My date of birth says one thing,
My spirit, something else.
The mirror shows the trophies of a life well lived, but lived.
The outside world barely sees my countenance.
Fear has replaced a heightened sense of adventure.
Fear prevents my heart from taking risks.
Love has always been mine for the taking, more or less.
Love is what I crave but cannot take the steps to seek.
Life has been a stretch of good fortune, dotted by heartbreak, several years apart.
Life is now an endless stretch of aloneness, self-imposed and fueled by
Fear.
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"My date of birth says one thing,
My spirit, something else."
Fear locks a lot of doors if you let it. ~r
The second half of life's map for navigation I begin to feel is the opposite: we must build up that flame and feed it, surprise it with new adventures, ones we might have missed or dismissed when the flame was hot and needed tamping down a bit, now we must trick that flame to leap again, keep it going strong to fill up those same boundaries, so we don't get small, and so fear (and damp maladies of lungs, feet, heart) cannot find us....
Just the way it's been seeming over here.
I think it takes a brave woman to admit to fear-- I'm glad you hit 'publish', my friend.
Every day I pray to lose the fear of many things. I guess faith and hope are the best eradicators, but are difficult to maintain.
For the record, I love your countenance.
Va dove ti porta il cuore.
R♥
Sometimes I think all we aging lonely women should form a commune. Then I come to my senses.
What happened to that nice Younger Man?
Sometimes I think we hurt if we do and we hurt if we don't.
So we might as well do. What the heck.
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way. If it is any consolation, in my mind, I see you as strong, courageous and with a youthful spirit.
aloneness ... self imposed ...
what if ... there were a window ...
through which one ...
could let fear ... go ...
It is an endless ocean,
with no beginning or end.
Imagine,
a suspended ocean,
riding on a cushion of ancient secrets.
All souls have drowned in it,
and now dwell there.
One drop of that ocean is hope,
and the rest is fear.
~Rumi
another quote:
Frank Herbert
"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
what is the worst that can happen? you will hurt? you will feel like a fool? cheap payments for a chance at love
Jump, L, jump!
Remember that feeling of being on that swing reaching so high you thought you couldn't possibly hold on? The jitters, the fun, the wild, exhilarating back and forth?
You are being invited to swing on a mile high swing ride...he's just as vulnerable as you, just as afraid you'll find him lacking in some unfathomable way...
but I'll bet you know that already.
...and Coqui can just get over being jealous.
Well, now that I have such (imagined) clarity for someone else while sitting in the thick fog of my own way forward... : )
And overcoming fear is a big part of controlling your own life.
This you can do.
Nice write.!
self-sustaining, creature...
to find the fear to be
not "really" there
is the greatest
gift of pot
& some of these pharmaceuticals......
showing us: ''My spirit, something else.'
HUGGGGGGGG
"My date of birth says one thing,
My spirit, something else."
Fear locks a lot of doors if you let it. Remove WMV DRM