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Lunchlady 2

Lunchlady 2
March 05
I am now a widow, having laid my last kiss on my husbands brow after he died to say goodbye. Since then I have found an old note he wrote me apologizing for his meanness laying on my floor and two gold coins under my blankets, his way of saying he was sorry and goodbye. I have buried my ex husband, my baby son, my grown son, my mom and now my husband and I wish to bury no more, but life does not work that way. I have birthed 3 children and have 3 more wonderful children from my last marriage. I have 4 living children and a granddaughter I adore and I am in the process of finding me. I have no idea who I am but I have discovered I am loved and I never knew that before and it makes me smile...


JANUARY 13, 2012 8:55AM

A Thank You

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Winnie the Pooh and Tigger Too 

2 months ago today my son died and this Sunday would have been his 40th birthday.

I need you all everyone of you who have ever commented on my posts, who have ever made me a favorite YOU are what have brought me to this place in my life. Without you, without my sister bringing me here I know, for a fact,I would not be the person I now am or maybe should say would not have realized the person I have always been and would not have survived my second child's death and become this strong capable woman I see before me in the mirror every morning, with a just a touch of my mom's face looking back at me.

I consider you more than friends I consider you family, yes real family with the weird uncles and strange aunts but that is what makes a family tick. That is what makes a family strong, all the weirdness all in a pile smiling and laughing and supporting each other when one of us needs their strength.

For this I thank you with all my heart...

Dare I say it? Hugs all around!






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I feel the same way about you, and some others I won't mention. I hope these are lifelong friendships, it would hurt to lose you or any of my friends from OS!
We have benefited from your presence as well, lunchlady. I wish you peace.
Ahhhh These last two months you have shown such courage and depth that I would follow you to the end of the earth. Carry on. Love.
You have helped me as well, and I hope we continue to grow and learn together!
I think you're a remarkable woman
Your writings on motherhood and taking in children and making them your own cemented that feeling for me
Hugs back at you
My thoughts are with you daily during this terrible time of loss. You take care of yourself by reaching out and that shows how strong and courageous you are.
I'm so sorry Lunchlady - as I've been absent I did not realized this had happened. My sincerest condolences, and yes, you are right, this is a beautiful, weird, messy little family - the best kind.
A group standing together is stronger than one standing alone Terri. We are all better for it.
You help us all here to understand much. You share in love. All of it. Peace to you
Both your strengths and vulnerabilities have come through and have inspired us to be stronger as well. All the best to you, Terri.
We thank you for the lessons you have taught us on how to be a strong and loving woman.
rated with love
Hugs right back at you. So glad we can be here for one another. Peaceful wishes and kind virtual touches to you.
LL2, in some ways OS is like a huge extended family, or so it seems to me. One of the pleasures is meeting a "relative" (so to speak) I didn't know existed and adding that person to the family tree that is my favourites list. You've been on there a long time, and with good reason.
I have to agree with M.C.S. - you are a remarkable woman. Much, much love to you today and everyday!
Love to you as always. May you keep finding the strength to endure life.
Nothing says love like Pooh and the gang, Lunchlady. You have taught me so much about strength in the face of despair. I admire you so much.

Thank you LL2. May you continue to find solace in our OS community.
It's so good to see a rainbow after the deluge of tears. A warm hug to you, dear Lunchlady. You're in my thoughts and prayers for strength daily. ♥
Thank you and right back at you!
**hugs you back**

P.S. You STILL owe me a posting of you singing again! Could I change my request though? I'd like to hear you sing "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" and dedicate it to your son's memory, K?
Your resilience and humility are genuine and that's why I continue to peruse OS. After reading your stories, my empathy towards humanity is restored.
Having this family has been a Godsend for so many of us. It is a pleasure to be able to give back when one of us needs it. You give back in many ways I appreciate.
My heart gooeds out to her. My wife lost two babies in a prior marriage and I have an idea what you have been through.
I meant my heart goes out to you
Your welcome and stay strong.
:) Whatever it is that you are working through in this life, you are conquering it and I feel very strongly that your complete peace and happiness is within your grasp!
I found you just today Lunchlady, with this post. I was inspired to go back and read your others. As a mother, I cannot know your pain, but I can feel it in your words, lingering, questioning, wondering 'what if'. They say there is no greater loss than losing a child, and I believe that to be true no matter what the age or circumstance. I'm so glad I found you, just as you are so glad to have found so many others here as well. Best to you.
I like hearing you describe yourself as a strong, capable woman. You've certainly earned the right to do so. Be well, and I hope some happiness comes your way.
Yesterday was the 14 month commemoration of the day my sweet Gwen died. Some call them anniversaries, I don't; all of Gwen's and my anniversaries of any kind were celebrations. My way of saying that my heart is with you, Lunch Lady. Brave, strong woman that you are, I wish you continued happiness and health and a sense of well being.
It's amazing how supportive online friends can be and how much they can hold us up during bad times.

