This is it. You can't change it. It's your legacy. It's ugly. You want a different story. You want to rewrite it. You want to make it better. You don't have a choice. This is it.

 You have to face your life. Your childhood or lack of childhood. You have to… Read full post »

The last two years have knocked me down and rubbed my face in the dirt. Don't feel sorry for me. I tried to get myself to my feet several times but these attempts were futile. Don't pity me. I have cried enough. I have imagined impaling myself on sharp objects to… Read full post »

Sarah Palin is on the magical history tour of the USA. She's on a mission and path, but is it the right one? What do you think of this gosh golly gee quote by Sarah Palin:

"If you're walking down the right path and you're willing to keep walking, eventually you'll… Read full post »

As someone who has been interested in marketing, media and culture since I was very young and through careful observation in an independent lifetime cultural anthropological study, I have learned much about my fellow humans and I have been guilty of these traits myself since I am… Read full post »

_{Wizard of Oz (1939)}

Miss Gulch has been lost in the shuffle of the smack down of Trump amidst the birth certificate production that will not lower gas and heating oil prices, trillions in debt or the unemployment rate. Miss Gulch did not get invited to the royal wedding and no… Read full post »

Boy, Girl. Coffee, Tea. Cat, Dog. Sun, Moon. Dark, Light. Republican, Democrat. Outdoor, Indoor. Night, Day. Apples, Oranges. Gay, Straight. Happy, Sad. Male, Female. Feces, Urine. East, West. Christian, Muslim. Hate, Love. Destruction, Construction. Bush, Obama. Live, Die. Nature, Nurture. Young, Ol… Read full post »

My cell phone does not work where I live in the bowels of rural Maine. My father tried to call me but I was home all day Saturday and not once did he call my home phone. Part of me is glad that I never got the message that my mother… Read full post »

Maybe I'm the only woman who ever scheduled an abortion that really didn't want one. Maybe I'm the only woman who was pressured by family members, a close friend and the biological father to have an abortion. I must be a unique woman and the only one who has ever wished one of those… Read full post »

I just want to let you all know that I am becoming mentally unhinged in a world that makes no sense and is insane. Why?

Today is a beautiful fall New England day and I am going into that day! Air, breath, even if the going is just to do stuff… Read full post »

I'm at one of those pivotal points in life and feeling like I could go up or down. I know I should be thinking that I had a googling epiphany this morning but I am having evil thoughts after reading the results of a random google. My evil thoughts are hateful and… Read full post »

Have you ever felt like you were doing a lot for nothing? Have you ever had one of those dreams where you try to run and seem to be running but you aren't getting anywhere? Welcome to the life of me right now.

This epistle is one of a misspent summer… Read full post »

What good is a quickie? Why is everything rushed? For women, quickies are a raw deal. Life is already a rush and not in a good way.

I need more rushes (in a good way) and less quickies. Take for instance, right now, I'm writing a quick blog before I get… Read full post »

I would be perfect

if I produced green

in a quantity acceptable

how much, how much would be enough?

if only I could grow this stuff you love

printed paper in God's name

tell me how much would satisfy

you

judge me by my worth

worthy I am

by my account… Read full post »

I've been grieving but I'm a lousy drunk. I can't drink well at all. Last night, I opened one of those minature bottles of Merlot made for one lousy drunk and had two sips and said, "Not tonight, dear."

Not tonight, dear but I was all alone. I've been grieving all… Read full post »

My life has been like a run away freight train lately. I am working day and night to make enough money and time to visit my mother in the hospital in Florida before she dies. My freight train is racing with death.

I am learning many lessons on this break neck… Read full post »

My mother has been in hospitals (yes, plural) for months. I visited once but my parents live in Florida. My mother has been close to death but seems to miraculously rally repeatedly. She is not ready to die.

In the last week, I only got to talk to my mom once before… Read full post »

Maybe online dating is not for me. I find difficulty in coming up with continual witty banter with some of the intellectual denizens on dating sites. Last night, I received an email from one of the men I had not heard from for a while.

He really knows how to get my… Read full post »

My life is very sad right now. I refuse to pretend to be happy for all those people who can't handle me sad or heaven forbid, negative. I am really putting a damper on all those positive thinking people. I did not realize until recently that the power of positive… Read full post »

Albert, come get mom

pick her up

in the baby blue Rambler

she needs a ride

to the tea cups

to the roller coaster

the trip is over

and the attendant

opens the gate

to let mom out

we follow waiting

down Baltimore Pike

we leave knowing

you are circling your… Read full post »

You know that old saying by anonymous, "Never say never..."  There is more to that shortened saying and it has been credited to Gloria Swanson:

"Never say never, for if you live long enough, chances are you will not be able to abide by its restrictions. Never is a… Read full post »

I was never daddy's girl. Everytime I start thinking about my family history, I am afraid to open the door too wide. I will tell you that I love my parents and lately, I am talking on the phone with my father almost every day.

Our phone conversations first began and … Read full post »

I'm into words. I look up words on a daily basis. I want to revisit the definition of words I use regularly.

I think about words more than sex. I love and long for words and their impact. The words do not have to be pleasant words like the word, love… Read full post »

I love being able to say anything in the open and not be noticed. I get a chance to pull my pants down in public and people just walk by as if they can't see that I've gone commando. I am free.

I could stick out my tongue right now and who would notice? Maybe… Read full post »

My daughter has moved to North Carolina and I miss her. My mother is being killed by medical "professionals" faster than she can die. I am a Realtor who has not sold a house in almost a year. I think it's time to think positive.

No, seriously, I have to put on… Read full post »

I'm alone and probably the best place to be on this rainy, reject day that I didn't want to wake and be conscious. Everything is bleak. I let the woodstove burn down last night and my furnace is dead. Maine refuses to give way to spring.

The one day I need… Read full post »