This morning after choking on my tears while brushing my teeth while thinking about my day today, the quick drive into town for a blood test for the husband for the hell trip after work tomorrow to Livermore, the late after work meeting today where I need to know what I am doing to sell my hard work in the cafeteria and then finally home, was what was on my mind this morning.

I step out of my truck at work and from over the top of the building I can see wings coming at me, mind you this is  5 am and then ever closer they come until a I see a huge owl fly right over the top of my head low enough I can make him out perfectly.

I stand there for a minute while he swoops over the top of the two eucalyptus trees behind my office door and he swings back around one more time and cries out loudly for me to hear him and he is gone… 

I love you too Joey and miss you like hell but I am so happy to see you hanging around reminding your mom that life is beautiful and unpredictable and to remember to always keep her eyes open. 

Ya know I think I am going to be okay, it will take time but yep I am going to be okay.