I see the puppy I raised for six years. I see the dog I had to leave with my ex-husband when we divorced because it was what was best for her. I see unconditional love. I see my constant companion who was there when no humans could bring me comfort. I see my own disappointment in having to leave her. I see a life that I left behind that might have been easier than the one I have now. I see a creature that was always happy to see me and greeted me with kisses. I see my own regret in not trying harder to find a way to keep her with me. I see my grief. I see an uncertain future for both of us. I see her looking at me from the front window, as I drove away for the last time. She didn't know I wouldn't be back.
I don't see the incurable liver cancer that will kill her sometime this year. I won't be there for her. I see nothing through these tears right now.
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She knows, believe she knows.
Rated with hugs and a load of kleenex
I understand this view, lemonpulp. And I'm so sorry for your loss.
Lezlie
Know that you are hugged.
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We get so attached as they do to us. It's that trust I think that hurts so bad. She knows you loved her. I am so sorry though, I know it hurts.
I wish I could say more...
I'm gonna need more tissues.
Not much can make you feel better about this, but you said it first, 'what was best for her'. Sometimes that's the most difficult decision of all. You had the strength to make it.
Remembering her face in the window as you left..
Rated for heart wrenching.
Angel is a great dog, and from what I've heard, isn't suffering right now and acts like nothing is wrong with her. But the vet said it's just a matter of time at this point.
Buffy