Always hoping, always dreaming. Alone.
Big sister to her brothers; minded dad.
The little girl so full of love; now grown.
Tomorrows came and yesterdays were gone
Some days were good; but, God, some days were bad.
Always hoping, always dreaming. Alone.
Said mother to her daughter: “I disown.”
“For you, I know, I never should have had.”
The little girl so full of love; now grown.
This little girl knew not what she had done
Why would her mother utter words so bad?
Always hoping, always dreaming. Alone.
She dreamt the dreams of love she had not known;
Those dreams of being loved by mum she had.
The little girl so full of love; now grown.
A happy picture painted; not in stone
Illusions all; reality just sad.
Always hoping, always dreaming. Alone.
The little girl so full of love; now grown.
A Villanelle
Words by Kate Little
March 2011
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So sorry your Mom got it all wrong.
They know not what they say I swear.
All we can do is love.
HUGGGGGGGGGGG
Linda, I hate that you know how it feels. It just doesn't seem right to be the best and most loving and caring daughter you can be and be treated badly. But, as I said when I posted this the first time ... I love her. She is my mum.
Much love.
Such pain
R♥
Much love to you too.
I didn't know that Marty wrote poetry. I hope she will let you share it one day. In the meantime, please say "Hello" to her from me? And also, could you please tell her ... "Thank you."
How much love ... always ... you have held ... may some of that love ... now ... hold ... you ... thinking of you, Kate ...
Thank you, anna ... you always seem to help me to settle ... and just feel okay with what is ...
Alas, I share your sadness about moms who aren't what we would have dreamed. This is a hard holiday for many of us.
You seem to know it well.
I certainly wish your mum did too.
Peace to you my friend.
By Little Kate
A little love
A lot too late.
Peace to you too, my dear, dear friend.
May the Big Guy hold you in His hands.
God bless...
Your compassion, for yourself, for your mom, is so clear, so admirable, here in your villanelle.
In many cases, people with narcissistic personality disorder:
Are self-centered and boastful; Seek constant attention and admiration; Consider themselves better than others; Exaggerate their talents and achievements; Believe that they are entitled to special treatment; Are easily hurt but may not show it; Set unrealistic goals; May take advantage of others to achieve their goals.
Other common traits of narcissistic personality disorder include the following: Preoccupation with fantasies that focus on unlimited success, power, intelligence, beauty, or love; Belief that he or she is "special" and unique, and can only be understood by other special people; Expectation that others will automatically go along with what he or she wants; Inability to recognize or identify with the feelings, needs, and viewpoints of others; Envy of others or a belief that others are envious of him or her; Hypersensitivity to insults (real or imagined), criticism, or defeat, possibly reacting with rage, shame and humiliation; Arrogant behavior and/or attitude
Most of this doesn't ring true for my mother but definitely this one ... Inability to recognize or identify with the feelings, needs, and viewpoints of others ... does.
Dang it!
Dang it!
DANG IT!!!!
A tear for this little girl.
R.
xxo
Erica, I think you're right ... sadly.
Poor Woman, thank you so very much, my lovely friend.
Joanne, your heartfelt words have touched my own heart. What a lovely thing to hear and feel. Thank you.
Your mom's loss. r