I am often torn here between choosing god or choosing atheism. This is because I, like most people, am of two minds: one is rational and materialistic and gets me through my day; the other is symbolic, metaphorical, poetic, and highly malleable. This, dear readers, is in my opinion exactly how it should be.
We live split lives or lives that split along these two congruent axes. From the one mind we support our families, balance personal accounts, form opinions. From the other mind we offer prayers to the darkness of our dreams and wishes. We write poetry, fall in love, create novels in our heads and read novels in our minds.
We are a society of two-mindedness and that’s all there is to it.
What is agnosticism but a spiritual longing looking to justify itself under the guise of rational thought?
Sometimes I have thoughts like these only they come at me all day long. This is what always pushes me to get back to writing, the one vehicle for communicating where I can talk as much as I like and get to go back and correct and edit to boot. Not a bad gig.