Days like today are the gods’ gift to the unemployed, for it is on days like this — days rich with light, color and texture — that those of us struggling in the wake of joblessness give thanks.
Days like this don’t come around often, and that we are able to bask in them is a gift, no matter how fleeting.
I worked for years in a tiny office with no windows, my constant view the rear ends rushing past my door, heading to a meeting or the restroom. I had a Gauguin print of a Tahitian scene hanging in that little office. “My window,” I’d explain to anyone who admired it.
That print transported me to a place that looks and feels an awful lot like this very moment.
So I am enjoying this day, this moment, these amazing fall colors, entertained by my favorite Elvis Costello tunes, airing out the house, giving thanks all the while both for what I had and that I no longer have it.
Days like this remind me of the joy of sitting on my postage-stamp of a deck, sun on skin, butt in chair, feet on rail, fingers on laptop, thankful for wi-fi. It’s as if I won the lottery, with the big prize being the privilege of sopping up this day like a slice of crusty bread on the bottom of a salad bowl. Days like this make me forget how difficult life is after an unexpected financial body blow; they’re the vacations not taken, the new shoes not bought.
Days like this don’t come around very often, and that I was able to spend a little time with my mother, a little time trying to make some money, a little time pondering and writing and breathing in the beauty of this Indian summer makes me feel both humble and thankful.
Days like this make me consider flipping my former employer a mental middle finger, but I can’t, really, because days like these make me happy that it’s my butt in this chair on this deck.
There will be plenty time to worry about bills and making money, but for this moment, that I have this day, this beautiful October day, fills me completely.


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I spent hours submitting resumes over the weekend only to learn that half of them were scams (thanks to the e-mail inbox piled high with spam). All I have to enjoy are days like today. (R)
Nice post.
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The high unemployment rate does take the sting out of the social stigma of not having a job.
Just like the boomers. There are a lot of us.
Hell with being employed. Employees die sad, lonely poitnless lives. Not for me!!
Yes indeed! Days like this are for the lucky who are no longer tied to the black and grey suites, the ties, the brief cases, cell phones, a life completely consumed by corporate tunnel vision blocking the beauty of the world presenting itself like a peacock, literally laid out before our eyes.
When I became unemployed, I worried incessantly, as do most, but then I began seeing life's wondrous treasures, even here in the desert. I will die with memories of honey bees on my hand, lizards in my palms, astounding sunsets few witness because their minds are obsessed with the job.
I've seen the entire Western United States and have marveled at the Rocky Mountains, the San Juan Islands, the forests of giant redwoods, Mt Lassen, Yosemite, Redwoods National Forest and even the eruption of Mt St Helens; yet, while marveling at these incredible sites, my mind was back at home worrying about the massive mess piling up on my desk. No time to truly capture and enjoy the wonders around me.
I find employment to be a hindrance to life now.