
The classroom, cold with morning. Approaching eight. The rattle of the heater by the shelves, an insufficient heat. Cold orange light at the rear windows, throwing diamonds off the razor wire fence ringing the school, plying chainlink shadows to the concrete yard. In the back of the classroom, twenty-six coats on hooks: evidence of arrival, promise of another day. The bell rang in the tasks at hand. Every student at a desk, at work on the morning math: A dozen review problems, the nine multiplication table, some long division, the daily word problem: Lashawn buys 234 donuts. He fills boxes with a dozen donuts each. How many boxes will he have, and how many leftover donuts will he eat?
The only sound in the room was pencil to paper. Only Terence, long finished, lolled in his seat, too-long legs twisted beneath the desk. I glanced at him, and he grinned, reached beneath his desk for his book, opened to the bookmarked page and began to read, performing for my benefit, lips forming the words to stress his effort. I hid my smile. Now a hand: Lashawn, big-eyed, enthusiastic about his word problem. “Mr. Copperman, what a dozen is?” He says dozen doe-zen, a dream of feng-shui deer. “Twelve,” I said, and he nodded, began to write. “One minute left,” I called to a collective intake of breath, the mounting scratch of pencil-lead. I’d wait two minutes. Terence’s mouth worked a hundred words per minute. Lashawn’s pencil clattered to the desk, and he reached a hand to his hair, slicked it back with satisfaction. Finished. More pencils followed, clatter of completion; I covertly watched Aronisha, my slowest math student, chew and chew at her eraser, turn her eyes to the ceiling, write something and lower her pencil.
“Please stand.”
A creaking of chairs, and two dozen straight backs, faces turned to the dangling red, white, and blue, and every hand to a heart except Terence, who’d somehow figured his heart on the right side. District policy and Mississippi State Law had us pledging to the country, under God and indivisible, even by the dozen, and liberty and justice and the freedom to live this life within razor-wire fences and shotgun shacks and flat, open fields. And then the expectant pause as I walked to the front of the room, hands clasped behind my back, and all of us began together: “I pledge allegiance to the class, to work together and never rest…” This pledge was always louder, reckless volume and declaration of intent. I knew they could hear us next door, the sound shivering through cinder block: some things couldn’t be fully muted. The call and response was roared: What’s today? An opportunity to learn. What’s tomorrow? Too late! When’s the time? Now. Whose education? Our education! Whose future? Ours!
No-one missed the chance to go, every opportunity was bellowed and no voice not lifted. I spoke quietly, listened to make out each voice: the screech of Terence, Lashawn’s deep shout, Felicia’s voice ringing clearly, resonant, almost sung. At the end, the silence was pregnant for a moment, as we lingered in that promise, in everything that had been declared for this day, week, year, and then there was the complaint of metal and plastic as everyone settled to their seats and the work began in earnest, hands raising to offer answers, to be called on and declared right and so rewarded, so confirmed in imminent success.

It has been four years since I taught in the Delta, and the years since have taken me far from that classroom, from that time when I dedicated everything to improving the uncertain future of those children born on the wrong side of the tracks. And yet, I can still feel the texture of those humid Delta mornings, hear the rhythm of the voices of black children echoing down the halls. I still remember the sense of purpose that I had each day, knowing that this, here, mattered: a child’s education, their best chance against bad odds to rise from those dusty streets and slumping tenements and find a better life. Opportunity. The word has been tossed around in this election. At the end of the debate, I heard Mr. McCain presume to claim the issue of educational inequality as his own, and even go so far as to mention Teach For America in service of his plan to institute a voucher system. And I shuddered.
There’s no need for me to discuss why Mr. McCain, or indeed Republicans in general, have a lack of vision about education—it ought to be enough to say that the poor are not a central Republican concern. I am, at this late stage of the campaign, exhausted with the partisan. I’m exhausted with the character attacks, the Ayer-izing of the candidate, the Palinization of politics, the cries of “Kill him!” and “He’s an Arab!” and “Terrorist!” I’m exhausted with Joe-Six Pack and Joe the Plumber and even Joe Biden the everyman of Scranton. I’m not surprised to hear that Republicans think pictures of Mr. Obama with fried chicken and watermelon is ‘fine’, nor am I surprised that Republicans would defend those foods as, ahem, ‘food we all eat.’

