I have always tried to do the right thing in life. Even when caught in a bad place I still tried to do it right. I am not saying I am perfect, far from it, but a part of me has always believed in treating others as I would want to be treated.
As most know I have had a rough patch lately, life just sucked, yet I tried hard to find the good, my son didn't know how sick he was, my truck could have died on one of those long drives on a back country road late at night, I try hard to find the good in the bad.
But lately I have been thinking about when my time would come,I do so much for everyone else, yet time and time again I end up suffering. Where was my winning lotto ticket, my insurance settlement from someone I never knew?
Where was my instant gratification for being nice?
It is not that I was expecting payment for being nice, really it wasn't,I am just me and this is who I am, but it was eating at me why does this keep happening, dark cloud, some bad luck item I had, what, why, and how….
I started to think about my daughter raising enough money for me to get my truck back, and to think of all the other kind things, the money from the school to bury my son, my family, and my friends never questioning just helping that saved the day.
Yesterday I received an email from work, My director took this to the board without letting me know and they have agreed I am no longer considered classified, I have been moved up to a confidential salary,I am officially a manager now, 50 cents more an hour and a raise on my insurance cap so I won't need to pay out of pocket anymore.
Small tiny forward moving karma and I almost missed it in my need to see some large giant award for just being me…
My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand. ~Thich Nhat Hanh