Last week in a session my therapist dropped a bomb on me.

I have been seeing her for about five years, working on healing trauma from childhood and trying to shift negative, limiting beliefs.  Her methodology is energy medicine, using tapping and other exercises to "clear" negative beliefs. … Read full post »

Played the part as written by others.

That show closed.

Writing the part I play now minute by minute.

I wish I wrote this, but I didn't.  It was written my my great-grandmother to her sister while she was hospitalized with gall bladder disease (of which I also suffered several years ago).   

February 4, 1926 Battle Creek, Michigan 

Dear Sister,

I came here you know… Read full post »

I spent some time yesterday trying to get a sense of what the heck was going on here at OS, what with charges of plagarism, name calling, misogyny, and so on.  Frankly, it is all just a little too much of a soap opera for me to get all worked up… Read full post »

This morning I was driving in to work using a relatively new (to me) route.  You see, since the NYS Thruway Authority continues to increase daily tolls for the privilege of using it, I have been trying out some other paths to get to my office, which is about 25 miles… Read full post »

Dear, darling girl,

You are at a critical point right now.  It is time for you to take a long look in the mirror, before it's too late.  You need to see who you have become to this point, really see it, and realize just how much you've already come through. … Read full post »

In early November of 2009 I fell down the stairs in my home.  The fall began when I missed the top two steps on my staircase and landed hard on the third, which resulted in an ankle  sprain and fracture of my left foot.  Treatment has included a walking boot, an air cast,… Read full post »

Sorry folks,  this is just a reminder to myself.  I need to de-stress my life and getting into arguments with people who don't know how to argue is not the way to do it.  

Carry on! Read full post »

I caught just a few minutes of Mackenzie Phillps' appearance on Joy Behar's show last night, in which she clarified that she no longer views her sexual relationship with her father as "consensual".

 One might think that this would be a sign to the disbelievers that her thinking has evolved on… Read full post »

I wrote a post a while back about self doubt, a feeling that I am plagued with to a degree that is at times crippling.  Yesterday I skimmed through a post by another OS'er about insecurities, someone who (I think) is around my age who seems to share some of the… Read full post »

Somehow I missed a big thing, a really big thing, when I joined OS.  You see, I joined when my workplace began to become highly restrictive about the internet; anything site with the word "blog" in the URL was blocked, and so one by one my daily diversions began to disappear. … Read full post »

http://www.timesunion.com/AspStories/story.asp?storyID=888834

I have nothing to add to the story other than to wonder how someone can be so selfish, stupid, and arrogant?

So, within a week or two of the fitting we did go back to the hospital to pick my new Boston Brace.  I was nervous, I knew that things wouldn't be the same for a long time once I started to wear it.  What I didn't know was just how different… Read full post »

When I was around 11 years old, my 14 year old brother got into an accident that would change the course of my life.  He was riding his bicycle at night and crashed, flipping over the handlebars and landing in the street.  Fortunately he wasn't far from the house, so he… Read full post »

Note:  This will make a lot more sense if you read a prior post or two, specifically "The Father and the Daughter" and a few others...otherwise I would have to do a  lot of backstory and I just don't feel like it.

Anyway, recently I received an email from my Dad,… Read full post »

First of all, full disclosure:  I am not a shoe person.  I am not one of those people who needs a closet solely for shoe storage, I almost never wear a heel higher than an inch and a half, I own shoes in exactly two colors, black and brown.  Loafers are… Read full post »

The father and daughter sit on the sofa in the family room.  It's summer, and the mother is somewhere else.  She may be out of town or she may be upstairs.  The daughter can't remember now, just like she can't remember precisely how old she was.  She knows she was a… Read full post »

...bartender looks up and says "What is this, a joke?"

 So yeah I am thinking that there is a colossally horrible joke being played on parents everywhere, or at least parents who are me.  See,  I realized not long ago that my two daughters are fully in the throes of adolescence… Read full post »

Discuss.

My first daughter turned 16 last December, and the driving lessons commenced almost immediately.  She was (and remains) a highly cautious driver, staying below the speed limit most of the time, and hasn't quite gotten to the point where she is "one with the car".  In due time and with more… Read full post »

I was on the New York Times website the other day reading a column by Maureen Dowd, in which she questioned the anonymity of the Internet and its (unintended?) consequences.  Her piece centered around the recent case of a blogger who wrote a derogatory post about someone, and how and through… Read full post »

I have been in therapy on and off for a number of years (those reading my past posts are saying WOW I NEVER SAW THAT COMING)...and naturally there are times when I question its efficacy.  I seem to be uable to conquer the one demon that is the root of all… Read full post »

For reasons too numerous to post, my parents are, to coin a phrase, "dead to me".   This has come about rather abruptly but not entirely unexpectedly, and now I find myself wonder how to grieve them, despite the fact that they are both alive and, well, not all that well.

 My… Read full post »

OK, so I am pretty smart, and I have incredible intuition, and I am usually a very good judge of character, but sometimes it can take me a while to see the forest for the trees.

I have now seen the forest, and at the ripe old age of forty three… Read full post »