If I want to get to heaven

I have to walk away from hell

Tuesday night I got home from celebrating a friends birthday and found an email from my last boyfriend ("The Pilot" if you're keeping up on my disastrous history).  It was a simple hi how are you. I'm as suspicious of simple as I am of complex. I hadn’t heard from him… Read full post »

MARCH 28, 2012 6:10PM

About that PM

 

For a couple of years I’ve been getting wonderful PM’s. With the death of my father last month I’ve received a lot more and am starting to feel bad. These are kind words sent by caring men and women who simply want to be good to another person. I… Read full post »

This post is about removing calluses and unsightly dead skin from my feet because Linda Seccaspina and fernsy want to read about it. I’m not sure I understand but, okay. I was told by someone very nice the beginning of a piece should tell you where it’s going and other stuff… Read full post »

MARCH 13, 2012 11:56AM

Adventure on the train to Milan

 

 

My grandfather, Mansour Abdel-Sayed Mansour, had an antiques shop in Shepherd's Hotel in Cairo, as well as in the Semiramis Hotel, and in the Khan Khalil Bazaar. During that time Cairo was a travel must for people from all over Europe and the US. His clientele included King Farou… Read full post »

MARCH 13, 2012 1:49AM

The bubble girl and her father

Mountain View, California, 1958 

 

There is a bubble I live in, sometimes happily, sometimes not.

 

As terrible as my relationship with my father was, I was proud of his integrity in business and the things he accomplished. Today I learned something new about his life before h… Read full post »

MARCH 9, 2012 3:11PM

That I Would Be Good

What I always wanted to know when growing up and growing older. 
 
 
That I would be good even if I did nothing
 
That I would be good even if I got theRead full post »
MARCH 4, 2012 11:24PM

photos

 
Paris, mom & dad before marriage on a trip with a group of friends 
 
 
 
July 13, 1954 at Patachou in Paris. The man who did the best pirouette and ballet dance won a bottle of champagne. Mom and dad dragged that bottle all over Europe. Dad… Read full post »
MARCH 4, 2012 1:58PM

A will of iron

My father had the strongest will of anyone I've known. The man was unstoppable. It's probably more accurate to say he was a force, than to say he was forceful. He should have been a boxer, you could hit him again and again and never stop him. His will was a… Read full post »

MARCH 1, 2012 10:52PM

Tonight

 

Tonight I feel weak, and mushy, not substantial at all. The day started out okay and I went soft as the hours dragged on. Today I had nothing to do. The TV is on and all the shows have people that seem to be all jagged edges. Hard sharp people… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 26, 2012 7:12PM

Now what do I say?

 

My dad died last Saturday the 18th. He died peacefully and I'm glad for that, prayed with all my heart for it to be painless and am glad it went that way. I keep thinking I should say something to those here who don't know yet,  but what should I… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 16, 2012 12:03AM

Pain meds, giggling, and serenading babies

This is not a happy post. If you didn't read my post two weeks ago, my father has congestive heart failure and has home hospice care. What that means is that he's dying, it's horrible for him to feel, and for us to see, and we're all crazy (more than before).… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 4, 2012 11:08PM

The 80's Femmemullet (for Rita)

Sitting on the back of the toilet in front of my Missing Persons poster which was hanging in the Tower Records on Hollywood Blvd, a gift from a guy who was working there the day I went to see Toni Basil in the parking lot. Vintage suit and check out the… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 1, 2012 10:37PM

Family stuff is keeping me away from OS

 

I haven't been around much, my dad's congestive heart failure has gotten pretty bad. Monday the hospice doctor and social worker came so he can stay in his home. I've been busy with my mom trying to keep her from being completely exhausted, and of course we have all the… Read full post »

JANUARY 28, 2012 1:00AM

Eat Tacos?

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I need a little help from the late night thinkers on OS. I'm wondering if this Mayor has an answer no one else has thought of yet.
The first vid doesn't really explain what the problem was but it's worth watching to the end because the mayor explains his plan in de… Read full post »
JANUARY 25, 2012 7:08PM

Holding onto hope

When I went to get the mail today a high school couple across the street was holding each other close in a kiss. I kept my eyes down as I collected the trash can and when I glanced again the kiss was over but the embrace lasted. It lasted through me… Read full post »

JANUARY 24, 2012 1:37AM

Relationships and re-writing stories

 

One of the things I've considered in the years since my good marriage ended is the possibility I would grow old alone. I dated for about 7 years and some of the dates became boyfriends. Usually within a few months after achieving relationship status and a physical relationship I would… Read full post »

JANUARY 21, 2012 10:33PM

A Simple Woman

 

Softly she went from place to place,

person to person, faceless to face.

Moving her lips but no one hears,

while flitting through their might.  

 

 

Endless days bleed into nights, 

fast and slow or left and right.

She's only theRead full post »

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JANUARY 18, 2012 2:51PM

Pretty snow

It's snowing here. I woke and the world looked sweetly pretty, like a fairy tale. This will be the first time in a decade I get to see what this much snow looks like in my yard. Out I go with camera and umbrella.

 

The weather vane is my favorite… Read full post »

JANUARY 17, 2012 3:44PM

Outrageous offenses!

The TV news just had a blurb that Idaho grocery store chains are starting to complain about the deluge of recipients shopping at the first of the month causing supply-chain problems and it’s affecting customers. I followed it up with checking our local paper and The Dept of Health and Welfare… Read full post »

JANUARY 16, 2012 7:22PM

AMERICAN VALUE$

 

Some days I comfort the disturbed, some days I disturb the comfortable. I guess it all depends on whether I'm comfortable or disturbed by my personal observations. 

 

What would you do if you saw a large dog gorging at the food dish while small starving dogs sat staring… Read full post »

JANUARY 16, 2012 4:47PM

A poverty stricken US

Some days I comfort the disturbed, some days I disturb the comfortable. I guess it all depends on whether I'm comfortable or disturbed by in my personal observations. 

What would you do if you saw a large dog gorging at the food dish while small starving dogs sat staring and each… Read full post »

JANUARY 16, 2012 12:04PM

The financially obese

Medicaid Income Limits 

To use the chart:

  1.  Add up all gross income (before taxes) that your household receives for a month.
  2.  On the chart, find your family size.
  3.  Follow the row to find the income limit for your household size.  For example, an adult with a fa
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JANUARY 15, 2012 7:13PM

Respect for persons and things

What happened to respect? Are some people not aware that all people have feelings? I need some help understanding what the problem is. 

When someone behaves disrespectfully I immediately know that they have no respect for themselves. If they did, they wouldn't want others to know that's how they… Read full post »

JANUARY 14, 2012 11:59AM

A remarkable woman

It's been almost a week that I've been back and I've gone to see my mom three times. I see her very differently after missing her during my brief absense. It seems last year my feelings changed a lot. I have been reflecting on it all week and having many insights… Read full post »

I'm settled back into my simple life in Idaho after spending the holidays with Jeff. It was a wonderful time and a joy to wake up Christmas morning to see his face and say Merry Christmas. I won't say much about us, it's not my way or his but I do… Read full post »