There was a knock at the door. John shuffled to the door and opened it and was face to face with Annie Cosmic. John gasped, “Jesus H. Christ! I really am going mad!”
Annie walked past John and into the apartment. “No buckaroo you are not going crazy, you have been crazy since this all began. You are just beginning to realize that your insanity is real.”
Annie went straight to the ice box and got a diet Pepsi and sat down on the couch. John sat at his desk, “You’re not real. I made you up.”
Annie laughed, “Get a grip Johnny boy. It’s all real. You didn’t make any of it up. The whole journey to consciousness, the GTO, yea it’s all real. You have been living this little adventure and now it’s coming back to gather all of its energy and teach you the final lessons.”
John felt sick to his stomach and felt like he was going to pass out, “But, but this can’t be possible. I made all of this up. It’s not real damnit! “
Annie laughed, “You really are a schmuck sometimes. Think about it. Think real hard Johnny boy. When did all of this start; you and me, the consciousness trip, the women and the whole searching for some truth or secret of some sort.”
John dropped his head into his hands, “God damnit Annie. I made you up!”
Annie continued on, “Remember the GTO Gunnar?”
John looked up and smiled a cynical smile, “You always called me Gunnar in my stories.”
Annie became noticeably agitated, “Damnit you self-destructive idiot! They weren’t stories. They were, well they were stories but they were stories of real things happening. John you have got to get a handle on this. We are running out of time and you are running out of messengers.”
John jumped up and headed for the couch, “Ok Annie, I’ll just go along for the ride. All of this is real. You are real. The adventures are real and we are going to go on even more bizarre and crazy adventures. Man I remember some of those stories with you and I and they were very, very, I mean very nice.” John sat down next to Annie and put his arm around her shoulder. “So, are those stories true also?”
Annie elbowed John, “Yes you dick with ears they are true. Don’t be such an insensitive ass.”
Took winched and realized he had just been unbelievably mean to Annie, even if Annie was a hallucination, it wasn’t ok to be mean.
After a long silence John spoke, “Annie, what about the consciousness travels. I really wanted those to be real. I wanted to really believe that we as a part of this unbelievable process could finally find what was really right there in front of us and live a beautiful and eternal life without all the bullshit and guilt and all the violence and terror.”
Annie sighed, “John it’s all true. That’s what this has all been about. You are on a journey to find this consciousness and to bring this to as many people as you can but every time you get relatively close to truly understanding your nature in the matrix of life you go off and hide, escape into your own little world, this safe little, sad and pathetic world that you have here. Our adventures were to bring you out of that. To bring you back to life. To show you what is truly there.
Annie wrapped her arms around John’s neck and was crying, “Oh John please don’t leave again. Please don’t leave.”
John felt himself crying uncontrollably, “Annie I won’t leave. I won’t leave. I, oh God I will try to stay here this time I promise. You have to help me stay here Annie. God it hurt so much when you were not around anymore.”
John and Annie sat wrapped around each other for a long, long time. John finally said, “Annie, let’s go to bed and get some sleep.”
Annie and John went to bed and slept like the dead.
When John woke up the next morning Annie was gone. John was storming through the apartment, “This is why I never believe this is real! God damnit! I’m not the one that leaves, she is!”
John heard his front door open. There stood Annie, God she was beautiful as the cool breeze and sunlight splashed across her body, “Hey partner, I thought you might like some fresh hot coffee from our favorite coffee shop.”
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"the truth was obscure/ too profound & too pure/
to live it you/
had to explode"
dylan, "journey thru dark heat"
"“Damnit you self-destructive idiot!
They weren’t stories.
They were,
well they were stories but they were
stories of real things happening. "
humanszbeing is storymakin being.
and indeed: "running out of time,
running out of messengers.”
all along the watchtower:
"the hour is
getting late"
I am sending you a PM.
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