Chelle's Mid-life musings
- St. Charles, Illinois, USA
- January 17
- I am a career oriented woman, who just retired from 20 years of active duty service in the military. I now work in a civilian hospital, and recently completed my MBA in Healthcare management. I enjoy writing, cooking, running, and above all spending as much time possible with my family.
MY RECENT POSTS
- A daughter's heartbreak...and
November 14, 2013 09:56PM
- A Veteran's story.
November 07, 2013 10:12PM
- The power of a smile
August 25, 2013 09:44PM
- Cancer sucks
July 08, 2013 11:01PM
- Marathons, memories, and
June 19, 2013 10:43PM
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “sadly people forget that
a pretty face, doesn't make
beautiful person. Great
November 19, 2013 08:17PM
November 16, 2013 09:26PM
- “what a wonderful
story....you portrayed the
November 15, 2013 08:37PM
- “my thoughts and prayers
are with you....”
November 15, 2013 07:59PM
- “From a retired Air Force
vet, now Army Officer's wife-I
you for this
November 15, 2013 07:49PM
Guilt often overcomes me as I lie in bed at night
Sleepless nights intermixed with bad dreams
Encompass my being with night sweats and chills
Knowing soon he will have to leave.
His leaving leaves me with the unending burden
Of housework, child rearing, and nights filled with tear stained cheeks… Read full post »
I will start this piece out with the fact that I am not Greek. I have no Greek blood that runs through me, nor have I ever visited Greece.
Yet I can’t help but to believe…
I have to say 9 months ago my Air Force sister gave… Read full post »
The dryer sang quietly to me, as if to remind me of the countless loads of clothes I have yet to wash and dry…
Yet I felt distracted in a moment, more so a time when my life had more excitement and more “plans” for a Saturday night. My evening/… Read full post »
You loved me because I took the time to smile
To gaze upon your drunken, beaming face
In that bar we danced and drank in, so many years ago
I caught your gaze
Beyond the smoke filled room
With hundreds of… Read full post »
With bated breath I drove forward
Managing and traveling
The coarse roads
Feeling every bump and pot-hole of traction
Yet somehow I found myself
Forgetting to feel and see
What was right in front of my eyes.
Instead I found myself
Loathing,… Read full post »
Embers burn upon a fire I have stoked
“Don’t stay up too late,” my Husband whispered
So gently in my ear
As he quietly succumbed to the night
As the down pillows and comforters that called to his tired eyes.
Jason Mraz sang gently to me… Read full post »
This was previously posted on another site, but a piece I felt needed to be re-visited.
To stay, or not to stay...that is often the question. Here is my experience with divorce, and questions you need to ask if you are in a bad marriage.
photo via Shutterstock… Read full post »
Countless decades have evolved
Yet the scars run deep
I scrub and clean trying to wash away the past
Yet in the night
Those memories find me
And now it is my choice.
Wallow in the pain?
Question the whys and what ifs?… Read full post »
I had been in the military for 13 years. Served proudly through the 9-11 tragedy as a supplemental lab technician during the countless hours of blood drives in hopes we could save at least one life.
Back tracking, I had joined the military in 1991, wanting nothing more than… Read full post »
War is a word
Engraved in our soul
Although we may not all
Set our boots upon
The ground of which we fight
Yet said ground
Is often unspoken
And untold to most who
Obsess in watching the latest… Read full post »
We look for strength in muscles
Hoping to build and strive for more
Yet the strength we need
Often thrives forward
With a desire to uphold
Is often lying dormant
Within our hearts
Hiding behind discord
Fear… Read full post »
2012...my world isn’t ending, it truly is just beginning.
I’ve heard the Mayan calendar is ending, the world is doomed for the final demise yet I can’t help but to keep planning, keep pushing, and moving forward with my daily and future goals.
New Year’s Eve/Day is on… Read full post »
I can look back on many life changing events that have shaped and molded me into the woman that sits here calmly at my keyboard tonight. The holidays always tend to make me muse over the events of the year, especially New Year’s Eve because I find it important to recollect/… Read full post »
The dream of something more
Old time movies
Where boy meets girl
And the sun rises and sets swiftly in her eyes
Whilst the strength of his arms
And the ease of his gaze
Sweep her off her feet
Knocking her to the ground… Read full post »
Looks that can carve
And jagged edges
Where a once soft
Unscarred and blissful life
Filtered by scorn,… Read full post »
For years I hid behind different shades of hair dye
And various fashion statements that mean truly nothing.
I can tell you I prefer
A pair of baggy jeans and a soft cotton tee shirt
With my thinning hair… Read full post »
I wrote this previously, but was blissfully reminded of how much my Mother loves me this past weekend while spending Christmas in my parent's home with my sister and her family for one of the first years in nearly 20 years. Thanks, Mom...I love you.
As I reach middle age I… Read full post »
I first want to say, Merry Christmas to everyone! Been a few days since I've written or stopped by, but has been a very busy two days with my family.
I could write, describing all the gifts given, and received.
I could think about what I have, or don't have this… Read full post »
Had a bad day,
Or did I?
I was the girl who walked around in a whirlwind of the self-induced black hole for 25 years.
I was the girl who yes, had been dealt a rough hand by the ‘dealer of life’. But honestly, who hasn’t?
A little girl
Road her bike through paths of endless trees
Birds’ sweetly singing chorus’s unknown as she found her way,
With not a cloud in the bluest of skies.
Across the flowing creeks that sang trickling songs
Washing away any pain
That may… Read full post »
Tonight I think of what I have withstood,
various tribulations I have been given,
Yet more what I have done with situations
Given to my hand.
Laid to rest
In a graveyard for only
Soulless thieves to pray
Current success… Read full post »
My winter wonderland
We moved back to the greater Chicago area just this past May after traveling all over the United States for the past 20 years having served my time in the Air Force. Our new and permanent home is St. Charles, IL, a beautiful and quiet suburb of/… Read full post »
In the background I hear my dryer spinning my now clean clothes, faintly smelling of the dryer sheets I carefully placed within the dryer, and realize all these years I have been spinning along as well. Not sure where I am going, yet with small imperical goals that I had set for… Read full post »
A Veteran’s thoughts…
My latest plight is fighting the Veterans Affairs (VA) office for the disability claim I filed on 4 Apr 2011. People often look at me with a cocked head and a crocked grin and say, “YOU filed disability? You are about as disabled as my/… Read full post »
This was previously posted on another site, but felt it was worth reposting as this is my 'new home' and the subject at hand can't be left untold. We all have 'bad days' yet for some of us, those bad days can lead us into a downward spiral.
Suicide is a touchy… Read full post »