May you continue to receive comfort and strength as you face each day.
Thank you...
I'm new here, an already your words have touched my heart as I'm sure so many here have touched yours. in Love, not fear...
rated several times in my heart for luck!
Your the best and i thank you for that.I feel so sad for you and what a great loss this is. Hugs and a sculpture for your son I shall make. xxx algis
LL2: I mourn with you, big time. I see you as the woman who can survive such true tragedies; we, we are your loving Greek chorus. Lighting a special candle for you to hold up and look up with gratitude for the time you had together. I could not do it. you are amazing. R
I am so sorry about your son, and the loss you must carry. Hugs and blessings. You have brought a lot to OS. I have enjoyed your posting very much over the years.
I am so proud of you and happy to read this:
"...I would not be the person I now am or maybe should say would not have realized the person I have always been and would not have survived my second child's death and become this strong capable woman I see before me in the mirror every morning..."

You are amazingly strong and I'm glad you are starting to see this too.
Oh for God's sake, i guess i gotta send a hug to you too.
I hate hugs, not because i don't like hugging or
being hugged, but people do it too damn much,
especially you chicks. However, this is an
appropriate time to hug...

That is what makes a family strong,
all the weirdness all in a pile smiling and laughing
and supporting each other when one of us needs their strength.

you got it. especially the "weirdness"!

work those chakras.
feel the pain, the misery,
but don't allow it to debilitate your
energy systems ; keep them flowing ...

the whole saga of your son is written here,
in your posts.
it is a gift to all of us who
may , nay, will
face this
I feel the same way about OS lately.

Your strength the last couple months has inspired me.
Hug back atcha, Terri. You're one of our treasures here. You help keep this place human, which I appreciate even more being a rooster.
Your gift to us has been enormous and I carry you and your beloved children in my heart every day. May you find comfort in your days. xoxo
And in spite all the hardships, pains and unfairnesses (is that even a word? If not, it should be, just for you) that you have suffered, you are surely one of the sweetest people on the planet. We are lucky to have you.
Yes, we are family in the true meaning. We hold and carry one another. Take care of you, we need you too!
My computer has been down since I posted this and I could not get back in. What started out as a comment on my last post grew too long to be one so I decided to write it into its own post.
I am awed by the responces beyond words just left here with a smile on my face and tears falling from my eyes.
You are an incredible group of people and I am proud to call you my family. Thank you all...
And I'm so glad that you are part of my family too. {{{HUGS}}}
I think about you all the time . I'm sorry such sad anniversaries are a reality. Desert rat said it really well. Stay strong. We are here for you.
Yes, you dare to say it! And may I add, big squishy hugs! My eldest daughter is turning 39 later this month. I cannot even begin to imagine your pain and loss. And what's more, I am in awe of your strength! You are 100% right about this community of writers being "real family." I feel the same way. It is so comforting for the smallest things and an enormous support for the really big things. Big squishy hugs back atcha! xo
You are one special woman.
Thank you. Hug you back! And I love being a weird aunt.
Lunch Lady, you are of course Welcome with the full weight of that word. Many are here with you as you move forward with this ache in your heart. I hope the load is a tad, tad lighter. It's been such a short while ... keep yourself well.
Terri, you are an incredible and beautiful human being who, through her own suffering and heartache, still manages to reach out and give love and care to others.

You inspire me.

Thank you for being you.
So sorry to hear about your son. I was out of the OS loop at the time but I'm back again. If you ever need to talk, I'm here. Hugs back to you.
Your loss is profound. I will hold you in my heart.
Big Hugs back at you...Friends and our indomitable creativity comes to our rescue. You give all of us a great deal, and this is the biggest blessing...
Hugs back to you too LL. You've given much to OS and I am also glad you found us here :-)
You kick ass Ll2!
You continue to inspire with your strength and huge heart.
I need sisters like you and Suzie in my life.
Bless your whole family.
T~ I hope you can have a celebration of life tomorrow, as he brought so much to you, his sister, the whole family, and his friends in his living presence. Death is but a day, the other 40 years are full of love, his spirit and memories of a well lived life. He would want you to celebrate those things, and the best gift you can give him now might be to begin to create a place for some peace in your heart for him to dwell as you continue to love him from this place until you see him again. Love, from your crazy cousin,
Hugs to you too. You are stronger than you know.
I would turn that thank you around, LL, and say thank you for showing me what grace and strength under pressure looks like. You've handled more than I've ever been dealt, and you manage to do it so that the people in your life never doubt that you love them. Bravo. I wouldn't wish the hand you've been dealt on anyone, and how you manage to carry on, day after day, is nothing short of astounding. So thank you.
And HUGS to you too!!! Thanks for sharing the story of your son with us.