The old doesn’t work anymore.  The comfortable isn’t comfortable anymore.  The staying up all night long and sleeping during the day is killing you but you can’t seem to get out of it.  It’s as if there is a grip of spiritual tsunami w… Read full post »

    I stand looking into the mirror, naked and exposed for who I am.  I am a human being who is in the middle of his fifties who is frightened, confused and being foolish.  Ah yes, it really doesn’t get any easier the older we get… Read full post »

I could smell death when I walked into Jack’s apartment.  The stench was thick in the air.  You could taste it.  Jack was in his chair in the corner holding the pistol in his lap.  “It was all bullshit wasn’t it.  It was all just some ridiculous make/… Read full post »

So, to break this all down into its most fundamental terms we have to look at it in its most complex nature.  Consciousness is everything and we are consciousness and we are everything, to say, everything is inside of us right now.  The past, present and future dwells inside of each/… Read full post »

     You know I have been babbling for four years or more now on here telling stories, ranting, goofing off, trying to be serious, having epiphanies and just being completely obnoxious and I wonder, “Was any of it worth the time it took?”

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What kind of a government scares the most vulnerable of its citizens with nightmarish visions of losing their income, their health care, their medications, possibly their homes, not having enough to eat?  Well it’s pretty damn easy to answer that question now isn’t… Read full post »

              You didn’t die at the hands of a crazed fan trying to impress his girlfriend.

You didn’t lie down and chock to death on your own vomit or just take one too many hits.

You didn’t drink yourself into a coma or… Read full post »

You know I miss the good old days.  You know, like yesterday.  I mean if you are going to be nostalgic why not miss yesterday.  To miss a year ago, or five years ago or a lifetime seems so negative.  There’s no getting that back just like there is no/… Read full post »

“So, what or who or is this your friend, and well, what does he do, or who is he or is he well, real?”

“Yes, yes why of course he is real.  He’s a wizard of sorts, of sorts he is like a magician that really knows no tricks/… Read full post »

"Endurance is more important than any truth." 

I can’t distinguish the whispers from the billions of crickets screaming inside of the heads of those who have become dead to the listening.

     Yea there’s something happening, there&rsq… Read full post »

What the hell am I going to do?

I didn’t know what to say to the statement, the question.  Hell I had no idea what I was going to do at this point.  I might even have to go to a food pantry at one of the churches in town… Read full post »

He sat with the dull edge of his pocket knife that his old man had given him as a child and he crudely carved the name Abel in his left arm and Job in his right arm bending down to lick the blood from his arms; sweet red warm blood,… Read full post »

“So, it seems to be working out for her.  I’m glad.  She deserves to be happy.”

The white clouds floated ever so slowly past with the brilliant blue background also looking like it was moving.  It made me feel dizzy.

“No I think that is wonderful. … Read full post »

What happens when the essence of the journey becomes a distraction?  Life isn’t the distraction of the journey but instead this journey to consciousness, the search for the infinite all becomes the distraction. 

Life will continue whether we want life to continue and when lif… Read full post »

     Just when I think I have a little bit of this figured out something happens that just smacks me upside the head and lets me know I have no idea what is really going on.

     Yes there is a consciousness, a perfect awareness, the conn… Read full post »

 I have seen the skyscraper before in the past.  It was the size of a city or even a state.  There were other skyscrapers right next to each other and there was a connecting bridge but we never left our perspective skyscrapers.  They were all es… Read full post »

     Those brief moments of looking into the sky and seeing a star, then seeing another, then seeing millions of stars and moving beyond those stars and feeling yourself as being part of it all makes this adventure worth every distraction that may com… Read full post »

What if we really can tap into the infinite power of our minds?  What if we really can achieve something profound and magical by opening up the complete consciousness of our minds, awareness and the infinite all?  Do we actually already do this but there are protective gates that we/… Read full post »

It sometimes seems like the only reason we search for God or want to know the big mystery of the infinite all, the consciousness is because we are so fed up with life that we desperately need to believe that there is something better beyond this.

I lived a… Read full post »

Purity

How quickly everything changes.  Of course it's not immediate.  No, no it takes a lifetime before we realize that nothing is or ever will be the same.

     Ending and beginning, it's all the same.  It's as quick as a breath in and an exhale… Read full post »

We were not ready for it, were we?

You can never be ready, can you?

All the mysteries of the universe collide into one absolute moment and we are standing together yet we are a million miles apart.

The sky is full of trillions of… Read full post »

So how do we define the struggles that we go through in life?  Those things that happen sometimes on a daily basis that takes us from the conscious place.

How do we continue to continue on a path of conscious awareness and not become reactionary to those actions that… Read full post »

Looking for consciousness in all the wrong places

The secret is revealed

We are all members of the gang of misery

Oh we may have tried our best to run from this cult

But we are still blood members

We are doomed, yes we are… Read full post »

You can go to jail for smoking a joint of marijuana but can get drugs from your doctor that are making you completely dead inside and stupid.  Can anyone tell me where the logic is?  There is a new war on drugs.  It’s against the pharmaceutical companies that are keeping u/… Read full post »