If I want to get to heaven
MY RECENT POSTS
- kitd's Open Call: 5 Things I
Love to Do
October 17, 2014 11:37AM
- Is that a pot of Duck Heads
boiling on the stove?
October 10, 2014 12:15AM
- Stories I wish I'd seen.
Delia’s OC: Speak to us of
October 07, 2014 04:58PM
- Speaking courageously. Delia's
OC: "Speak to us of Courage"
October 05, 2014 02:04PM
- Days like this
September 28, 2014 12:37AM
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “I have to remember to
come back and see the
- “"she and i replaced her
old garden, removing it down
bare earth and
- “I went and checked the
schizophrenia and autism links
found no surprises.
- “I too got open salon on
a google search but it was
showing I'd used it
- “How exciting. It would
be fun to be where Halloween
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Things are not going well and I need to get back to basics, to remember what worked for me, instead of trying to do what works for others. I was happy for a long period of time, not always happy with the way things were, but… Read full post »
I ended my last post about my charismatic father at about age 5 when I entered 1st grade. There’s a lot of overlap and of course references to past and future woven throughout. We do things in the past that affect the present and future. I write from my thoughts as a child a… Read full post »
My father was a confusing figure throughout my childhood. He was cultured, elegant, courteous, jovial, respectful and the most charming man I’ve ever met. Only my mother and I understood he had more force of will than anyone, nothing stopped his determination to have his way. His lapses… Read full post »
My father died 3 months ago and the ways it's affected me are a surprise. I may write things that will allow others to create their own distorted perception of me, or him, but I will only write the truth and this is just a tiny piece. I won't… Read full post »
Not long ago, I was having an email conversation with a friend who was going through some heart ache. My friend told me her story then asked for my thoughts, but not before she apologized for whining.
“You’re not whining,” I said. “You’re hurting out loud… Read full post »
I’ve been too sad lately, it’s been 8 years and I should be over my former husband by now. Everyone wants me to be over it, so that’s how I pretend to be. I miss more than the man, I miss who I was with him. How easy it was… Read full post »
"Whatever colors you have in your mind
I'll show them to you and you'll see them shine."
Wow. The first time I heard those incredible two lines decades ago, I fell in love with Lay Lady Lay. The way Bob Dylan sings, the music, everything about it touches me. Couldn't… Read full post »
Tuesday night I got home from celebrating a friends birthday and found an email from my last boyfriend ("The Pilot" if you're keeping up on my disastrous history). It was a simple hi how are you. I'm as suspicious of simple as I am of complex. I hadn’t heard from him… Read full post »
For a couple of years I’ve been getting wonderful PM’s. With the death of my father last month I’ve received a lot more and am starting to feel bad. These are kind words sent by caring men and women who simply want to be good to another person. I… Read full post »
This post is about removing calluses and unsightly dead skin from my feet because Linda Seccaspina and fernsy want to read about it. I’m not sure I understand but, okay. I was told by someone very nice the beginning of a piece should tell you where it’s going and other stuff… Read full post »
My grandfather, Mansour Abdel-Sayed Mansour, had an antiques shop in Shepherd's Hotel in Cairo, as well as in the Semiramis Hotel, and in the Khan Khalil Bazaar. During that time Cairo was a travel must for people from all over Europe and the US. His clientele included King Farou… Read full post »
Mountain View, California, 1958
There is a bubble I live in, sometimes happily, sometimes not.
As terrible as my relationship with my father was, I was proud of his integrity in business and the things he accomplished. Today I learned something new about his life before h… Read full post »
My father had the strongest will of anyone I've known. The man was unstoppable. It's probably more accurate to say he was a force, than to say he was forceful. He should have been a boxer, you could hit him again and again and never stop him. His will was a… Read full post »
Tonight I feel weak, and mushy, not substantial at all. The day started out okay and I went soft as the hours dragged on. Today I had nothing to do. The TV is on and all the shows have people that seem to be all jagged edges. Hard sharp people… Read full post »
My dad died last Saturday the 18th. He died peacefully and I'm glad for that, prayed with all my heart for it to be painless and am glad it went that way. I keep thinking I should say something to those here who don't know yet, but what should I… Read full post »
This is not a happy post. If you didn't read my post two weeks ago, my father has congestive heart failure and has home hospice care. What that means is that he's dying, it's horrible for him to feel, and for us to see, and we're all crazy (more than before).… Read full post »
Sitting on the back of the toilet in front of my Missing Persons poster which was hanging in the Tower Records on Hollywood Blvd, a gift from a guy who was working there the day I went to see Toni Basil in the parking lot. Vintage suit and check out the… Read full post »
I haven't been around much, my dad's congestive heart failure has gotten pretty bad. Monday the hospice doctor and social worker came so he can stay in his home. I've been busy with my mom trying to keep her from being completely exhausted, and of course we have all the… Read full post »
When I went to get the mail today a high school couple across the street was holding each other close in a kiss. I kept my eyes down as I collected the trash can and when I glanced again the kiss was over but the embrace lasted. It lasted through me… Read full post »
One of the things I've considered in the years since my good marriage ended is the possibility I would grow old alone. I dated for about 7 years and some of the dates became boyfriends. Usually within a few months after achieving relationship status and a physical relationship I would… Read full post »
It's snowing here. I woke and the world looked sweetly pretty, like a fairy tale. This will be the first time in a decade I get to see what this much snow looks like in my yard. Out I go with camera and umbrella.
The weather vane is my favorite… Read full post »