I wasn’t surprised to see, in a recent New York Times article wired from the Deep South, quotes from white folk interviewed in the parking lots of Kroger and Wal-Mart that said the problem with Mr. Obama is the miscegnegation that made him: the Bible told the Israelites to stay unto themselves, and so. I know those folks. They stared and ogled me, another fellow mixed racial background with roots in Hawaii, for two full years, sometimes approaching me with twisted lips to inquire, “What exactly is you, anyway?”
My answer was always, with a grin: “American.” I am, I suppose, one of very few Americans who isn’t black and can say I’m voting Obama because of identity politics.
No, no. I am not surprised at the racial overtones of the race, or at the overtness with which it has been wielded as weapon and wedge. I am not surprised at the ugliness of the fringe, or the acts of racists. But I am surprised to hear that Mr. McCain would mention my service in the classroom, and then suggest a sentence later that we ought to create charters and a broader voucher system—to privatize the public, a thinly veiled attempt to fund private schools which are havens of white flight and wealthy flight (which are sometimes the same, but not always). I would like, then, to suggest two things concerning Mr. Obama, and both of them concern race and are positives: tit for tat, in this case.
The first is that, whether or not Mr. Obama is the whitest black man in the history of America, he is nonetheless black, and that matters to the way we think about equality. There was a moment late in the debate with McCain, after the turn to education and health care, when Mr. Obama was speaking, and the words were flowing, his demeanor calm, his tone measured and resonant and confident, when I stopped listening and just watched. Here is excellence, I thought. Here is presidential timber. Here is change—change in symbols, in emblems and mythos, in our idea of what constitutes America’s finest.

The second point relates to the first: As Obama has campaigned these last twenty months, speaking to crowds all across America, his face and voice have traveled through television screens. His rising star, through the airways and radiowaves, has been to the places that nobody visits—the places that are forgotten, that are out of our sight and mind. And in the rural ghettoes of Mississippi where the children I taught are beginning high school now and remain untouched by our first-world headaches ('What a financial cry sis is, and why they mention that Wall street all the time—and what all this bout where recess in and why do everybody care?'), even there, his voice echoes and echoes. In fact, I believe that on those sun-baked streets, Obama is amplified. I can picture it everywhere, a diffuse hum, an excitement, a new and unexpected possibility crackling through the air. Perhaps Terence, who wanted like most young black boys to be a basketball player or football star, is hearing that noise right now. It starts as a murmur, something about opportunity and equality. He turns, looks for its source. It’s the voice of a black man, sure, but more than that, it’s vigorous with success and confidence. It says: Yes, you can. And over time the volume swells and swells, it rises to a roar, and maybe Terence begins to think about what a leader looks like. Maybe he thinks about his future. Maybe he realizes the voice is his now-- and when he starts to speak, everybody turns and listens.


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As an educated biracial woman with a professional degree I have lived with this, and still encounter people who believe that people who look like me should not be in leadership positions. But I am not alone, and as I have moved up in my career I have met others like me--men and women of many colors who are contributing to our community. We make a difference by standing up, being counted, and getting the job done.
Obama is a national Rorschach test: what you see tells you more about who you are and where you come from (assuming you're willing to take on that level of insight). The discussion has been fascinating, and it will continue.
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And like Sandra, I find that photograph of Obama with the little boy astonishing. Gives me goosebumps.
Punkrgrl, I think your point about Obama being a Rorschach is exactly right. I also think this election has a lot to do with colliding mythologies-- our ideas about America, our history, our sense of ourselves... they weight the whole thing, I think.
Nice post (rated).
Perhaps they'll play that pop song that's currently popular, with it's mention of Mr. Obama?
In my school, we are now 40% Hispanic and those children can hear and feel it, too.
And my own personal optimisim inspiration? My son, 18, who when asked if race makes a difference is genuinely baffled. "Race would matter?" he muses. "I never gave much thought to that."
