason it remains there, unopened. Cats use it. They jump from it to the window ledge and paw against the pane to let me… Read full post »

Childbirth did not scare me. Despite the horror stories friends and family shared I barely gave it a thought. It was the early 70’s when gender was unknown until you gave birth. But I knew this was a girl. I was five months along and feeling wonderful. Easy pregnancy. Inconsequential side… Read full post »

When a baby dies inside your body, others will soon forget. You don't. You can't. But you pretend you do because if you told them how much you think about your baby they avoid conversations. And you need conversations. You need to hear other voices besides the one inside your… Read full post »

It would be easy to allow myself to free fall. No one would blame me. Many expect it. Hell, I expect it.

Insanity is in my blood. Her face is in my mirror now. The hair color is different but only because I  pay $12.99 for dark auburn (7.99 on sale… Read full post »

I will never be a political leader. If I ran for office, my first speach would end the campaign. Once people heard what I believed in they would think me silly.

But I will tell you what I think because it doesn't matter to me what the response is. I'm not running for… Read full post »

Cars slowed as they came to our house. If there was no traffic they stopped. If there was a line, they crept past barely moving. An impatient driver sped around, but most lingered. Maybe it was because our house was featured on the news as a "must see". Maybe because they detected the… Read full post »

Choices. All day. Every hour. And moment.

I meet a friend for breakfast. Will quiche make me feel bloated? Will eggs benedict make me feel snobbish? If I choose scrambled eggs, bacon, hash browns and buttered whole wheat toast, will it make me honest? Do I want to be real today o… Read full post »