lemonpulp

lemonpulp
Location
Sacramento, California,
Birthday
February 20
Bio
writing my way to sanity, one post at a time. you can also find me at pulpyprose.com

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Sigh.

What IS this world coming to when we can’t just turn a blind eye to those promoting hate and bigotry. I mean, does it really matter if members of corporate America are using money to support organizations that work every day to discriminate against fellow Americans? Sure, maybe it… Read full post »

JULY 9, 2012 7:35PM

Communicatus Neurosititis

Sprawled on the massage table, I was doing my best to relax and clear my mind. It worked. For about 10 minutes. After that, I started thinking about how I communicate with other people. Ok, I was obsessing about it. In times past, I kept most things to myself and only… Read full post »

JUNE 28, 2012 2:45PM

The Gay Agenda: Rainbow Foods

 

Oreo “came out” this week in a very public way in support of gay rights. Of course, the company may have been supportive for years and just chose to keep it quiet. But when they posted the rainbow cookie, an uproar ensued.

Homophobes everywhere declared their disappointment… Read full post »

JUNE 21, 2012 6:58PM

Filtered (Open Call Repost)

Fall and Winter mornings have a quality that you often can’t find at other times of the year. Early morning clouds and fog shroud the landscape in a mist that seems to come from another place. If you can block out the traffic and people and distractions, the world can

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JUNE 10, 2012 6:00AM

Flashbacks

You don’t want to be inside this head right now. It is a dark, dark place, full of bad memories that won’t go away. They come at me, out of nowhere. Flashbacks that I can’t control and that I don’t want. Is there a hidden message in them? Am I supposed… Read full post »

JUNE 8, 2012 1:15AM

Pushed

Vulnerable and scared

She let me in

Through the small door

Past the protective walls

I pushed

Too hard, too fast

More walls went up

Stronger, thicker, higher

No doors in sight

No way through

Unless she lets me in again

Do I scale the walls

Hoping for another chance

Do… Read full post »

JUNE 3, 2012 5:16PM

Head vs. Heart

Head: So, you ready to talk about this yet?

Heart: What’s there to talk about? I haven’t changed my mind.

Head: Seriously? How many times do you have to hear “Move on. This isn’t going to work.” before you actually LISTEN?

Heart: I’d listen if I believed. I don&rsq… Read full post »

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Several years ago, while firmly ensconced in the job from hell, I wrote an Office version of Dante’s Purgatory. What can I tell you. I read a lot and I needed an outlet for all my pent up frustrations before I became a news story. Fast-forward two years, and I’m in… Read full post »

MAY 13, 2012 9:07PM

Torn

 

As Gabrielle started to wake, flashes of her dreams came back to her. Images of what her brain had tried to process overnight. She couldn’t make out everything. A face. A landscape. If the dreams had been particularly interesting, she could remember them more clearly. The vague ones, how… Read full post »

MAY 7, 2012 9:01PM

Spent

the human spirit and body can only take so much before it feels broken beaten defeated resigned tired of doing everything alone working living maintaining a life that still feels incomplete with a heart longing to be put back together but she won’t do it time for others but seemingly no… Read full post »

 

Alanis Morissette’s music has always appealed to me. First, it was the angst, anger-driven lyrics of rejected love that I could relate to. As I got older, and as Morissette got older, the music was relatable for all the emotion she packed into her lyrics. “That I Would Be Good&rdqu… Read full post »

MAY 1, 2012 12:19AM

Unspoken

 

so many words we don’t say

acts of protection

acts of self-preservation

are they unsaid because we fear the words

or because we fear the vulnerability behind them

so much i want to say

i refrain

not wanting to scare you

not wanting to drive you away

so many words… Read full post »

APRIL 29, 2012 6:58PM

Trigger

 

Walking across the threshold, I had no idea I’d be so overcome with emotions. I actually had to stop and compose myself before going any further. It had been about six years since I had stepped foot in a place that I used to frequent once a week. For me,… Read full post »

APRIL 18, 2012 3:50PM

Musical Musings – No Day But Today

Watching an Idina Menzel concert on PBS last week, I was reduced to a blubbering mess during her performance of “No Day But Today” from Rent. People who know me well would probably be surprised to learn that I’ve never seen the musical or the movie. I’m familiar with some of… Read full post »

MARCH 4, 2012 1:40AM

Engraved

The first full day I had to myself after my ex moved out, I celebrated. Feeling like a huge weight had been lifted off of me, I made myself a nice dinner and opened an ’85 Cabernet that had been sitting around collecting dust. As I sat in the perfect silence… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 28, 2012 12:41AM

Replacements

The strangest events can trigger a memory or send you spiraling back into your past, where you are forced to confront ghosts you’d rather ignore. I left my sunglasses at a friend’s home the other evening. It wasn’t until the next morning that I noticed they were gone. We already had… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 7, 2012 6:46PM

Knick Knacks

Cleaning and reorganizing the garage over the weekend, I came across several boxes of items I had almost forgotten about. With each unpacked layer, I came across wonderful surprises. Some items brought laughter. Others brought tears and bittersweet feelings. Each knick knack, a reminder of the differ… Read full post »

JANUARY 21, 2012 1:55PM

Weakness

You’d been on my mind a lot. I’m not sure why. Maybe it was the weather. Maybe it was the flu I was fighting. Certain things trigger these thoughts of you without warning. Some days I can easily push them aside. Other days, it takes all my energy to not think… Read full post »

JANUARY 14, 2012 7:10PM

Out With the Old…

I’ve been spending a lot of time purging lately. Purging the house and garage of my ex’s things and of the items I no longer want or need. Most of it was acquired during our time together and I don’t want to see it. I’ve been surprised by how strong the… Read full post »

JANUARY 10, 2012 11:20PM

Pop!

Disclaimer: The author is not looking for sympathy with this post. It is meant to be a humorous look at the sometimes unwelcome changes in our bodies once we hit a certain age. She does, however, suspect that there will be some snarky comments and/or hate email as a result ofRead full post »

JANUARY 7, 2012 8:09PM

I Don’t Do Grief

I don’t do grief.

I do denial. I do tortured anguish. I do distraction and avoidance quite well. But grief? Not so much. And after telling others that they need to give themselves time to properly grieve instead of pushing the emotions aside, I see that I’m a complete hypocrite. No… Read full post »

DECEMBER 30, 2011 8:53PM

Purged

It’s time. In fact, it’s long overdue. I’ve needed to purge myself of this, of you, for too long. Today, I took the last of your things to the storage unit. There are no more reminders of you in this house. No more reminders of our relationship, except the emotional scars… Read full post »

my heart is in iowaLast year was the first Christmas I had spent single since 1996. It was an adjustment, but not necessarily a bad one. Last year was also the first year I had enjoyed the holiday since 2005. I wasn’t dealing with the stress, anxiety, and, to be frank, bullshit that I had… Read full post »

DECEMBER 22, 2011 8:11PM

if i was there…

if i was there

you could cry on my shoulder

you could talk about what hurts

you could sit quietly while I hold your hand

you might not feel so alone

you could lean on me for support

if i was there

 

if i was there

i’d wipe your tears… Read full post »

DECEMBER 9, 2011 6:33PM

Musical Musings – Chasing Pavements

I was talking to a friend last night about relationships and how difficult it can be to know when to give up and when to keep trying. It can be a very fine line and is unique to each person and each relationship. I will be the first to admit that… Read full post »