lostcauser

lostcauser
Location
Memphis, Tennessee, USA
Birthday
January 07
Title
Happiest Girl In the Whole USA
Company
No, I'd rather be alone.
Bio
After prematurely retiring at the age of 44, I've hunkered down on the mean streets of Memphis, TN, where I'm carving out my memoirs with an empty Bic pen on the walls of an abandoned abattoir. What ? MY FAVORITE MOVIES: Taxi Driver, A Clockwork Orange, Full Metal Jacket, Duck Soup, Horsefeathers, A Day At the Races, The Last Temptation of Christ, Carnival of Souls, Freaks, Goodfellas, Double Indemnity, Mildred Pierce, Cabinet of Dr. Caligari, Eraserhead, Blue Velvet, Last House On The Left, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Life of Brian, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, all Herschel Gordon Lewis, educational shorts MY FAVORITE MUSIC: Sex Pistols, Frank Zappa, (early)Alice Cooper, Schubert, Leadbelly, (early)Rolling Stones, Nirvana, Irving Berlin, Violent Femmes, all Sun Records, The Cramps, The Dead Kennedys, Box Tops, Billy Lee Riley, Beethoven MY FAVORITE BOOKS: Thus Spoke Zarathustra, Beyond Good and Evil, Physician's Desk Reference, Diagnostic and Statistical Manual IV, Crime and Punishment, Notes From Underground Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas Psychopathis Sexual STUFF I FIND INTERESTING: According to a new Pentagon study, 35% of Iraq veterans received mental health care during their first year home; twelve percent of the more than 222,000 returning Army soldiers and Marines in the study were diagnosed with a mental problem. As of early 2008, Human Rights Watch reports that roughly half of all prison and state inmates are mentally ill. 76% of all sexual offenses are committed by someone related to or acquainted with the victim.

MY RECENT POSTS

NOVEMBER 17, 2010 9:31AM

My Own Backyard

When I was 12  there was a boy in my class I liked named Keith. I remember his face and the way he smelled, but I don't remember why I liked him.  At the old house we had a big backyard.  I got in trouble once for repeating a word

Read full post »
Editor’s Pick
NOVEMBER 10, 2010 9:27AM

The Devil You Know

 

Since 1994, when he officiated at the trials of Jessie Misskelley Jr., Damien Echols and Jason Baldwin, otherwise known as the West Memphis Three, Judge David Burnett has had several opportunities to make further rulings in their cases.

Some of the petitions he heard concerned new DNA test resRead full post »

NOVEMBER 1, 2010 4:59PM

Dimitri the Lover

 

It is true, and let me say this from the outset, that I often find myself defending the most heinous men; “defending” may not be precisely the word for it, but in our culture there is a predisposition to vilify men for behavior we excuse in women, and this isRead full post »

NOVEMBER 1, 2010 7:22AM

Wide Awake

 

You will never read this, and we will never meet. But if I had the chance, this is what I'd say to you.

I'm aware of the terrible things you've done. I have every reason to feel about you as everyone else does; the matter's not

Read full post »
OCTOBER 31, 2010 12:42PM

Redemption

 

Occasionally one of my girlfriends would have ventured,

I know he's a jerk, but he is good-looking…

wouldn't you maybe go out with him just once,

and his friends would've said,

Would ya poke her,

and they would've laughed when he said, sure,

if she asked me nice,

and ourRead full post »

OCTOBER 31, 2010 12:13PM

Money and Politics and Egos

 

A patriot must always be ready to defend his country against his government.
—Edward Abbey 

 

On March 24, 2004, at the 9/11 Commission hearings, senior executive counter-terrorism and intelligence expert Richard A. Clarke testified: “To the loved ones of the vicRead full post »

On November 28, 1987, Tawana Brawley, who had been missing for four days, was found lying conscious but unresponsive in a garbage bag several feet from an apartment where she had once lived. Her clothing was torn and burned, her body smeared with feces. When she vanished, Miss Brawley had beenRead full post »

 

Spring becomes summer just like before; 

the days grow long, the wind blows high.

These are the days some try to ignore. 

 These are the day when grown men cry.

 

It's figures and profits and losses to some,

and a more or less white lie.

To some it… Read full post »

MAY 13, 2010 6:41PM

Some people just don't listen

 

I told Raelynn, she should've played the game I wanted to play.

Some people just don't listen.

After we got back to Raelynn's house that day, she asked me "what d'ya wanna do now ?" I said "Let's play with George". George was this hamster (or gerbil or whatever heRead full post »

MAY 6, 2010 12:01PM

A pardon, for Karla Homolka ?

