I just want to let you all know that I am becoming mentally unhinged in a world that makes no sense and is insane. Why?

Today is a beautiful fall New England day and I am going into that day! Air, breath, even if the going is just to do stuff around my broke down farm. I have been working at real estate for over a year and not made a dime. When I say working that means long hours, my time, money, gas and all entailed to sell real estate. I finally have two contracts and am praying that both these houses close so  that over a year's worth of work earns more than nothing.

I know I am not alone. I would have been better off laid off from a payroll job and collecting unemployment. How sad is that? Especially since I have been there and laid off too and I know that is no place anyone wants to be either. My heart goes out to those who are there and trying to find employment.

I have been working as a slave for over a year and some of my masters, the would be buyers and sellers have been abusive to their slaves. I don't enjoy having other people's frustrations taken out on me. Life can be very difficult and challenging and in these economic times, we should be supporting each other morally and cheering each other in every attempt to get up and stay up.

I have witnessed and wasted time in "much ado about nothing" in transactions and interactions personally and professionally. I have no time, energy or money to waste. I am going into total "take me or leave me" mode and if neccessary take my leave.

We all have limitless directions to choose from and a vast number of people to choose to interact with and how we act and conduct ourselves is totally up to the individual. I can't control you and you can't control me. Frankly, I have enough trouble controlling myself and that is enough of a full time job. Why would I want to take on anyone else?

In my old age, I have learned that sometimes, letting go of the tug-of-war rope and walking away is the best way to go. Sometimes, I need to even give me a rest. So few things really matter in the larger scheme of life, sometimes it's best to give it a rest, go outside and look up at the limitless blue sky...