I am helpless as my Sister wrestles with a Personal Problem. Uncertainty and Pain hover closely, but they can’t quite close out her Shining Grace in managing the struggle. Her humility and insight move my mind: I change. I want to share my newfound wisdom but can’t for the impact my writing would have on the innocent.
I wonder about an online Friend whose outrage at Recent Events fixes on a bias similar to one he himself presented to the universe just Yesterday. (Is “online” giving too much away? I will switch pronouns and stay vague.) I want to ask him: Now do you know how They feel? I don’t think the connection has occurred to him, and I am not brave enough to ask.
I know Somebody whose framing of her life seems largely responsible for the diminished enjoyment she gets from it, if that makes any sense. It would, of course, if you could fill into the cracks the details that are swimming in my mind, dying to leak, specifics about her temperament, marriage, and financial situation. I want to explore this without blame, for Truth hangs in the shadowy netherworld of nuance.
I see things and want to make stories of them. I learn how to live by watching others. The swirling mixture of hurts and hypocrisies and jealousies and loyalties and triumphs that surround us represent a template for Fine Living, I think, even if it's to show us, sometimes, how not to live. But for me, coherence emerges only upon articulation. And I don’t know how to converse about the Really Important Stuff without resorting to those shapes and colors and sizes that would identify my teachers.
So I say nothing.



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If not, I know it's "against the rules", but you could certainly go deeper undercover.
This is largely why I write fiction, and why I sometimes wish I'd chosen an avatar for OS. There's a great Neil Simon line from "Biloxi Blues": "Once you start compromising your thoughts, you're a candidate for mediocrity." I don't see fiction as a compromise of my thoughts; it allows me freedom that I wouldn't have in nonfiction.
I'm not sure what the answer is, but I do understand._r
"I know Somebody whose framing of her life seems largely responsible for the diminished enjoyment she gets from it, if that makes any sense." This makes perfect sense and expresses your meaning clearly.
" I learn how to live by watching others. The swirling mixture of hurts and hypocrisies and jealousies and loyalties and triumphs that surround us represent a template for Fine Living, I think, even if it's to show us, sometimes, how not to live. : I totally get that too!
I want to hear your stories!
you might be surprised.
three of my closest friends were in a writing group together and decided to give eachother permission to write about eachothers' memories and situations and families....it was actually sort of fun. It is hard because it feels invasive but if you have permission (and once you start writing you'll want to change the names and details anyway to grapple with the ideas rather than the mundane real details of it) it can be a great way to explore something.
and your relative might actually enjoy reading it. you never know. many "fiction" writers never make anything up. or so its said....