In her article, “Zombie feminists of the RNC”, Rebecca Traister wrote, “CNBC pundit Donny Deutsch tells us that we're witnessing 'a new creation of the feminist ideal', the feminism being so ideal because instead of being voiced by hairy old bats with unattractive ideas about intel

Read full post »
APRIL 28, 2010 8:04AM

The Fire in the Heart

"We gotta sit around at home and watch this thing begin
But I bet there won't be many left to see it really end
'Cause the fire in the street ain't like the fire in the heart..."

Frank Zappa, "Trouble Every Day"

 
On April 25, 2010,… Read full post »

The sky was just as blue back then, the grass was just as green, my dad had the same bad temper he's always had. So he bit his tongue, or grit his teeth, and tried to listen when my uncle said people followed him in the street or in their cars;Read full post »

About four months ago I was straightening up around my apartment. Which, if you knew me, you'd know is something that happens with the regularity of the proverbial blue moon, so there I am, shoveling, uh, picking up around the place, and then--WHAM-O. 

I remember falling, in what seemed like slo… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 24, 2010 11:29PM

what's in a name

This was Frito Pie's seventh trip to the maternity ward of John Preston Hospital.

She was sick and damned tired of being told to “Push!”

And tired of all them old, white doctors pulling those joke names out of their ass, and sniggering, too

Like with her first child. Frito

Read full post »

 

 

On a recent episode of “The Daily Show”, Jon Stewart “outed” Fox News blonde bimbo anchor Gretchen Carlson; no, she's not a lesbian, she isn't secretly a liberal sympathizer.

It's worse. Gretchen Carlson actually has a brain.

From the Huffington Post:

“/
Read full post »


"To transform 'It was' into 'Thus I willed it'; that alone do I call redemption."

--Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra

 

Deserts are places of extremes: dry winds and scorching heat by day, cold, black and empty in the night. Life is full of such extremes, and often we find

Read full post »
JANUARY 29, 2010 3:05AM

Fermented

 

You awaken and It's there.

 

Piss and grease and sweat

and disinfectant,

metal on metal on metal;

radios, and bets

made out of boredom.

 

A slim young thing

swishes by in roach-bitten flip-flops.

Some call him the… Read full post »

JANUARY 24, 2010 7:39PM

Sure

 

Sure.

Things seemed to be getting better.

Things always seemed to be getting better—then something always happened, some little thing or other always set it off.  And you could never tell what that little thing might be.

When he was five months old the boy weighed eigRead full post »

JANUARY 17, 2010 4:43PM

Personally, I call it hell

“I've myself been crucified a hundred times and more by those institutional drugs that are for some sinister reason called "tranquilizers." They are phenothiazone drugs, and include Mellaril, Thorazine, Stelazine, Haldol. Prolixin is the worst I've ever experienced. One injection lasts for twoRead full post »


My head is killing me. It has been ever since December 31, 2009.

This can't be attributed to the two aneurysms that were growing in my brain; the operation which took care of that problem was performed last October, and successfully it seems.

This pain is caused by a bungled

Read full post »
JANUARY 7, 2010 10:26AM

The Gray Man

It was a hot one.

A scorcher, and the man was sort of gray.

The grandfather they assumed,
at 61 the gray man looked every bit of 81,
and some recalled a package on the seat beside him;
some said, could've been a present.

What… Read full post »

JANUARY 1, 2010 2:49PM

A Green Balloon

 

When you're five,

if you let go of an emerald green balloon

and watch it getting small as it ascends into the sky;

if a storm's about to break and you can hear the clouds

in marbled veins of cream,

and if the sky tastes dark gray,

more than light;Read full post »

JANUARY 1, 2010 11:43AM

She Was Eighteen

 

 

She was 18 and she loved it when they honked their horns or whistled and never acted like she didn’t; she wore thin-strapped cotton tops that hugged her warm brown shoulders and her breasts, she rolled her cutoff shorts to make them shorter, it was summer and her hairRead full post »

DECEMBER 31, 2009 6:27AM

Children of All Ages

 

Dr. Beatty's office is typical, and almost Spartan except for all the toys; toys are everywhere, peeking out from between the books and protected behind seat cushions. Almost hidden, in a strangely familiar way.  

When my lawyer hears about "the incident", as he calls it, he thinks the DA
Read full post »
DECEMBER 11, 2009 5:36PM

Dresses 'n' Dirt 'n' Stuff


I've heard girls say, a part of me was missing until HE came into my life lalala. But that’s not how it was with me and Will.  It was more like the law of the jungle, or something. I bet lion kings and lion queens know each other the way… Read full post »