Everything about that photo speaks to me. The tenderness of Obama's posture, the way he is so present for the little boy in his arms. The sweet pleasure so clearly evident on the child's face, the joy on his (presumed, but I like to think of it that way) father's face. The way the young girl beams up at him, the pride and love on the face of the older gentleman in the background.
His presidency is so very deeply important, it's hard to express without sounding a little crazy. But it is.
Come on, November 5th!
Wow. What a beautiful post. I loved the opening, that glimpse inside your classroom. I found myself wondering how much better our educational system would be if all teachers were this creative, this engaged.
Your final point is perfect. For generation upon generation, the common mantra of this country has been..."Anyone, regardless of circumstances of birth, can grow up to be president."
But we all have known the unspoken exceptions to that rule. It did not apply to black men, and it did not apply to women of any color.
If Obama wins (and I am too much of a glass half-full person to take anything for granted) he will be a wonderful roll model for young blacks as a man who has attained success in both family and pursuit of the highest office in our nation, forever deafening at least part of the previously implied exception.
In fact, with his temperament, his intelligence, and his record of public service, he will be a wonderful example to all the youth of this country, and therein lies his greatest gift. As you state, he will INSPIRE, and we are a country dearly in need of positive inspiration.
Thank you again for this post.
If we want to understand Obama, we can't afford to downplay his nurturing upbringing -- raised by his white mother and maternal grandparents. He doesn't downplay this in his autobiography, Dreams From My Father. As he describes the long and difficult search for his absent father, a search for the black side of his identity, he emphasizes, time and again, how his mother supported his search every step of the way. (In fact, she seeds and nurtures every positive image he holds of his father and shields him protectively from the man's faults, which he ultimately discovers through his sister.)
Obama understands how messed up America's either-or way of thinking about race is (the one drop rule). It prevents people like him from being thought of as BOTH black and white. In terms of popular discourse, he is African-American. He doesn't insist on correcting this attribution, but we can be sure he knows it's a false choice, effectively effacing one side of his heritage and the whole of his upbringing. No wonder he seems strange to so many.
Obama's astonishing strength of character is that he found within himself a confident and serene way of refusing that choice, even as he decides, very consciously, to immerse himself in the black communities and politics of Chicago where he goes to learn how to be a community organizer. Here he claims his black American identity, far removed from his African family roots, working in bi-racial and multicultural coalitions on various projects to mobilize and uplift the poor.
It's significant that he goes to Chicago for 3 years of tough-slogging apprenticeship as a community organizer before enrolling in Harvard to become a rising intellectual star, first African-American editor of the Harvard Law Review. Here, in the years of his political formation, we can see both the bottom-up and the top-down side of the campaign team he has assembled and led so effectively in his two year run for the presidency.
WS, I absolutely agree about his multiracial or biracial background being important. Back in college, I helped found a student group that did advocacy and organizing and education concerning issues that related to multiracial individuals-- we were part of the effort that got the census changed so that you could check more than one box, or didn't have to check 'other.' We ran events that sought to unite all the isolated cultural communities in the area-- we lived between, and so felt it necessary to bridge gaps. I believe what you say about Mr. Obama's background, then, is true: being multiracial has contributed to his platform, his person, perhaps helped create his worldview.
Thanks for posting this exceptional essay.
"If there is a child on the south side of Chicago who can’t read, that matters to me, even if it’s not my child. If there is a senior citizen somewhere who can’t pay for their prescription drugs, and having to choose between medicine and the rent, that makes my life poorer, even if it’s not my grandparent. If there’s an Arab American family being rounded up without benefit of an attorney or due process, that threatens my civil liberties."
Over the course of the last 30 years, the neoconservative movement's mean-spirited dominance of the political process has made it risky for Democrats to express concern for the disenfranchised and dispossessed who have been excluded from the American Dream. In 2004, Obama (who was then running for the state senate in Illinois, a purple state with a large rural population as well as a major metropolitan center), took that risk and emerged as the conscience of his party. He articulated the moral foundations of traditional Democratic values; he offered us the opportunity to participate, through political action, in something not only larger than ourselves, but something noble and fine.
