I've returned to the U.S. after seeing the world the past five years, so that I could spend some time with my mother in Oceanside.
I'm still assimilating the great experience of having lived in China for nearly four years (save six months in Mongolia).
And I'm going through culture shock at returning to the U.S., liking it more than I ever thought I would, but also having trouble coming back into this culture.
It doesn't help that I've always kind of rebelled against authority figures, and they are, well, more authoritarian than ever.
But we're having lovely weather here in Oceanside and being by the Pacific is pretty wonderful. I'm getting to know my mom better, and maybe even understanding and accepting her better, although I'm not sure that is happening vice versa, but you can't expect too much from someone who is 80 and rather set in her ways.
However, she's also amazing resilient and continues to surprise me. Although I sometimes question my decision to return, I'm also glad to be discovering my mother again. I'm not sure that I can successfully reenter my family again. I've always been the "other". But for the first time, I can see that I'm needed.
And also needed by my country, which is in a sore state. I have the vision to turn things around. Whether other people are open to finding out how that can be done remains to be seen. It does mean changing our ways. I guess when people see how doing that will bring prosperity and peace, they might just be willing to let go of the old paradigm.