Today I begin, as I have a few times in my life, to begin my life again. 

I have a food addiction. I have lost and gained 30 lbs. in 2011. This is a very serious problem. My blood sugars are elevated, and the doctor says the tipping point is near. My blood pressure is getting high. I know the two medical problems can lead to kidney disease, Diabetes and a list of terrible medical conditions that I don't want to invite to my life. In addition, I am on a cholesterol lowering drug now.

I have  a  life full of people I love, anchored by a relationship that gives me joy with my healthy family, husband now thryoid cancer free, grown daughter, two little dogs I dote on and a cat that puts me in my place.  

I am cancer free, I am healed. I am rested and present. My life is full of possibilities.

 Just being. My life is on my own terms and now is the time to grab the reigns and drive the ride.  Today I banish all negative thoughts, they are not me. Today I am strong, capable I can see the power of letting go of past habits. 

Today, the negative voices are all at the bottom of a deep well. I can stand at the rim and pull clear sparkilng waters from the source and not hear even a murmur. My life is peaceful.

change happens suddenly. it doesn't ebb and flow. life changes suddenly.

Answer a phone call, learn that your sister's life is over.  She held her addictions (nicotine and alchol) closer than a lover, desperate in her final days, to say she had a life all on her own terms. She paid the ultimate price for her habits.  1955 to 2011. 56 years old.  I'll be 55 in March. I get the story, I weep for her wasted life. 

I can make better choices for myself. Starting today.