Librarienne's Den

Angst is optional.


Charlottean suburb, South Carolina,
February 22
Married, middle-aged suburbanite, working on finding the meaning in my corporate educational existence.


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It's Christmastime.  We are all happy at Christmastime, and filled with love for our fellow man.  But I'm not.  I am really struggling with it this year.  I want to be happy and filled with Yuletide cheer, but there is no cheer in me.  And that's a shame,… Read full post »

APRIL 9, 2014 9:15PM

The baby that would have been

We lost a baby last week.  It wasn't a baby that had been born--I was only 10 weeks along in pregnancy--but it was surely a baby that was taking shape in our heads.  It's a wierd kind of grief, not for a child I knew, but one I'd imagined.  I'm not… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 5, 2013 5:55PM

The best meal I ever ate


I normally think of fine dining as occurring either in my own house with fancy recipes we've tried for fun, or more likely at restaurants where the price point comes with three dollar signs.  I can be a food snob.  But I was reminded recently of what I still consider… Read full post »

MARCH 27, 2013 9:44AM

The evolution of dinner

This weekend, I decided it was time to pick some of those collards we’ve been growing all winter and figure out what to do with them. Not being from the South originally, collards aren’t something I grew up cooking. However, I had a handy expert at my fingertips: Paula Deen, whose… Read full post »

MARCH 26, 2013 8:13PM

I hope you are in a happy place

My coworker died this weekend.  The cause is shrouded in mystery, but her teenage son found her dead on Saturday morning, and the speculation is that she killed herself, or mistakenly overdosed on pain medication, or some sort of "accidentally on purpose" scenario.  She had a history of hig… Read full post »
MARCH 9, 2013 9:10PM


I keep secrets. I learned it young. You don’t let people outside the house know what goes on inside the house; that was our cardinal rule. You don’t tell people anything that could later be used against you. You don’t trust anyone and let down your guard.… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 28, 2013 5:39PM

Bowling, not alone

I have recently discovered that Wednesday nights are All-you-can-bowl nights at Strikers Lanes, and since our trivia ardor has cooled, mainly due to Madison’s getting weird about redeeming the prizes–seriously, don’t award them if you don’t want me to eat for free whRead full post »

FEBRUARY 19, 2013 5:38PM

Heat, glorious heat!


It has been a cold few days at Casa Librarienne! Our furnace went out.  We knew it was on its last legs, but there is never a good time for stuff like this to happen.  Certainly during the only cold snap with any sort of significant snow in our area… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 1, 2013 7:02PM

Reconsidering my religion

I am not particularly religious.  My childhood Sunday School teacher would be horrified to hear that,  because she tried really hard to teach me to be a believer, but then I went to college, and learned about the Council of Nicea having a vote to decide what was true and what… Read full post »

Even though it’s been the new year for a full week now, today is my first day back at work, so it feels like the real new year.  Vacation’s over, back to the grindstone, get down to business, and all that.  So, now is a good time to set out my… Read full post »

DECEMBER 3, 2012 4:44PM

Should you need me...

I'm still around Open, but as I am also frustrated with the technical glitches here, I have also set up shop at:  

Come on by and say hey!

Rae  Read full post »

I was 12 that year.  I was in 7th grade, I was the object of a hate club, and worst of all, my grandmother had died that September.   My grandmother and I were very close.  She lived next door and I walked over to her trailer most days after school… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 20, 2012 10:09PM

Weird? Sweet? Likely not about me at all.


I have a unique first name.  There are not a lot of us in the world.  Rae is not like Susan or Amanda, or something else really common, which is why it caught my eye when my ex-boyfriend, a lovely theater major I dated for most of a year way… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 20, 2012 9:00PM

Open Call: Holiday Schmaltz!

We are two days out from Thanksgiving, and then the Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa/Solstice season will be upon us in full force.  And what is the holiday season without a good cry?  Do you have a story that will put the heart-warming, lump-throated, sniffling feeling into the season? … Read full post »

NOVEMBER 9, 2012 11:00PM

Two Guys with Guitars

My boss is crazy, but sometimes she gives good advice. Granted, she was giving it to her son, but since he doesn’t listen, I may as well. He was complaining that he never has any fun, and she told him that he has a car and a debit card;… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 9, 2012 11:00PM

Two Guys with Guitars

My boss is crazy, but sometimes she gives good advice. Granted, she was giving it to her son, but since he doesn’t listen, I may as well. He was complaining that he never has any fun, and she told him that he has a car and a debit card;… Read full post »

OCTOBER 25, 2012 2:12PM

Why Can't You Just Be Happy?

Some days, it's really hard to want to do the things I am supposed to want to do.  Today seems to be one of those days.  I have a nice life.  I have two jobs that pay well, I have a cute house, I have a husband whose company I enjoy,… Read full post »

JULY 19, 2012 9:13PM

Keeping Secrets

Every so often when it is quiet around here, my co-worker friends and I cut loose a little and tell tales from our other lives.  You know, the ones we have outside of the office walls.  Tonight's topic was "Crazy shit my parents did when I was growing up."  Some things… Read full post »

APRIL 17, 2012 9:55PM

How does our garden grow?


Lettuce, tomatoes, basil, radishes, carrots, pineapple sage, anaheim peppers and arugula are all in their containers.  We have peas sprouting in the ground, and planted pole beans, corn and sunflowers today.  The blueberries are growing nicely, too.  They… Read full post »

For the first time in my life, I took a pregnancy test this week.  After 9 days of being late, and some morning ickiness, it seemed like a good idea. I was pretty nervous about telling Mr. L this was a necessity, since we haven't been trying to join the parental… Read full post »

1. Your main trait: Agreeable to a fault

2. The quality you like best in a man: That he thinks I'm awesome  

3. The quality you like best in a woman: Ditto

4. Your main flaw: I am an overeager people pleaser, but not always to the right people. 

5. Last time youRead full post »

FEBRUARY 14, 2012 6:38PM

In love with love

I admit it.  I am a sap.  I love Valentine's Day.  I mean, what isn't to like?  It's a day devoted to sex and candy, and grand declarations of love.  Upstairs just a few minutes ago, someone proposed to his girlfriend as she was getting off the elevator from work, complete… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 2, 2012 9:16PM

The other side of the hill

Death scares me.  I know, it scares everyone, if we really stop to consider it, which we don't much in our youth, unless we have been surrounded by quite a lot of it.  I have certainly lost my fair share of people, but up until the last year or so, that… Read full post »

Following is the obituary I wrote this week for my mother-in-law, who died last Monday.  It's been a long week, but we've been feeling lucky and loved.    


Obituary for Mrs. Pat Lovvorn

Patricia Ann Lovvorn died unexpectedly at home on April 25, 2011. Pat was borRead full post »

APRIL 13, 2011 7:07PM

A Simple Meal

After a long day slinging information and subverting corporate bureaucracy, I'm beat and hungry.  Mr. L has a rehearsal tonight, and as much as I might wish the dinner fairy was going to visit my house, I know the cooking is all on me.  Good and simple, here I come!

I… Read full post »