I am often torn here between choosing god or choosing atheism. This is because I, like most people, am of two minds: one is rational and materialistic and gets me through my day; the other is symbolic, metaphorical, poetic, and highly malleable. This, dear readers, is in my opinion exactly how it should be.
We live split lives or lives that split along these two congruent axes. From the one mind we support our families, balance personal accounts, form opinions. From the other mind we offer prayers to the darkness of our dreams and wishes. We write poetry, fall in love, create novels in our heads and read novels in our minds.
We are a society of two-mindedness and that’s all there is to it.
What is agnosticism but a spiritual longing looking to justify itself under the guise of rational thought?
Sometimes I have thoughts like these only they come at me all day long. This is what always pushes me to get back to writing, the one vehicle for communicating where I can talk as much as I like and get to go back and correct and edit to boot. Not a bad gig.


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I enjoyed hearing about your being “torn”…and I would love to comment on your search, but I sure do not understand what you were trying to say with this statement.
Any chance you would like to expand on it a bit?
The comment that formed the basis for the question I asked seemed to be a disparagement of agnosticism, which was the reason I questioned it. But with your explanation, I see that it was not.
In any case, I do not see agnosticism as a spiritual longing of any kind…and I certainly do not see it as an attempt to justify itself under the guise of rational thought.
Agnosticism (at least as most see it today) is simply acknowledging that we do not know the true nature of Reality…we do not know the answers to questions about what “has to be included” and “what must be excluded” from what the truth is about Reality.
I see no reason to suppose the existence of a GOD or gods is impossible. I see no reason to suppose the existence of a GOD or gods is necessary to explain existence. And I see no unambiguous evidence that would lead me to make a reasonable, meaningful guess in either direction.
So I use the term “agnostic” to describe that position. I guess I could do away with the term agnostic and go through the complete explanation each time…but that just does not make sense to me.
I consider that to be the perspective that works best for me.
Good luck with whatever avenue you choose for yourself, Meg.