I learned a lot today. More than I had hoped or expected to, but if you know me, you know I am always trying to gain new knowledge be it with life, work, or family/friends.
I know I’ve said it before, but pardon my repeat sentences…my husband finally left today for his Officer training and with him he took a piece of me. We got up promptly around 6 am to get the kids ready for school and organize his belongings in the car. I sat quietly without words because I already felt the void in my heart.
Let me explain, that he and I have a unique relationship. One where we have fought only enough times in 8 years to count on one hand. One where we balance each other, lift the other one up on a bad day, or crack a joke simply to make the other smile. One where we finish sentences, and don’t have a need for words some days, and can warm a room with our gazes and embraces.
Not many understand this…and I never thought I would find THIS. But I did, and I cherish every single moment spent with the man I am thankful to call my husband. My best friend. My soul mate.
And now, again, he’s gone. Briefly of course, but gone from my daily life. His quirks, horrible habits, and boisterous laughter are already missing from our home.
I wanted to stay in bed all day, and feel sorry for myself.
But I got up after lying in bed for an hour and made myself study. Get my nails done. Run errands…
I can’t let life stop these next 4 months.
My daughter, Sophia begged to go to the gym…she just loves it. So I forced myself in to my running gear and we went to the gym.
I ran a painful 3 miles…kicking, screaming, and crying was felt within my entire body. But…
I have goals, dreams, and things to accomplish. And I am thankful for the closeness that he and I share.
He texted earlier in the day, “In Ohio”…I texted back, “too far”…
His response which still leaves a lump in my throat…
“Leaving the driveway was too far.”
It is for ME, HIM, and my GIRLS, I will run this race…
Piss on the knee and hip pain…I will work through it. I have goals, dreams, and passion.