The Republicans have for years convinced millions of people of very modest means to vote against their economic self-interest with cynical appeals to their morality, their desire to belong to a movement greater and more important than their own gain. Rebuilding the Democratic majority requires a similar offer, without the cynicism, and that is what Obama is making. It is profoundly heartening to see so many young people like you, who participate in programs like Teach for America, City Year, the Peace Corps, and numerous others, responding. Bless you.
T, glad you enjoyed the piece. GM, thank you.
UF, I agree that his message has been consistent from the beginning. The moral conscience indeed-- and so badly needed, at this moment.
I get what you're saying about identity politics. It shouldn't matter, but it does. I am a white woman. I could talk until I'm blue in the face to my kids about women or black people having equal opportunities or being no different than we are, but it has far less impact than them spending a year in the classroom with a black man from Senegal or visiting women doctors.
What is compelling to me is that my kids (9 & 12) don't seem to notice that Obama is black. Or if they do, it doesn't have any special significance. My 9 year old son has pointed out that Joe Biden looks like a Republican (old, white haired man) which I think is kind of hilarious.
The other point you make that resonates very strongly with me is the issue of vouchers
to privatize the public, a thinly veiled attempt to fund private schools which are havens of white flight and wealthy flight (which are sometimes the same, but not always)
I know first hand how devastating white flight can be to the public school system. I'm a product of New Orleans parochial schools, which grew exponentially between 1964 and 1972 (when I started school). No white people I knew in my generation went to public school, excepting the magnet high school, although our parents did. My Coincidence? I think not.
I certainly don't have the answer to solving failing schools, but I know that vouchers is not it. Meaningful choice in public schools may be, but public funding of private schools is anathema to democracy. Sorry for the soapbox, but I feel very strongly about this.
I so appreciate your point of view and the years you spent in the Delta. I can imagine how frustratingly difficult and heartbreaking that must have been. Thanks for sharing your experience and your wisdom.
If you didn't read it, you show what a jackass you are by forming an opinion based on facts not present. It sounds like a choice for intentional ignorance.
Since you don't show anything of who you are when I go to your blog location, I can only guess that you don't wish to be known and may not wish any of us well here. Swell.
Umbrella, glad to hear that the middle may be switching.
SF, I thank you for coming to my defense. On the other hand, there genuinely can't be any reason to get riled up at someone who dismisses writing without having read it. The Arkansas Review accepted a story of mine this morning, and yesterday ThirdReader took another story of mine, and my essays have appeared in Pulitzer-Prize winning newspapers with distribution of nearly 500,000. This particular piece was on the cover of Salon proper today because the editors felt it particularly well-written-- which is probably why 'e-innocent' noticed it. E is likely one of the angry, right-leaning 'commenters' who like to have their say in order to feel better about themselves. I don't see much that's pretentious about having taught fourth grade in the poorest and blackest part of the poorest and blackest state in the nation. And I don't see anything particularly pretentious about suggesting that, for kids born poor in the segregated South, Mr. Obama's candidacy has a greater impact on what they believe is possible. But then, having written this piece, I guess I did read it too.
The following is a true story, which I tell even though it makes me feel like a bit like Stephen Colbert's character. Read a headline a couple weeks ago that said something like, Race Hurts Obama. And thought, well of course. Modern political races are hell on the candidates. Was well into the article before I realized that wasn't what they meant by "race."
This has more to do with Obama than me, of course. When I listen to him, I identify. He is patient, thoughtful, articulate, intelligent, kind. That's the kind of people I admire.
Published in the Arkansas Review myself, incidentally. You get accepted by Tom Williams before he left? Talk about a thoughtful articulate fellow.
Lsup, I hope it all does work. I do think, sometimes, that we have to remember that Obama is, well, human. He isn't going to erase history, or poverty, or inequality and how it's linked to race and racism. But he might move us forward.
Honto, I'm glad you enjoyed the piece. Yeah, Tom chose the story for the next issue-- evidently his last. He seems like a really good editor.