Chelle's Mid-life musings

A journey of a middle aged woman...relearning to love life!


St. Charles, Illinois, USA
January 17
I am a career oriented woman, who just retired from 20 years of active duty service in the military. I now work in a civilian hospital, and recently completed my MBA in Healthcare management. I enjoy writing, cooking, running, and above all spending as much time possible with my family.


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NOVEMBER 14, 2013 9:56PM

A daughter's heartbreak...and more.

My eldest daughter texted me this afternoon as I was gathering ingredients for dinner out of our pantry.  I heard the chime from my phone as it sat on the kitchen counter, and the vibration as it rang startled me.  I tend to get lost in my cooking, so the irritating/Read full post »

NOVEMBER 7, 2013 10:12PM

A Veteran's story.

I was invited to attend a local school’s Veterans Day celebration on Monday.  This invite was extended a couple weeks ago, yet I found myself apprehensive to accept. 

I am proud of my service, mostly…but the demons that hang in my blackened closet reared their ugly head uponRead full post »

AUGUST 25, 2013 9:44PM

The power of a smile


She awoke feeling groggy, her eye lids so heavy it was as if they were pushing her back under the covers.  She wanted to yell at the sun to hide behind the clouds, more so she wanted to just forget the day before and all that transpired. Read full post »

JULY 8, 2013 11:01PM

Cancer sucks

I hate cancer. 

I have worked in the healthcare field for 22 years, yet I will never be "strong" when it comes to cancer stories. 

I hate cancer. 

I have lost family members, friends, coworkers andRead full post »

JUNE 19, 2013 10:43PM

Marathons, memories, and milestones

The alarm went off just after she woke up, finding her lying in bed for those few extra minutes.  She tried to hang on to her dreams, her sleep, her uninterrupted slumber willing the alarm clock to GO AWAY…yet it rang promptly, and she knew it was time.  Yet as she/Read full post »

While stationed at Scott Air Force Base as a Histology technician in Belleville IL, we were called to the morgue.  There was a casualty that needed attending to, and the Air Force Office of Special Investigations (OSI) needed to be called.  Shit.  Could we please have just a ‘nor/Read full post »

JUNE 7, 2013 11:58PM

A hazy shade of gray

Looking around

my daily surroundings

I see beautiful things.

A man and his dog

watching the two companions share a friendship only they


A blossoming flower

that a gardener waits countless days to see

The vibrant colors

Screaming out the world

"Here I am!"

even if only for a… Read full post »

MAY 27, 2013 9:28PM

Memorial Day, retired style.

I was an active duty Air Force service member for 20 years, 28 days.I served my country proudly stateside, in a support function that most don’t respect nor recognize.I personally will never forgive myself for not having “boots on the ground” overseas for this was the sole reason IRead full post »

MAY 16, 2013 11:24PM

Three things, Thursday

1. Tonight, I found that my page was listed as one of the top 100 Facebook Endurance pages.

Yes....I nearly cried. Ok. I did get teary. I have worked so hard with this page, that literally sells nothing promotes nothing, yet insp… Read full post »

MAY 11, 2013 11:40PM

An Ode to my Mother



Hugs that last a life time.

Tears that stain a heavy heart.

Harsh words that bore deep hash marks

On our tired souls.

High expectations, hopes, and dreams.



And then time…

Healing efforts that sang with theRead full post »

Sometimes the more honest you are, the more you support someone or a certain situation be it in physically or mentally, the more you try and BE there for people…well, the less they appreciate your time or worth. The more you give, the more they take, yet the less they/… Read full post »
APRIL 29, 2013 10:59PM

Just a glimpse...

I have never had a high self-esteem.  Looking at myself outwardly has always been an issue I’ve struggled with…but it is a struggle I continue to work on.

I started wearing glasses a few years ago, and this didn’t help with my self-esteem at all…I didn’t like howRead full post »

APRIL 23, 2013 9:37PM

Making my own rainbows...

Today I drove the 6.4 miles to my new job to complete all the pre-employment screening requirements. 
See, I have ‘done’ the same job for nearly 23 years, but having served in the Air Force for 20 of those years I have ‘learned’ that each lab is different, and finding/
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APRIL 22, 2013 10:44PM

My tribute to Boston, and life.

Monday, April 22, 2013

4-22; A tribute to Boston!

I haven’t been able to run very much this past week. My mind wasn’t in the game, nor were my legs. The 8 miles I logged last week were painful, and more so took their toll on
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APRIL 22, 2013 12:15AM

You run

To run a race, you train.

You run more miles than you care to admit.

Your knees ache, your ankles scream in pain.

You choose to run these miles, and you lace up with each

training run,

Deciding that you will control the path on whichRead full post »

APRIL 21, 2013 11:48PM

A Runner's take, on Boston

It’s time.  It’s time I got my feelings out and stopped “sucking it up.” 

Keep in mind, this is my 3rd draft of this blog post. 

Last week was horrific for me.  Between the Boston Marathon, Texas tragedy (I lived in Texas for 6 ½ years), and/Read full post »

MAY 29, 2012 11:48PM

Oklahoma skies

You haunt me with your discord

I know not what you stir

Within your clouds and dust

Yet underneath the rainbows

That follows the storm

My friend

Lies sleeplessly

Hidden underneath blankets

To hide her from the breaks and bounds

OfRead full post »

MAY 24, 2012 10:45PM

Army Strong

Army strong…

A term known by few, but felt by nearly twice as many unsung members

That didn’t hold up their right hand

Swearing to faith, God, and country…

May our soldiers find strength, peace, and passion

In the uniform they wear, and the dedication theyRead full post »

I spent the first few months trying to rest up after years of heart ache, turmoil, disappointment, and simple lack of sleep…

Yet I always found myself reaching for my ‘cover’ when I went outside…where was my cap?

I had to stand, and stare at a closet full ofRead full post »

MAY 15, 2012 12:12AM


Unspoken words

Amidst a half full glass of wine

You gave your support

Filling my glass that was once

Half empty

Yet now I find myself

Filling the glass

With dreams


And false praise

Those triumphs are muddledRead full post »

MAY 9, 2012 11:46PM

Do you remember

While the smell of hair dye

Is drowned out by the aroma of cheap, boxed wine

We smile

We light our candles, scented with lilacs

Without a care in the world

So we choose

At that moment

To fill our half full glasses…Read full post »

APRIL 24, 2012 1:14AM

Welcome to my Parade

The pain the shadows my past have cast

Have left an abundance of grey hair, wrinkles, and thinning hair

But my life is honestly no different

From anyone else that has dealt with trials

Hardships, loss, and pain

I’ve lost enough in my lifeRead full post »

The old oak tree sits nestled


In the center of the yard,

Sits proudly

With roots that intertwine

Beneath the soil of the earth

Its branches reach up

To an endless sky

That welcomes the budding leaves

With sunshine andRead full post »

APRIL 3, 2012 1:16AM

21 Gun salute

I come from a long line of military heroes.  I can’t recall the entire line of heroes that paved the path I came to walk upon, but I can tell you that my Father, Uncle, and Grandfather led the way for the inspiration of my career. 

This piece willRead full post »

APRIL 1, 2012 1:27AM


Jealousy can seethe the soul

And bring you to a wretched place

That I had hoped to never visit

This destination I’d rather leave unknown


And undiscovered

Often finds itself knocking on my door

Yet I find myself peering into the visionRead full post »