If I want to get to heaven

I have to walk away from hell
JANUARY 24, 2012 1:37AM

Relationships and re-writing stories

 

One of the things I've considered in the years since my good marriage ended is the possibility I would grow old alone. I dated for about 7 years and some of the dates became boyfriends. Usually within a few months after achieving relationship status and a physical relationship I would… Read full post »

JANUARY 21, 2012 10:33PM

A Simple Woman

 

Softly she went from place to place,

person to person, faceless to face.

Moving her lips but no one hears,

while flitting through their might.  

 

 

Endless days bleed into nights, 

fast and slow or left and right.

She's only theRead full post »

Editor’s Pick
JANUARY 18, 2012 2:51PM

Pretty snow

It's snowing here. I woke and the world looked sweetly pretty, like a fairy tale. This will be the first time in a decade I get to see what this much snow looks like in my yard. Out I go with camera and umbrella.

 

The weather vane is my favorite… Read full post »

JANUARY 17, 2012 3:44PM

Outrageous offenses!

The TV news just had a blurb that Idaho grocery store chains are starting to complain about the deluge of recipients shopping at the first of the month causing supply-chain problems and it’s affecting customers. I followed it up with checking our local paper and The Dept of Health and Welfare… Read full post »

JANUARY 16, 2012 7:22PM

AMERICAN VALUE$

 

Some days I comfort the disturbed, some days I disturb the comfortable. I guess it all depends on whether I'm comfortable or disturbed by my personal observations. 

 

What would you do if you saw a large dog gorging at the food dish while small starving dogs sat staring… Read full post »

JANUARY 16, 2012 4:47PM

A poverty stricken US

Some days I comfort the disturbed, some days I disturb the comfortable. I guess it all depends on whether I'm comfortable or disturbed by in my personal observations. 

What would you do if you saw a large dog gorging at the food dish while small starving dogs sat staring and each… Read full post »

JANUARY 16, 2012 12:04PM

The financially obese

Medicaid Income Limits 

To use the chart:

  1.  Add up all gross income (before taxes) that your household receives for a month.
  2.  On the chart, find your family size.
  3.  Follow the row to find the income limit for your household size.  For example, an adult with a fa
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JANUARY 15, 2012 7:13PM

Respect for persons and things

What happened to respect? Are some people not aware that all people have feelings? I need some help understanding what the problem is. 

When someone behaves disrespectfully I immediately know that they have no respect for themselves. If they did, they wouldn't want others to know that's how they… Read full post »

JANUARY 14, 2012 11:59AM

A remarkable woman

It's been almost a week that I've been back and I've gone to see my mom three times. I see her very differently after missing her during my brief absense. It seems last year my feelings changed a lot. I have been reflecting on it all week and having many insights… Read full post »

I'm settled back into my simple life in Idaho after spending the holidays with Jeff. It was a wonderful time and a joy to wake up Christmas morning to see his face and say Merry Christmas. I won't say much about us, it's not my way or his but I do… Read full post »

 

It's disturbing to think about the live streaming spammers. I think these might be the stupidest humans on earth. What are they getting out of all these accounts? It's like mishima666 said, they kill the host. Is there some way they're able to make money when the site is

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DECEMBER 8, 2011 10:49PM

The Christmas Guest

This was given to me on  a cassette long ago and though I'm not a fan of country music I could listen to Reba McEntire read The Christmas Guest  over and over again. In fact I do. The last 60 seconds makes tears of joy run down my face. The poem… Read full post »

DECEMBER 8, 2011 6:39PM

After drug depression

“It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish.” 
― Mother Teresa

 

That quote was tagged with abortion but it it hardly begins to cover the atrocities against children. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think ab… Read full post »

Warning, this post is disgusting (and a waste of time) so you probably don't want to read it.

 

Yesterday I had two teeth extracted (ripped out of the jaw bone), a bone graft (no doubt brutally chiseled out) and a screw implanted in my jaw (probably had a hole… Read full post »

Per my earlier discussion with nanatehay, this is an open call as to how OS helps us to lower our expectations. Now we've covered that endless bullshit because we all know it's never going to be fixed. We're destined to be terminally disappointed and yadda yadda, blah de blah blah. There's… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 27, 2011 8:48PM

Sad and lonely (the letdown)

 

Thanksgiving was nice, I spent a few hours talking politics to a nice guy I met who's also a California transplant. The day before I spent with a girlfriend as she was preparing for Thanksgiving with her family. Since  Jeff left at the beginning of the month, the house has… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 26, 2011 7:34PM

What's happening in this photo?

This disturbing image keeps coming up on my facebook page. It's a groupon ad that reads

"5 fun things to do in Boise! "

 

 

I go to Boise all the time, I've even done fun things there but I've never seen whatever the hell event this guy is… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 24, 2011 10:50PM

Breathing through holidays

 

Well the holidays are officially here and with them my bone deep desire to become cold, to withdraw to the safe place where there is no pain or disappointment. In prying information from my mom, she told me that since I was little I always got depressed and anxious… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 16, 2011 6:01PM

I'm just talking on a page

 

I read Susie Lindau's wonderful post today titled Anger, Fear or Joy? Light bulbs went off in my head. I suggest you read it because it really got me thinking and not just about writing. As I read and absorbed her thoughts and questions about motivation, answers were popping into my… Read full post »

 

“Why does God do bad things?” My mom used to ask me that question every time something bad happened to me or someone else in her orbit. “Why Doe? Why does God do these bad things?” And I would sigh.  As if God was some moody Mafia boss in… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 13, 2011 9:22PM

More soft things like...

... footie pajamas and angels

When I read yesterday's re-post, it struck me how much I've healed. If you want to cry do it, don't wait 30 years like I did. Don't lock the feelings inside to make it easy on everyone else. It doesn't make you strong, it wears you… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 13, 2011 12:44PM

More soft things...

 

like... footie pajamas and angels

When I read the post from last year that I re-posted yesterday, it struck me how much I've healed. If you want to cry do it, don't wait 30 years like I did, don't lock the feelings inside to make it easy

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NOVEMBER 12, 2011 3:22PM

More soft things...

like... footie pajamas and angels

 

I read yesterday's post and it really struck me how far I've come. If you want to cry do it, don't wait 30 years, don't lock all the feelings inside to make it easy on everyone else. It doesn't make you strong, it wears you away.… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 21, 2010 7:41PM

It's been a better couple of days since I last wrote something I posted. The last post about my second husband was one of the hardest things to write. I suppose it's because of all the things I never got to say, the tears he and I… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 10, 2011 12:22PM

A healthy attitude

 
 
It was brought to my attention by tr ig that I left a nice little comment on his post when I worked for the 1% . It seems it would make a nice post on its own so here it is:
 
 
 
My annual income (when I had a… Read full post »