AN IDLE MIND
lostcauser
- Location
- Memphis, Tennessee, USA
- Birthday
- January 07
- Title
- Happiest Girl In the Whole USA
- Company
- No, I'd rather be alone.
- Bio
- After prematurely retiring at the age of 44, I've hunkered down on the mean streets of Memphis, TN, where I'm carving out my memoirs with an empty Bic pen on the walls of an abandoned abattoir.
What ?
MY FAVORITE MOVIES:
Taxi Driver, A Clockwork Orange, Full Metal Jacket, Duck Soup, Horsefeathers, A Day At the Races, The Last Temptation of Christ, Carnival of Souls, Freaks, Goodfellas,
Double Indemnity, Mildred Pierce, Cabinet of Dr. Caligari, Eraserhead, Blue Velvet, Last House On The Left, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Life of Brian, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, all Herschel Gordon Lewis,
educational shorts
MY FAVORITE MUSIC:
Sex Pistols, Frank Zappa, (early)Alice Cooper, Schubert, Leadbelly, (early)Rolling Stones, Nirvana, Irving Berlin, Violent Femmes, all Sun Records, The Cramps,
The Dead Kennedys, Box Tops, Billy Lee Riley, Beethoven
MY FAVORITE BOOKS:
Thus Spoke Zarathustra, Beyond Good and Evil, Physician's Desk Reference,
Diagnostic and Statistical Manual IV, Crime and Punishment, Notes From Underground
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
Psychopathis Sexual
STUFF I FIND INTERESTING:
According to a new Pentagon study, 35% of Iraq veterans received mental health care
during their first year home; twelve percent of the more than 222,000 returning Army soldiers and Marines in the study were diagnosed with a mental problem.
As of early 2008, Human Rights Watch reports that roughly half of all prison and state inmates are mentally ill.
76% of all sexual offenses are committed
by someone related to or acquainted with
the victim.
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “Hi Allie--
I
bet you've made changes in
those around you that you
can't see
yet.”
April 24, 2009 08:37PM - “Thank you Cap'n, and MMM
(and Redstocking Grandma). The
past
two weeks have
been…”
April 24, 2009 08:10PM - “Thank you, Redstocking.
It took a two-week bout of
illness to
hammer this
point…”
April 24, 2009 07:59PM - “Happy Easter, Tinktink,
and Mrs. Tinktink--and now I'm
off to
see the folks and
e…”
April 12, 2009 03:04PM - “I know I should be
focusing on the incredible
events, and
what you went
through,…”
April 12, 2009 11:21AM
Lostcauser's Links
A Twilight of the Idols
If the name "Peter Sotos" means anything to you, chances are you
think he's vile, and loathsome; a monster.
Wikipedia will tell you Peter Sotos is:
"a Chicago-born writer and musician. In his books, Sotos examines
sadistic sexual criminals and sexually violent pornography,
particularly involving… Read full post »
Sex, Lies and (Missing) Videotape
I don't want to be one of those people
About four months ago I was straightening up around my apartment. Which, if you knew me, you'd know is something that happens with the regularity of the proverbial blue moon, so there I am, shoveling, uh, picking up around the place, and then--WHAM-O.
I remember falling, in what seemed like slo… Read full post »
what's in a name
This was Frito Pie's seventh trip to the maternity ward of John Preston Hospital.
She was sick and damned tired of being told to “Push!”
And tired of all them old, white doctors pulling those joke names out of their ass, and sniggering, too
Like with her first child. Frito
… Read full post »Googling Gretchen Carlson, or The Facts of Life in Florida
It's worse. Gretchen Carlson actually has a brain.
From the Huffington Post:
“/… Read full post »
"No Country for Old Men": A Lesson About Life
"To transform 'It was' into 'Thus I willed it'; that alone do I
call redemption."
--Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra
Deserts are places of extremes: dry winds and scorching heat by day, cold, black and empty in the night. Life is full of such extremes, and often we find
… Read full post »Fermented
You awaken and It's there.
Piss and grease and sweat
and disinfectant,
metal on metal on metal;
radios, and bets
made out of boredom.
A slim young thing
swishes by in roach-bitten flip-flops.
Some call him the… Read full post »
Sure
Sure.
Things seemed to be getting better.
Things always seemed to be getting better—then something always happened, some little thing or other always set it off. And you could never tell what that little thing might be.
When he was five months old the boy weighed eig… Read full post »
for MLK, Jr.
The rains came and turned the skies pearl gray, and the grass crunched like shreds of green coconut and thunder crunched like candy in yellow lavender and pink, and he braced his boot against the bathtub side, and he steadied, and chips of lead paint crunched under his boot, and he… Read full post »
Personally, I call it hell
“I've myself been crucified a hundred times and more by those institutional drugs that are for some sinister reason called "tranquilizers." They are phenothiazone drugs, and include Mellaril, Thorazine, Stelazine, Haldol. Prolixin is the worst I've ever experienced. One injection lasts for two… Read full post »
Jangled nerves and Jordan, junkies and jihad
My head is killing me. It has been ever since December 31, 2009.
This can't be attributed to the two aneurysms that were growing in my brain; the operation which took care of that problem was performed last October, and successfully it seems.
This pain is caused by a bungled
The Gray Man
It was a hot one.
A scorcher, and the man was sort of gray.
The grandfather they assumed, at 61, the gray man looked every bit
of 81, and some recalled a package on the seat beside him; some
said, could've been a present.
What everyone remembered was the girl.
Pretty white dress and… Read full post »
A Green Balloon
When you're five,
if you let go of an emerald green balloon
and watch it getting small as it ascends into the sky;
if a storm's about to break and you can hear the clouds
in marbled veins of cream,
and if the sky tastes dark gray,
more than light;… Read full post »
She Was Eighteen
She was 18 and she loved it when they honked their horns or whistled and never acted like she didn’t; she wore thin-strapped cotton tops that hugged her warm brown shoulders and her breasts, she rolled her cutoff shorts to make them shorter, it was summer and her hair… Read full post »
Children of All Ages
When my lawyer hears about "the incident", as he calls it, he thinks the DA
Dresses 'n' Dirt 'n' Stuff
I've heard girls say, a part of me was missing until HE came into
my life lalala. But that’s not how it was with me and Will.
It was more like the law of the jungle, or something. I bet
lion kings and lion queens know each other the way… Read full post »
Our Lives Are Lapidary
You’re not from around here so I’ll tell you something you probably don’t know. I hear a lot of ya’ll in the rest of the country talking about that dream Dr. King had, and I bet you're thinking that here in Memphis, TN, we'll real big on it too. It’s different
… Read full post »Like a Fish out of Water
Now ya'll know how Roy and Brenda like to go fishin'. They go fishin' about every other weekend when the weather's good. And me and Rick, we used to like to go fishin'. So me and Rick and Roy and Brenda all got together this weekend I'm telling you about,/… Read full post »
On the Death of a Friend
Kelly Anne Murray was my best friend. We passed each other notes between classes, we wore each other's clothes, we even invented our own language; Kelly and I were silly together, walking home from school hand-in-hand, belting out our favorite song, "Be-Bop-A-Lula", at the top of our… Read full post »
Memphis Mayor "Fist Bumps" Dalai Lama
Let’s get this out of the way right now:
Yes, I live in Memphis.
Yes, the one in Tennessee.
And yes, the one with the guy, mayor pro tem no less, who fist-bumped the Dalai Lama.
And greeted him with, “Hello, Dalai”, let’s not… Read full post »
Be Ye Perfect
Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.
-Matthew 5:48
Carlton Pearson was a Charismatic preacher in Tulsa, OK; from the time he was a boy, being a minister, helping others find salvation through the word of Jesus Christ, was all Carlton Pearson ever… Read full post »
An Unamed Hofstra Student: The Legacy of Tawana Brawley
On November 28, 1987, Tawana Brawley, who had been missing for four days, was found lying conscious but unresponsive in a garbage bag several feet from an apartment where she had once lived. Her clothing was torn and burned, her body smeared with feces. When she
Nancy Garrido Misses Jaycee and Her Children, Lawyer Says
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Nancy Garrido loves and misses the two girls that her husband allegedly fathered with Jaycee Lee Dugard, her lawyer said today. Speaking from prison, Mrs Garrido allegedly said that she saw Jaycee and her girls as part of the family. Gilbert Maines, her lawyer, told CBS&… Read full post »
Reason #57 Why I Don't Want Children
-dedicated to fans of Firesign Theater everywhere.
Like most mental defectives, kids say the darnedest things, and I’ve always half suspected an understandable need for revenge to be the reason my parents waited until I’d introduced them to that special fella I wanted to imp… Read full post »
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